Lost Vacation

Who the hell am I?

1. Amnesia dan luka sobek dikepala ( Amnesia and scracth in the head)

2. Insting akan adanya bahaya ( Awareness of danger)

3. Mengemudi mobil dengan baik, oh! Dan kata maddie motor juga ( good driver. Oh wait! Maddie said it was motorcycle too)

4. Mimpi tentang pembantaian ( m******e dream)

5. Aku orang asia ( I'm asian)

6. Aku bagus dalam menggunakan pisau ( I'm good with knives)

7. Aku berhasil menjatuhkan 6 orang pria yang jauh lebih besar dariku ( I took down 6 man a lot bigger than me)

8. Dejavu tentang suara seorang wanita dan suara seorang pria sebelumnya ketika aku sedang berkelahi. ( Dejavu about a woman voice and a man voice while fighting)

Yeah. The man must be really close to me, for I remember him in a crisis, and must be really trust him. And the woman? Her voice is amazingly sweet. And she offered to read me story. Is she my mother?

"…tarik nafas pelan dari hidung…lalu keluarkan dari hidung….Bagus…ulangi lagi…bagus…sudah tenag? Mau dibacain cerita?..." ( pull the breath from your nose...now, push it from your nose..good, again...good, again...calm yet? Want me to read some bedtime story?

I tried to follow her advice like this afternoon. I sat cross legged on the floor and getting comfortable, I inhale and exhale from my nose. But my head buzzing around like there's some insect flying around in there. And so It's not relax I got, It's headache. 

I scrutinize the list in my hand, still hadn't figure out any clue of who I am. The fighting part is really not good. How can a small teenager like me took down six adult man. And those strategy I make? Gross. Just who the hell am I?

And then I'm thinking of the normal looking that is Maddie's life. But I guess that's how life is. Maddie's life apparently is as normal as I though before. Dad's bisnis rival came after Maddie to get him. I've been telling her to let Mam and Dad know. I won't let my guards down though, but it's just the two of us here, there's always a chance I got distracted that might got Maddie in danger.

I know Maddie called Dad this evening, but I don't know if she tell him the thruth or she's still stubborn enough to have 'the normal life' she's holding on like there is no tomorrow. 

It's still early, but Maddie has been locking herself in her room. Maybe she's still in shock and don't want me to know. And I don't want to deal with her either. Damn! My head is buzzing with a lot of things. How am I going to deal with it? I don't want to sleep it off either, because this kind of things only would bring me to the nightmare.

So, I decides to take a walk. I grab a shawl and put it around my neck and got out. I just walked down the street without any destination in mind. Looking at the nice street lamp, and the people that's hanging around the park laughing with their loved one. Ah...how sweet their life is. I kept walking enjoying my jelousy.

After a few block, I stopped in front of an old looking store, that look like selling spices. Maddie gave me cash, saying Mam and Dad send it for me when I refused. I'm weighing and then decide to get in. Maybe just intrigued or maybe I can bought some things. I don't know what spices would be good for a bang head like me, but the store is like drawing me in.

An old gray haired Indian man greet me with his toothless warm smile. Asking what I needed. But I actually don't know what I need. And then I remember the fighting, that migh be left some bruises. I ask him if he got some spices for it. He nodded, and then took some spices from his glasses jar, and put it together in a bowl and mashing it together, while telling me each spice benefits. He asked me my name and he told me his name's Mr.Singh. He's talking gleefully because he said there's not much people came in. I asked why he hadn't closed the store, he said it's his live calls, so the store will closed eventualy when he died. We're talking about so much things. I'm glad I came here. I got a lot of knowledge from this old guy. But the night just got late and I have to go home, or Maddie is going to call the police on a missing person. So I paid my spices and said my goodbye. Mr.Singh asked me to come some other time, and I promised I will. He gave me some herbal tea as a gift. I thank him once more, and then left.

I was just walking a block from the store, when I heard someone call my name. I turn and found Trent driving slowly to macth my pace. He then stopped, and so I stop walking too. " Hey, what are you doing walking alone this late?" he asked, concern.

" Uhm, I can't sleep so I took a walk for fresh air" Oh God, look at those broad chest and those sharp eyes. Why did my heart beating like it's going to jump out off my chest

" Come on, I'll give you a ride home" He said.

" No, it's okay. I'm on my way home. And it's just a few blok ahead" I'm not sure I would survive in a car with him. " And I kinda like walking" I added lamely

" Then I'll walk you home " he insisted

" How about your car?" I asked. s**t! He's stubborn

" I'll get it later. Come on" He grabbed my hand. My heart stop and then hammering like crazy. Blood racing fast. I'm sure now my face would be red like a tomatto. Thank god it's night time or he will see my red face. He wore faded jeans and black long sleeve tee that rolled to his elbow. The tee hugging his body like a glove showing his muscles. Damn! why is he always looking this hot. We walk in silence, but he hadn't let go of my hand. His hand is so big and warm. It's felt like the warmth spred to my body.

But, like I said it's just a few blok away, so after a few minutes walk we're here. But he hadn't let go of my hand. I cleared my throat.

" We're here. Do you want to come in?" I offered, as I don't want to be rude. But he just looking down at me. Litterally. Because he's so tall, I have to look up to see his face. He tuck a strand of a lock of hair behind my ear. And then he stroke my cheek. al  the while he's looking my lips. As it suddenly dry, and I unconciosly lick it.

" You're beautifull, Justin. Do you know that?" No, I don't. I'm just the plain jane Justin Logan. And Maddie always said I am small and flat. Really insulting if you asked me, but I can do nothing, because that's the truth. He's averted his gaze to my eyes, and I can't help staring back at those beautyfull blue eyes. His face is somehow now just an inch from my face. His hot breath brushing my cheek. I can't help but closing my eyes in anticipated.

I felt his hand on my cheek and then his warm lips touch my lips in a very sweet butterfly kiss. I know his face is still close but he's not kissing me again, so I let a shudder breath I don't know I had been holding, and opening my eyes slowly. I found him smirking.

Before I could do anything, he put his left hand in the small of my back and pull me real fast slamming me to his chest. I gasped in surprise, and he took the advantage to capture my lips again while his right hand holding my nape. This time he's not giving me any chance. He just sucking my lips hard, and somehow I move along with him, kissing him back. I loop my hands around his neck for dear life when he pull me even closer to him I almost stradling him. I gasp for air, and he just move his kisses down my neck, makes my breath even harsher. His hot breath brushing my neck sending shiver all over my body. He moved us until my back hit the wall, he grab my bump in both hands and lifting me up so now I'm eye level with him. He loop my legs around his waist fast, makes me gasp in surprise. And he took the advantage once again, this time he plunge his tounge in my mouth and he move it in my mouth. There's nothing I could do other than fasten my grip in his neck and my leg in his waist because he squeeze me to the wall with his hard body. He grunt in my mouth and I can feel his hand grop me everywhere before his hand move inside my shirt and carresing my bare skin. A moan escaped my mouth, and he moves his hand higher, but I stopped him in time. He bite my lower lip gently and then let it go. He put his forehead in mine trying to cacth his breath, as am I. 

" I was dreaming doing it since the first time we met. I'm sorry if I gone too far, I guess I lose control" He said and then peck my lips a few more time and help me down. I don't know what to say. My face burn, embarased of my own act. And I guess words just blown away with the wind.

" Uhm, okay" is all I could say. I looked down my feet. He chuckled. He lifted my face and peck my lips once more, and two more. And then just left.

" Good night, J" He said over his shoulder smirking.

Oh god, what was that. That was a hell of a surprise. I'm still reeling from the feel of his touch. I shake me head to clear my head, and going in.

I took my clothes off and apply the ointment from Mr.Singh. He said if I apply it soon enough then the bruises won't be too painfull or too invisible. Well, lets just see tommorow. I Did it in front of the mirror so I can apply it thoroughly. Now, what's that? I got a red mark on my neck. Damn! Trent left a hickey? s**t, Maddie will freak out when she see it. I tried to put the ointment on it, maybe with some luck it will dissapear along with the bruises in my body.

I went to the kitchen to brew some tea Mr.Singh gave me. I need some distraction. I was taking a walk to clear my head off the even this afternoon. But after my encounter with Trent, my head kept replaying Trent's hot kisses. It's guaranteed I won't be able to close my eyes.

" Need a hand, miss logan?" I shriek, put my hand over my heart. How can I not hear her came in. I guess I was just too engrossed with the memory of Trent's kisses. "Emmm, smells good"

" Oh, It's fine, Mrs. Hudson. It's late, I thought you've been asleep. I make some tea, want some?" I offered

" No, but thank you sweetheart. I Heard something from here. I thought you might need my help. But obviously you're good. Miss Maddie has never been in the kitchen without burning her hands. Or worst, she'd burn this house to ground " She said, smiling fondly. Yeah that sounds like Maddie, I laugh. " I'll leave you it then, Miss Justin. Let me know if you need anything" She added before she left, I just nodded my head.

" Good night, Mrs Hudson" she left smiling fondly at me. This old lady has a heart of gold. Very loving and really patient with our antic. If I got a mother maybe I wish one like Mrs. Hudson. Well, I have one now. Vick is also loving, but she's never around, not that I'm complaining. She's calling every now and then tough.

I brough my tea to the living room and turn on the TV. I sprawled on the sofa. Picking some random channel that has a rerun talkshow. The guess is an ex criminal. And unfortunately got an amnesia. Just like me. I watch it till the end. And then I kept replaying again and again the conversation in my head. I don't realize Maddie sat beside me.

" What was it? You make a creepy serious face, you know" she commented, and then leaning on my mug " What is it?" she asked before reacing my cup and just took a sip.

" Yuch! What is it, Justin? Are you triying to kill me, or are you commiting a suicide?. That's just...yuch" she scrunching her face, wiping her mouth, even her tongue with her hand and thrus my mug back to me. I laugh my ass off. " 

It's a herb tea. I like it that way. Why're you up anyway?" I said between laugh

" I couldn't sleep" she frowned " I can ask you the same question"

" Uhm…me too. Uhm…Mad, I…I think I killed my mother" Maddie snaped her head to me, her jaw dropped. Her eyes wide open in horror.

" What arec you talking about" she said breathless

" It was the lady in this show. She killed her mother after this mother beat her to a pulp. The doctor said it was because she has this hard trauma. She can't bear it in her mind. The mind working on it's own, and bang! amnesia" Maddie sigh in relief, and then chuckled.

" It's not always working like that, you silly" she laughed

So, what's trigered my amnesia then?

We sat in silent for what's like forever. Maddie look lost in tought. Her face looked sad. I never saw Maddie like this before. She's always the happy go lucky person.

" Hey, You okay, Mad?" I asked in concern

" I'm not so sure" her answer makes me nervous

" Wanna talk about it?" I asked again

" Uhm…Justin, here's the thing. When I brought you to the hospital, I saw you like the little sister everyone ever wants. And god knows I always want one. You small and Innocent. Luckily, you know nothing about yourself. I though fate might brought you to me. I want to bring you home and pampering you as a baby sister should be" she look at me. I raised my eyebrow " I know, This isn't funny. Don't you dare to laught. In the end, look where I brought you to. I Put you in danger"

" That's absolutely okay with me. I care about you, Mad. And we're sister now and forever. You told me that"

" Everything gone wrong, Justin. I Put your life trought hell, I never wants that, Justin. I…" Maddie looked lost

" You want me to leave?" I asked. That seems a win-win solution.

" No. But…I don't know. I'm not worth it. I can't bear it if anything happen to you, But I don't want to lose you"

" That's what family do. They protect each other. I'm not going anywhere" I said

" All this things scared me, Justin. How can I be this selfish, just because I want my normal life, then I brought you to this. I..." she can't continue. I put my arms around her, and pat her back awkwardly. And then let her go. I realize, I'm not a hugger apparently.

" Can we skip this and talk about something else? Here." I asked before thrusting my mug to her.

" Like what?" she asked in a defeated tone, and then sipping my tea without thinking " Yuch!! You poisoned me" she almost choked and then she slammed my mug to the table. I laugh my ass off. How can someone fell in the same hole twice. She laugh with me while hitting me playfully. And so, our blue moment just flying out the window.

" By the way, what's this god awfull smell?" she scrunched her nose

" I don't know" I smirked, while in fact I know she might talk about my ointment. It smell awfull but I can feel the warmth it's caused. And the smell is actually calming

And then we're talking about so much things. She told me about daddy's company and how she'd have to run it someday because she's an only child and heir. And now that I came in the picture she asked me to promise that I would help her when the times come. But for now, she wants to enjoy her life to it's fullest.

Now that she has told me everything, I can understand her a little. And I will help her however I could. I owe her that much. And she's a good friend_correction, sister now., she's fun and easy going even when sometimes she acted like a 10 years old. We talk and talk until at some point we fell asleep.

I crept my eyes open slowly when Mrs. Hudson dragged open the curtain, and I don't know how, but we slept on the carpeted floor in front of the couch. The sun shot in my eyes, and I tried to shield it with my hands. Mrs.Hudson laughing so hard she held her tummy. I took my hand away from my eyes. What?!! Of course Mrs hudson laugh. I found Maddie's ass right in front of my face. I sat up and hit her hard with my pillow.

" Hey! What the hell?!" She jolted awake

" You put your ass in my face" I said furiously, But Maddie just laughing her ass off. And so I hit her again. Maddie took her own pillow and hit back. And then we engage in a pillow war, until the room filled with the feathers that flying around from the pillows we destroy.

Mrs. Hudson shouting warning at us, telling us to stop and threaten to punish us if we don't stop, but we just going on. And then she rolled her sleves ready to come for us. Maddie grab my hand and dragged me out. We still laughing while running out the door. I can hear Mrs. Hudson chuckled a little muttering " brats", as if we're five years old. But then again we kinda act like one. And I'm glad Maddie back to her happy self, because the sad Maddie is creepy.