Fantasy Desires

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Kaya POV

After the class gets over I went to the washroom to fresh up, later I came out from the washroom and saw Xavier standing in front of the door. I ignored him and went ahead., suddenly he caught my wrist and pinned me to the wall. My body got stiffened and tried to push him, but he was strong than me. His face was red and said with clenched jaws, “Don't insult me ever in front of anyone”. I scoffed and said, “Then stay away from me”. He said sternly, “Look into my eyes, could not see I like you”. I angrily snapped at him, “But I am not interested in you”. His eyes softened and left my hand. A tear rolled down from my eyes and looked at my hand a red bruise mark was there. He looked at my hand and tried to touch it. but I stopped him and said, “Please don't repeat it ever, if anyone came to know about you then my parents would stop my studies for which I have done lots of hard work and don't talk to me again” I left him there and ran back to the classroom.

My head was throbbing, and no energy was left in my body, so wanted to

rest, but I have to study for my future. After the class got finished, I told Ashi about what Xavier did in the washroom She gritted her teeth that I could hear it. She flared her nostrils, “I am going to

complain about him to the in charge”.

I sighed heavily and said, “We can't do

this, if anyone informs my father, my studies and every dream would

be stopped”. She exhaled deeply, and we packed our bags to leave the classroom. Then Xavier came with a paper in his hand. I moved aside to go outside the class and did not say a word to him. Ashi understood my situation and said to me looking at Xavier, “I am coming in ten minutes after some work”. I nodded and went outside the classroom. He made me feel weak and trapped. I wished that my life was simple and sober like other girls but every time I have to face one or the another problems and live the life like a coward person. Though Ashi went aside to talk Xavier I waited for her patiently to go along with her in Van. She came with a paper and her face was red and bulging eyes due to anger. I asked her looking at her hand, “What's this”?

She grumbled looking at the paper,

“I thought that he would be nice with you but i***t hurt you, now he regrets for his deeds. And he asked me to give you this Sorry letter”. I let out breath and said, “I don't want to talk to him, nor I need his sorry letter”. She slipped the paper in front of me and cajoled in her baritone voice “I Know he did stupidity but give him a chance and only read this letter”. I took the papers from her hands and read it,

Kaya,

I am sorry for hurting you, but I have not hurt you intentionally. I tried to talk to you every time, but you rejected me. Still I thought to give you these gifts in return of helping me.

But in front of everyone you rejected me. My gifts and made people laugh on me. I Really like you! At least forgive me if you don't like me and give me a chance of becoming your friend.

by Xavier.

I exhaled deeply and throw the papers in the trash can. She said after a pause, “What have you decided”?. I shook my head looking at the papers. I would forgive him, but I can't become his friend. She nodded her head and said, “I respect your decision but give him a chance least. You were also mean with him from the first day. Maybe he would be a nice person”. I hummed at her words and sighed heavily. I could not keep the papers, so I threw it in the trash can. Maybe his feelings for me would be genuine, but I could not feel with him anything the sparks and feelings which I had for Zaan when I saw him at the first sight that I could not feel with anyone. My thoughts were interrupted by the voice of annoyance Uncle Jones said while glaring at us, “I am waiting from an hour, let's go home”.

We both gave him a sheepish smile and waved hands as an apology. Nevertheless, he rolled his eyes and give us a small smile. We sat on Van and left the tuition to go back home. Meanwhile, I asked Ashi to give me her phone for a few minutes. In this chaos, I forgot to talk Zaan, She handed me her phone, then I message Zaan On face time,

Hi, How are you?

I message him from Ashi ID, then I thought to create my own account. Usually, I am not a social media person that's why I have not created my own account though my friends insisted me many times, but I refused them. Ashi was busy in copying from my notes of physics numerical. Then I clear my throat and asked her, “would you please give me your phone for tonight”?

She c****d her head and kept her books aside, “But why did you need it?”,questioned me. “I wanted to talk with Zaan and within a few minutes we will reach our home and I have to wait to know his reply”. She kept her hand on mine and said, “I would love to give you, but my mother would ask me many questions, sorry, but I could not give you”. I understood her problem and nodded my head. She said with a frown, “I am sorry, Kaya”. I gave her a sad smile, and we discuss our studies. After a few minutes, we reached our own home. I changed into my comfortable t shirt and trousers. Although my father is a politician and businessman but still I have only three pairs of trousers and two t shirts, Once in a year during festival my father gave me money to buy dresses in that I have bought my comfy t shirt and trouser for my daily use and Salwar Kurtis which wore on the Eid-ul-fitr.

I was thinking to buy a mobile phone for myself, that is the only way t could talk Zaan, but I don't have a single penny in my pocket and I don't know to whom I should ask. So, eventually I went to Ben room. I knocked on her room door. She said, “come in” as I went inside, all of a sudden she jumped and stood in front of me. I raised my eyebrows and asked, “What were you doing”?. She sheepishly shows her teeth and said, “sis, I was just doing my

homework”. I narrowed my eyes and asked her, “Tell me the truth”, She removes her blanket, and I was shocked in horror. I glared at her playfully, “What are you doing with these full of cockroach jars”? She was innocently looking at the ground replied to me, “I was going to do a prank on mom”. I gasped and kept my hands on her shoulders and We both sat the ground.

I caress her face softly and said, “My little sis if she gets to know then you and she gets scared by cockroaches to please don't do these things.” She pouted at me giving a puppy looks in which I get agree for her pranks every time.

But not this time I pretend a serious face and said sternly, “No, pranks and this is final”. She sighed heavily and picked up the jar of cockroaches. I flinched and quickly stood up. She laughed softly and swiftly acts innocently, I said firmly to her pointing towards the window, “Go and throw it, or I will throw it”. She nodded her head and went near the window and threw a jar of cockroaches. Likewise, she frowned and huffed at me. I smiled at her and cloaks my arms around her to praise her. Then, I whisper to her, “I came here to ask for a help”.

She said smiling at me, “Which type of help, tell me”?. I thought for a while and after a pause I said to her, “I needed money so would you give some of yours pocket money”. She said sympathetically, “Sorry, but yesterday I have spent all mine pocket money”. I shook my head and said with a smile, “It's okay, I know if it had money then you would have the money”. She nodded her head and I left her room. The only option was left to ask from mom. I am not sure for she would give me or not but let's try once.

I saw her sitting in her room gossiping on her phone, I went inside her room, but she did not notice me as she was so busy in talking on her phone. Furthermore, I clear my throat to get her attention, Her eyes gaze averted on me, and she c****d her head. After a few minutes, she ended her call conservation and looked at me.

She raised her eyebrows and said, “Why have you come here”? I fidgeted my fingers and gulped my nervousness and said, “Mom, I need some money”? She twisted her lips in disappointment and said, “You spoil brat, I have already spent lots of money, and now you wanted more”. I did not say a word and looking at my feet. She said in a harsh tone, “I won't give you a penny, we are already doing enough for you and don't expect further from us”. A tear burnt in my eyes and nodded my head. Then, Kosho came in the room scrunching his nose and looking at me with disgust. He ignored me and moved to the mother. He gave her a side hug and said smiling at her, “Mom, I need Five thousand dollars to party with my friends”.

He had immaculately trimmed a beard and mustache, after the day I was caught in the storage room with Zaan.

My mother filled up his mind, and now he hates me too. She smiled at him with happiness and admiration. She took out her purse from her cupboard and opened her purse as she was about to give him, her glance stopped at me and said in sour tone from her laced tongue, “What are you standing for?. Go from here”. I bowed my head down and left her room. She gave him five thousand dollars, but I have only asked a hundred dollars, and she did not give me. I can't handle my loneliness and I really want Zaan back in my life because he was the only person who supported me. I have already lost the love of my parents and I don't want to lose him. Likewise, I fall on my bed and like every night I cried till my heart feels light. The only way is Ashi phone to talk with him. I hope he had replied my messages and reciprocate same feelings with me. His eyes spark in the same way as it sparks on those days when we were together.