Out Running Demons of the Past

Chapter Six

Levi

I've been here for three months now. The guys have all been the best of friends I could ask for, whereas the girls still haven't brought me into their fold. Honestly though, I couldn't give a rats ass, because girls are mean by nature. Even back home I only had two friends that were girls, They were the best, but other than that I liked being friends with guys way more. I had more of the same interests as guys; sports, cars, making stupid bets, ya know things like that.

Not to say that we've all had our differences and little arguments, but I have a closer relationship with them than I even had back home with my guy friends. It's like we are almost a little tight nit family now and I have 5 guys who will be more than happy to beat the s**t out of any guy who hurts me.

There was this one guy about a month ago; he called me and I quotes a slut bag hoe skank a frank and lets just say he's still in the hospital.

Although, truth be told, I have feelings for Derek. I can't explain the connection to him. But when ever I think about my feelings for him I feel alone because I can't tell anyone how I feel for him. These are all his buds, and he's already in a relationship with Clear. Derek and Clear have been in a steady relationship for a year now and I'm not the type to chase after a guy who isn't available. That only leads to heart break and losing the person even as a friend.

I've even tried to date a couple guys since I've moved here, but they all think they can control me and have me at their beck and call.

Here are my thoughts on that

Fuck no. f**k that s**t.

"Hey Derek, do you believe in soul mates?"I ask him shyly, even if I can't be with him I'm still curious. He's always been an open book, even when I've asked him questions about Clear. So I know this question won't be to out of no where.

"I don't really know. I wanna believe in soul mates, but now a days too much s**t goes on for me to be able to believe in soul mates."

waiting in the lunch line we grab food trays and utensils; there is only a few people ahead of us. Today on the menu they have two of my favorite foods. Nachos and tater tots. Score! I also can't pass up a fresh salad.

"Why do you, Levi? Is there anyone whose caught your attention?"

"Yah, but I can't tell you who."

It's you i***t! How can you not tell!

Well I intentionally haven't shown any interest in him that way.

Oh, shut it! He should be able to read people better.

Can you not, I don't want to have these feelings for him.

Fighting with my conscious is only making my conflicting feelings worse. I hate that I'm even having this talk with myself, damn it.

"Levi? What's going on? You're never this quiet, in fact you are quite vocal about everything damn thing. Why can't you tell me who you like?"

As he pulls me to look at him, Clear walks up to us. Giving me the perfect distraction, so I don't have to continue this conversation any more.

"It would just change everything between me and this guy and the outcome doesn't look so good." I walk out of the cafeteria with my full tray of food, no longer in the social mood.

"Levi? Don't I even get a hello?" Clear calls after me. Clear and I aren't friends by any means but we get along because of Derek.

"Sorry Clear, not now." I want to skip the rest of the day here at school, but my dad would kill me if he found out. Dad said I only get a free pass when it's a serious must. And I don't want to use one of those passes, it's way not even worth it.