IS IT MY FAULT?

Chapter 7

Rose pov ..

It has been two days since I flew from the place called home , i don't know who I should face or who I should turn into . My life is miserable ,I cried in pain as I saw my daughters state. She was crying with hunger, I  didn't have anything to give her . I look like a failure , A mother who has failed hee child. I couldn't even stand up as I holed her in my arms, I wnate dto go to the market to aos for help but I knew , 7 knew that my stepdad is going to find us and do something worse this time.

I stood up and walked with my baby in my arms as I cried, I was really young and poverty is the main thing that had made our town to be burdened up .I have no idea what was I going to do , but I prayed inside that i will meet a person who could understand my state and so that I could be helped .

I am just a teenager with a baby that I never intended to have , but i don't want to live without her , She is my world .She is my everything, looking at my daughter's beautiful cute face , I muffled a sob because I gave birth her in a very difficult situation. 

I had a complicated pregnancy and bleed a river , I thought I was going to lose my life but I recovered after a woman helped me unwillingly , she only pitied my state and she offered me some herbs that made my bleeding stop . " even if she hated me , but I will always be thankful of hee kindness " 

I would have died that day baby because you, I love you so much and that is why I wnated to live for you, but I can't help but blame myslef even more as I also wanted to die , but hearing your cries made me want to hold you in my arms even more. 

I am trying my best to be a good mother to you , but sometimes I feel like I am still failing ....I talked to my daughter with tears, I wish she could understand me ,but she is just a baby ..

A baby, an innocent angel of mine.

Maybe it was all my fault!! Maybe I deserve whats happening to me now , but what did I do wrong that made dad sell me into his d**g dealing like achepa p********e whole I was just his step daughter? 

I wanted to believe that he was not a monster but after leaving with him for all those years, I knew he will never change ." I HATE YOU " 

I screamed at the top of my lungs , I couldn't hold it anymore but cried as I saw my little daughter frightened and crying on my arms . " Sssshsh" darling, I cooed her. I am sorry, I didn't wnat to make you cry !! 

I am sorry I tell her as I cooed her ,I reached on one of the trees shades and sat on the ground , " shshsh darling" I tell her . Soon she went silent and she smiled at me amd I smiled at her warmly .

This little angel ...I murmured but soon I felt something wasn't right . U look at the place and I saw I was s in someone's farm .I got frightened a little and planned to walk away as soon as I take alityle rest , Somthing in my body churned , I didn't know what was it .

I massaged my hands but soon a tight grip touched and hold my arm , I yelled with fright and looking at my baby .

" My baby, my baby " I yelled ..

Leave me alone , I tell the person but he gripped my hair and dragged me far a little form my baby . " stop it, I trashed as I knew what it was going to happen next " 

I am sorry,y please leave me alone, I won't pass by again, I swear I won't I tell the man but he didn't even hear my pleas as he unbuckled his shorts and lifted up my dress .

Please no, I pleaded with him but he slapped hard and said , " you brought this on your own, I never aksed you to pass by on my farm didn't you!? He asked me but I kept on crying .

After all I was just a woman, A woman who is used as a pleasure for men . Only men ...I cried pathetically as I let my tears fall and a smile to spread on my face .I loooed at my crying baby as the man beneath me kept on doing wjat he wnated to do .

I didn't struggle but let him violate me , I smiled at my baby who cried , " I wish you will never pass sthe pathetic life I have been " I will make sure that you are going to get a better life my dear ..

" This life is not for you ..my dear and I will make sure I take you out , I murmured . Painful tears streamed down my eyes as i felt the man standing and tucked himself in ." 

I watched him chuckle and said , " you are a nice lay" He did not finish what he said as I took a load of mud and soil nd throw right on his face . You carry woman!! 

Watch out, he yelled but I wasn't going to let him out alive .. at all ...I took a very big stone that I saw beside me and released it from my hands to his hands , I felt nothing at that point .

I smiled as I pounded his head with the stone , him crying pathetically just like how he violated me . You may be a dominant but I will never be anyone's submissive. 

If no one can help me , then I am going to help myslwf and give myslef justice , I mumbled with a smile as I crushed his head ending his life and him bleeding as I was covered on his blood .I made sure I didn't feel his breath and I dropped the stone. 

Wh..at ?? ..What did I do? No, it can't be ,i murmured..." I came back in my senses as I noticed my hands covered with blood and my baby crying in the verge of death ..

I stumbled and moved back and ran form the scene as I cried hysterically .." I didn't kill him " 

It wasn't my fault !! Or was it !? ..I did nothing wrong i reassured myslef with tears and ran with my daughter in my arms .

Please !! Help me ...