This is my Life ❤️

you never know who will hurt u

Maria and her family move homes leaving the past of Maria's abuse .Maria is never going to forget about her abuse .

Moving into a 4 Bedroom nice home in Santa Ana with her grandparents as she starts to feel excited safe happy hoping her mother wouldn't have her as a maid.Happiness ends when she sees the man who had taken advantage of her . Her father only told her to stay away and if he were to even say anything to her he would handle him with his own hands .The only thing that came to Maria's head was how could I call him uncle .For the first time she started feeling anger and hate inside of her .There were times her uncle tried calling her but Maria just avoided him and ran off ignoring him into the hallway .

Maria is now 11 years old wow time sure flies and to her surprise her mother will be having a baby once again this time a boy everyone got taken by surprise if it wasn't because her father was driving drunk and wanted for her brother to drive Gustavo being 10 years old didn't have no clue of driving but being scared of her father he decides to get behind the wheel and wow that was a crazy night when lights were flashing everywhere police officers yelling ambulance loud What had just happened? "omg" her brother did not make it not even down the street he had ran into a home it was scary but most of all it was unbelievable what a person under the influence could do without thinking of the consequences as officers help Maria out of vehicle she hears her father say to her brother "u better say u wanted to drive"of course that didn't work he was so young and fear was all over his face he was crying feeling guilty seeing mom in the ambulance heading to hospital and father in handcuffs getting arrested for what he did luckily her grandparents came to get them and they were taken home to rest .

That's how the news of the new baby came. Mom only had little time before she gave birth as I layed

in bed all that would come to my head was the thought of another baby "am I going to have to be the one to do diapers again? omg get my hair pulled poop on my hands disgusting but how exciting a baby boy I thought it shouldn't be so bad ..

For once I thought life was just being easy on me and I was being a kid again mom was actually giving me a break and I got to play.One night I really needed to use the bathroom.I thought what if my uncle is out there? I was scared and I wasn't going to wet my bed so I went without expecting the next bad experience life had for me I walked down the hallway when I heard a voice down the dark hallway it was Grandpa omg what a relief he calls me to him I thought maybe we're gonna sit outside and count the stars remembering when I was a child her and grandpa used to sit outside at night and look at the stars they would count them and after eat snacks and go to bed .Not feeling scared but relief I walked towards him .I would've never thought this would be another bad experience that would mark me forever. Just when I felt comfortable and asked "what happened grandpa" we spoke and after a couple minutes I remembered saying "I'm going to go to bed" .That's when he said hold on ur "growing looking nice ur turning into a young lady but don't u wished u had big boobs"I said "ummm"" no my grandma says when I get older" and he said "I could help u let me show u "

He had me stretch my arms while he wrapped his arms around me, standing behind me having me close and open my arms like an exercise he would say "open them close them" as he got aroused by holding me and rubbing himself behind me .I said" I wanna go to sleep "he held me back and said "don't say nothing but I'm gonna help u so ur body gets in better shape" I hated myself and my life .I had to go out every night or else he would get upset and make up lies so my father would hit me things started changing now as every night that passed he had me stroking him while he would rub my breast he would sound so excited he would have me pull down my underwear as he would rub between my legs .

it had been a couple nights now I wouldn't go outside for the bathroom I would just wet my bed I didn't want to feel him touch me no more.

Finally mom is heading to the hospital so my father leaves with her I knew my grandfather would come and check up on us and once again want to take advantage of me I remember I ran and snuck myself under the new crib my parents put out for when my baby brother came home. He looked for me everywhere I could hear him upset I just remember falling asleep under there getting myself into a ball and didn't come out until my parents came home .

Finally they are home I smelled like urine .but I was excited to see my new baby brother but didn't want to run out so I waited in the room until my parents walked in .

For the first time mom wasn't in a bad mood she had me go shower and then come meet my baby brother so I did as I was observing my brother I asked what his name was and mom said Rutilio I thought at that minute" what kind of name is that ?As I'm lost observing my baby brother I head loud footsteps and . Suddenly my father walks in the bedroom yelling and saying "why did you disobey your grandfather" he took off his belt I remember him start hitting me I felt horrible knowing it was all because I didn't let him take advantage of me I felt like yelling it to him when my father kept asking him so "did she behave or not? and my grandfather would answer "No felipe she didn't " I remember just being punished in my bed while I felt anger hate resentment built inside me .Now at this time I know my grandfather knew how to manipulate me or else everything would be bad for me .. "Sometimes I wonder to myself did he only do this to me ?Why did he choose me ?

My life became miserable now as growing up I wasn't allowed to go to friends house or boyfriends I couldn't cut my hair or wear shorts I was always dressed like a tomboy Regardless how I looked that didn't change and time sure had passed One afternoon my mother was speaking about us finally moving soon I was so happy. My grandpa was upset about the news..There's something I can't forget and seemed to still have in my head till today how was it if my grandma suspected of the abuse instead of her keeping me safe she would feel jealous of me ? those thoughts always ran through my head regardless I always seemed to have a positive attitude and trying to live life just one difference I had become isolated in my bedroom listening to music or homework with no friends .that's how it was for the next couple.months

I'm almost 15 years old and let me tell you !!!!!