41. Holding on.
41. Holding on. Becket. They didn’t let me into the hospital because I’m not family. So I stay outside, under the rain that falls softly but steadily, with nothing but my own thoughts to torment me. Japan? So far away. There’s a very destructive part of me that blames myself for her decision, as if Lia were only trying to put the greatest distance possible between us. But I know her, I know she always acts from the heart. If she’s decided to go to Japan, it’s because she truly wants to. I remember that conversation when she confessed how much she enjoys studying. I know I’m not the main reason for her trip. And yet, sometimes that dark gut feeling returns, that thought insisting on making me feel guilty for everything. I close my eyes, remembering the sound of her laughter and the s
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