Hopeless
One day to go. I should be more nervous or excited, but I'm not. It's not like the last time, when Bailey was making that dress for me with that lovely material and everything with Kilian was new and exciting. Sometimes I look at him and I can still see the old Kilian peeking through, but he drowns him. I still don't know why he's changed so much. Is he trying to appear more fierce so that the pack respects him? At this point, I don't recognize him anymore. I don't know how he thinks, feels. Did I ever know? I tried to get Ty to open up to me, but he's more closed off than ever. He runs on these errands, and I realized that I have no idea what they are. There's no point in asking Kilian. I'm trying to avoid fights. Even though he's trying, I'm still holding back, which makes no sense
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