The girl before she woke.

Trust issues

Chapter 7

The lyrics from her ringtone woke Rachel from her sleep. Unable to open her sore puffy eyes completely she sought the phone on her night stand where she last put it.

"Helo?" She asked her voice still croaky from just waking up.

"Rachel, where the hell are you? Your shift started an hour ago."

"Jackie?" she asked confused.

"Yes who else? her voice was laced with sarcasm. Get your ass to work now!"

Jackie didn't even wait for a reply she just hanged up on her. Rachel walked to the bathroom and washed her swollen eyes with cold water to sooth them and help herself see better. She didn't even think she worked at the diner anymore? They could at least have called or texted she felt irritated by the whole scenario.Grabbing a quick shower she got dressed and threw her hair into a top knot there was no time to wary about appearance she was already late.

As soon as she got to work she regretted it,Robert was leaning against his police truck waiting for her.She signed internally she didn't have the time or the strength to deal with him right now. He had hurt her real bad and the wound was still to fresh.

"Rachel" he called her name but she just kept walking.

"Rachel please just give me a minute. A minute is all I'm asking I swear".

Damn it ! She wasn't planning on giving him any of her time for at least a month. And look at her now giving in to him and walking to his car.

"What ?" she snapped, quickly  taking a glance around the parking lot.They are alone , good she thought because she had a hell of  a lot of resentment, anger and pain she wanted to get out.

"I'm sorry about last night. I-I just lost it and I.."

His words felt empty to Rachel it was like he didn't understand the severity of his actions and now he is only apologizing because he feels he has to. 

"Don't, just don't" she cut him off."You don't even understand what you did so this is pointless".

She was about to turn around and make her way to the diner when he grabbed hold of her wrist.

"Wait I do know, I just lost it.."

"Yes well you seem to do a lot of that these days." Rachel could feel her anger start to get the upper hand but she forced herself to stay under control.

"If you would just stop bringing that man into every damn conversation..."

What! he can't be serious, on that note all control left Rachel's body and she gave into the pain and anger inside of her heart.

"This isn't about him and you know it!" Her voice started to get a little louder now.

"Of course it is! His voice was also louder now matching hers."Everything always seems to came back to that piece of s**t".

She stared at him shocked, he was so blinded by his hatred for the mystery man that he just couldn't understand from where she was coming from.

"Enough! She yelled , glad that the parking lot was all theirs at the moment. "How delusional can you be? It's not about him, who he ever is. It's about me! And now it's about what you did to me. You broke my heart last night. Do you have any idea what being with you like that meant to me? It was my first time since the accident. Do you even understand the significance of that?"

Robert opened his mouth to say something but quickly closed it again. he seemed speechless and for the first time since this conversation started it looked like he was really considering her words.But she was far from done, once she opened up she had to get everything off her chest and out in the open.

"It means.." she continued her heart felt heavy like it was about to crack open any second now."That to me you were my first the only s****l experience that I knew and it was amazing. It really was and then I asked you a simple question because I trusted you. And you went and call me a slut after you just had s*x with me! you stormed out of my house leaving me alone , confused and hurt. It f*****g hurt Robert! And for what? All because a wanted to uncover a little bit more about myself so I would feel so completely f*****g lost all the time? How incredibly selfish of me! I'm sorry if it hurts you for some reason that i want to know , I truly am Rob but what you did was inexcusable".Rachel didn't even realized that she had started to cry during her outburst. Clumsily she lifted her hands and wiped the salty water from her face.

Robert looked taken back by her words he clearly hadn't realize what a d**k he had been but it didn't matter it was too late now.

"I'm so sorry Rach" he lifted his hand to cup her face but she stepped out of his grasp and his hand fell back to his side. "Pleas.." he begged, "tell me how can I fix this. I need to fix this Rachel I love you".

His own eyes had become glassy with tears and it pained her to see him like this. But what can she do? The damage has already been done."I,m sorry" she said looking up at his grieve stricken face."But I trusted you to be the right one and now I'm just not sure." She knew her words hurt him she saw the way he flinched when she spoke them but she just didn't have it in her to forgive him right now.

"Look" she said softening her voice like she was talking to a child. "I need to go to work and I think.. you should leave."

He didn't answer her , he just nodded his head at her stiffly and as he got in his truck Rachel turned around to finally make her way to the diner. Just as she turned her gaze fell upon Don and a few of his friend.  Great! How long have they been standing their? Like it wasn't hard enough to go threw that now she has to deal with the fact that their was audience to witness her pain.Her eyes fell on Don and their eyes locked , his seemed to hold compassion and warmth for her but she shook the thought off as soon as it arrived. Besides she didn't need anyone's pity. Just as she opened the door to the diner she heard the screech of tires and knew it was Robert racing a way from her. Way the thought made her heart clench in pain , she didn't know?

Donovan P.O.V

We just got back from meeting with the Dragon Riders they had been doing business together with them for four years now and decided to stop at the diner to eat. Rogue was a ruthless leader and for that Don admired him but the man also had a habit of only looking out for himself and because of that Don doesn't ever let himself get comfortable enough with him to trust him.There has been reports at the factory that some of their money was going missing and they had to catch the weasel before the rest of them became confident enough to try their own luck.Washing money was but one of their many pies they dealt in. they also sell narcotics, owns a high roller underground fight club and occasionally dealt in high end weaponry. The club was doing well and although some people would look down at them, they had never done anything to in danger the towns people and he sure as hell never claimed to be a good guy. Besides it was none of their damn business anyway.

Don looked out the window to see Robert leaning against his truck , no doubt waiting on Rachel. He had come by her place last night to tell her , his old man expected her at work tomorrow.Why the old bastard insisted he had to go the her house personally and deliver the message was beyond him but he was in no mood to fight with him. As soon as he pulled up out side Rachel's house he saw Robert's car and immediately felt pissed off.He had half a mind to just ignore his fathers request an go home but a bigger part of him wanted to see her.He missed her eyes and her smile. f**k! he was being roped back in and he hated it , it made him feel weak and vulnerable.

He dragged his ass to her front door and was just about to knock when he heard Robert's voice coming from the kitchen. Don had no idea why he did it, curiosity maybe? But the next minute  he found himself in front of the kitchen window spying on them like some creep. Robert had her pinned against the counter "I don't want coffee Rachel, I want you" he whispered loudly into her ear.Don clench his fist so hard that the veins begun to bulge underneath his skin.She looked so beautiful tonight and it should have been him seducing her not that asshole. Oh how he wished he could just walk in their and put a bullet into his skull.Most of his problems would be gone and Rachel would be his again. he couldn't stand their one second longer , they had begun to get intimate and the scene was making him fiscally sick. f**k his father he can call Rachel himself, he needed to spent time with his best friend Mr. Jack Daniels and a pair of legs wrapped around his waist. Any pair would do as long as he can get her out of his mind.

Don shook his head trying to get rid of the shitty memory. Where is Rachel anyway?Shouldn't she be here by now?Jackie should know right she is after all her best friend. He finally flagged her down after his third try.

"Don hi, how can I help you?" she was a little bit taken back by his sudden interest but tried to hide it.

"Where's Rachel?" he asked her getting straight to the point. The question had sounded very cold and rude but he couldn't careless.

"She should be here any minute now." "Ah" , a smiled crossed her face "here she is now" she said pointing out the window into Rachel's direction.

Rick was grinning at him like he promised him a couple of whores, clearly amused by Don's open interest in Rachel. He 'll deal with his smug face later all he wanted to do right now is look at Rachel and soak in every detail. Wait somethings off ,he noticed. She doesn't seem like herself and is her eyes puffy? 

"Well that can't be good" Jackie said clearly thinking out loud breaking Don's train of thought.

Nevertheless she was right because just a few meters away Rachel and Robert was in a heated discussion and their voices became louder with every passing second. What the f**k happened last night?