The Middle Man

A Feeling

I watched the 2 like hawks as they walked back into the room, trying not to make it obvious I was staring. I wasn't meaning to seem like the crazy girlfriend type, but I didn't even hold that title, yet. I really needed to calm down, Kian isn't even my boyfriend. In this moment, I decided to back off a bit and stop being so tense about Kian.

Kian came and sat back down by me, wrapping the blanket around both of us.

"Hey, you good?" He asked. I just nodded, and kept my eyes on the screen. "Don't worry."

"I'm trying not to, really." I smiled.

"You shouldn't, I only-" Kian stopped "Sorry, let's just watch and we can just talk later."

"No, what were you going to say?" I begged him, I couldn't handle the anxiety.

"Nothing, it doesn't matter right now. My house afterward?"

"Sure" I said kissing his cheek and snuggling in his shoulder.

So we watched the rest of the last movie; Kat was asleep by Sam and JC and Lia had already left. So Kian took me to the O2L house and we went straight up to his room. He snagged some Oreos and milk from the kitchen first, of course. So there we were, sitting on his bed eating Oreos when finally he spoke up.

"So, I've been needing to ask you something," he started.

"What?" I said putting Oreo creme on his nose and laughing.

"Do you look at me just as a friend or as a brother or possibly a boyfriend, like, what are we?" He asked holding my hand. He must've already knew the answer.

"You've always been kind of like my brother, but now I want something more than that." I told him putting my head on his shoulder.

"Rosi, do you know that everytime I hold you close and kiss your cheek, I just want to tell you how much I love you. I want to hold you as close as possible, not just hug, I don't want to just kiss your cheek, I want to kiss your lips. Rosi I have liked you forever and I told you but I need you to know I love you, my feelings are that strong. So I have to tell you, I want you to be my girlfriend." He said, keeping eye contact the whole time. What he said was so honest and comforting. It made me tear up a bit, his words were powerful, and clearly full of love.

I said "yes" immediately. I then went back into our hug and I kissed him, he kissed back right away almost like the action was his idea. He leaned me back against his head board and continued. I grabbed at his neck as I felt his hands trail my sides, but the formality of it all started to make me laugh. We parted.

"I missed this." he told me smashing an Oreo on my nose.

And that started a huge Oreo fight. We ended up spilling milk everywhere too.

I didn't regret anything, Kian was who I wanted to be with. We've been through a lot already, this makes sense, it doesn't feel new, but it's a great feeling.