The Middle Man

Choices

I finally had a week to myself where I got to spend time with my mom. We went around the city and tried getting my mom to ride my penny board, just for fun. It was nice being away from the all of the boy drama. It also allowed me to ask my mom what to do.

"So mom, I started dating Drew last week..." I started.

"Honey that's great!"

"But there's an issue. Kian just told me he loved me too."

"Ahh, boys can be confusing, but they have to come to realize that you aren't a toy. It comes down to you sweetheart, who is the guy you really like?" She stated.

"I'm not sure." I said looking at my necklace.

"Then just wait it out, you will find the answer soon. Being in a relationship can reveal a lot, and you just started dating. Just see how things play out, but also you need to talk to Kian." she said.

"Thanks mom." I said giving her a big hug, she always knew the right advice.

I realized I wasn't an object and Drew can be over possessive.

And on the other hand, Kian was sincere but really hard to figure out. My feelings for him were mixed up and over bearing.

I wasn't going to break up with Drew so I decided that it was just time to wait out the truth. Just like my mom told me to do.

My choice wasn't exactly clear, Kian might've only liked me because I changed, he wouldn't of called me beautiful if I didn't wear a totally girly outfit. He may have wanted me to stay but he never said the words.

Drew just came into my life and liked me immediately but I may have confused him. When he asked me out my worries were gone and in that moment, Kian wasn't on my mind.

I called up Drew.

"Hey listen I have to talk to you." I started.

"I'm listening." he said, sounding rather confused.

"I'm sorry for being confusing, you are so sweet and I wish I could have taken back those moments with Kian. I don't want him I want you, only you" I poured out.

"Glad you feel that way." I heard. But it was from two guys. One from the phone the other from behind me.

On the phone was a joyful Drew, behind me was distraught Kian.

"Drew, I have to go, talk to you later." I said hanging up quickly, "Kian, let me explain."

"There is nothing to explain Rosi, I get it, he is your only thought." He said looking down.

"Listen Kian, you confuse me, do you even actually like me, or would you rather let me go?" I asked stepping closer to him.

"Ugh Rosi I just don't know to say!" I said throwing his hands up.

"I can't deal with this choosing, land I just started dating Drew! I love you both evenly and I just can't leave Drew like that" I told him tearing up a bit. My emotions were getting the best of me and my mind was aching.

"No Rosi, don't cry, it's hard I know" he said.

"Kian you don't know! I have been up all night trying to figure out who I really like, is it Drew or is it you?" I told him practically screaming.

"I'm sorry okay, but are you going to break up with him? You are kind of sending me mixed signals here Rosi."

"Maybe I'm thinking about it. Is it weird that on our movie date he forcefully kissed me? And wouldn't let go? Then he shows up to my house. You can do that because you nearly live here. But he came in because I didn't answer my phone." I was coming to a realization out loud, I was starting to contradict myself, my thoughts were shifting

"That's a little shady Rosi."

"That's not even the weirdest, he gave me a necklace when we started dating and he yanked it back and made me promise to be his. That's not normal right? It weirded me out but I didn't give it a second thought."

By the look on his face, Kian seemed startled.

"Rosi, I would do it soon, look out for yourself." He told me, wiping my tear.

"Give me a day, we have been dating for about 2 weeks and they have been...off." I confessed

He took me into a big hug and kissed my forehead.

"Everything is going to be alright." he reassured me

I did end up calling back Drew telling him I had to talk to him tomorrow. He sounded a little upset but I didn't even care. Thinking about myself, I didn't want to get hurt.