Shattered Albeit Winsome

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I lye in bed lonely at night and think why I’m here.

I do so much for everyone

Why don’t they show they care?

I met this girl who said she loved me

Yes her emotions said that , she herself did not exude so

something I haven’t heard in so long.

She used me for what

what a ride she took me on.

There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger deep inside.

Sometimes I wish my dad was here, but to me, he’s not alive.

I have no one to talk to

These memories seem to be the only way

Turns out it’s a lie just like the smile I put on each and everyday.

I know outside I’m smiling, It’s the face I fake for you,

But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.

I know my family loves me,

I’m there when their decisions are poor.

I’m sick of feeling like thiswalked-onn rug thrown upon the floor.

I do not know what, why did she do so?

What was the reason for her doing so? If she did not care for me why did she not tell me about this? She could have said about this to me. I would not have mind . She did not even say about anything . If she loved her bestfriend then why cheating me ? Was I compelling her to confess me about her feelings ?

Did I ever say her that please say me the fake thing. But she never ever thought of telling the truth. For her that was not at all important . Faking the feelings was more important for her.

I really did not know she will be like this .

Actually it was my fault only . I was never ever into this love and all that . Just becoz of her I went for this . She made me believe in love . She was the one .

Sam I just hate you for this .