Shattered Albeit Winsome

#59

Love may not always ensure happiness ever after. There are reasons that mire our relationships, cause profound sadness and create a gulf between two individuals.

Life has become very close to me, and I am very happy that I love you Samaira. My life and my love are one. "But you are faced with a 'no, never never" is your reply. My answer to that is, "Old boy, for the present I look upon that 'no, never as a block of ice which I press to my heart to thaw." -

Years have passed since I parted from her and already it is as though I had been years and years away from her, although I can say that not one hour has passed without her memory which has become such a close companion to my thoughts that now more than ever is it the food and sustainability of my soul; and if it should take like this a few days more, as seems it must, I truly have faith it will in every way have thought the office of my heart, and I shall then live and gain on the remembrances of her as do other men upon their heart and souls, and I shall have no livelihood but in this single idea.

I want you to know my feelings and thoughts while I can still communicate them. I never want you to wonder how I felt, or have unanswered questions. You are my single-most biggest achievement.

I know you are not mine. I know you do not love me. I kept us both alive despite a huge distance to do so. I may have done wrong by not telling the reality, done wrong by not saying anything to you, and a few other things you hate me for, but I did try to be a good lover to you, and for you, as well as a friend. I’m not perfect, but I love you. Please, always remember that.

Let me not

Let me not,

Let me not,

Let me not do marriage.

I do not love him,

Love is love,

And he is not my love.

I love him,

Let me be with him only,

I will nt be happy,

Do not compel me to do this.

I do not love him.

Let me not,

Let me not marry him.

Let me runaway,

This not what I deserve,

I do not want this,

Let me do,

What matters to me,

Let me be fine enough,

As long as I am alive,

Let me survive,

I want to breath,

Not suffocate,

I will not live,

If I will do so.

Let me,

Let me do my own,

Please be my side,

Let me be yours’s

I cannot do this.

He is not mine,

I cannot be his.

Let me,

Let me,

Do mine.

You are the person whom I love,

How can you do this to me,

Please be my side.

Let me,

Let me,

Let me be your wife,

I cannot be someone else’s,

I am only yours.

Let me not sacrifice myself,

Let me be your side.

You are the only person whom I love.

Let me,

Let me.