Feral attraction

CHAPTER THREE

ALICE POV

Where am I? Who are these people? I stood up feeling dizzy. Before I knew it, I was back down again.

"What happened?" I asked no one in particular.

"Where am I?" I felt otherworldly. Is this even my body?

"Am I dead?" I was numb. Everywhere echoed. Who are they? What happened? Who is carrying me? What is going on? I couldn't speak anymore, but my mind continued with the questions.

I closed my eyes and from my state, I could hear people shouting.

Why were they shouting? And why can't they hear me!? Hello!!!

"Hey hey hey..." I could tell that voice anywhere. I slowly opened my eyes.

"Are you alright?" Gunther asked.

So it wasn't a dream? So it was real? I had these episodes and I wanted them to stop for so long. Why would I get lost in thought so much that it becomes a reality within my mind? Was I going crazy? I can't even tell what's real from what's not anymore.

My visions, as Guther called them, came at any time. It came when I was wide awake, sleeping, standing, sitting, at any time. I hated them. They were hallucinations. It felt as if I lived in two different times in the same body.

Despite hating them so much, I wish I hallucinating this one time. Just this once I hoped it wasn't real. It felt like forever after watching them kiss. I passed out not long apparently, because I could still see them smiling and stealing kisses. He must not have known I was even there. I didn't know if that was supposed to relieve my pain or automatically throw me back in time when none of this happened.

"...always wondered what she would look like. I did eve—"

"Everything I could, for her" I completed Guther's statement. No no no no no this can't be happening. It indeed is. My eyes were trying to connect to my brain as though, reading a way to get everything back on track. To get Guther, back to me.

"What are you doing? Is this a show for the people? Is that why you invited everyone?" I asked, not knowing what to expect. I mean I knew what to expect, I already saw it, I just didn't want it to be true. It surely can be altered, right? Gunther loves me. I'm his Luna.

"We are not mates Alice! We never were. What do you think? Do you think we'd stay pretend-mates forever? We were always going to find our mates. I have found mine. You should find you—" his words faded, the loudness at which my heartbeat drowned his response. I placed my right palm on my chest, I was hurt. My heart broke again. It failed me, I thought we already felt this together!? Why is everything betraying me!!!?? Hot tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Did your father put you up to this?" I didn't know when I uttered

"Don't you dare bring my father into this" Guther moved closer, breaking free from his held hands with Helena?

"Why not? Hmm? You told me you loved me just an hour ago! You promised to never leave me, mate, or not. Those were your words" More tears betrayed the composure in my voice.

"Well, that was before I found my mate. Helena is perfect. I can't have anything to do with you anymore. I think we should part ways" he was cold in delivering his words. He didn't even stutter. Did he have this planned all along? He knew what he was doing. I was a fool. He was using me. But why?

"You don't even know her Guther. Did you know her?" I wasn't ready for an affirmation as a response, I held my breath.

"When you find your mate, you will understand my decision. I am an alpha now. I owe it to my people." he told me with a dead stare.

Did his father not have anything to do with all of this? He wasn't even present at the time, but that doesn't rule him out. He started relaxing about us not being mates, and our union being bad for the pack.

How can he trust his father now? His son whom I can die for has just dealt me the biggest blow in my life. He must have gotten the trait somewhere. I jolted myself back to reality. Yes, he must have.

My mind played a trick on me. I had several flashbacks at that moment. I remembered how we played together as kids. He would sneak out time and time again, against his father's orders, to play with me.

How we grew up feeling bad about not being mates. His constant reassurance of never leaving me. He said we probably didn't have mates, and so we were lovers for life. It was funny. He knew as much as I did, we had just never found them.

I grew older lost in his theory of us not having mates. It became the truth to me. I didn't worry as much as before. "If we really had mates, we would have found them by now" I would think to myself, defending the thoughts of us leading the pack together. How did that change?

I sniffed, I hated myself at the moment. I shouldn't feel like this, I should know better. I've seen this. Why am I feeling this lost and empty?

"How did I never see this side of you? You're a heartless piece of s**t! You're an asshole. f**k you!!!" I screamed and cried. I couldn't control myself anymore, I didn't even know where the strength to talk came from. I was hurt. I fell on my knees. Why did this happen to me? Why?

"I'm sorry, Luna" Helena chuckled. Gunther joined in the amusement. I was broken.

How could someone claim to love you for so long, yet treat you like this? Did I do something? Am I going crazy? I need to get out of here. I should get out of here.