Malicious

Feelings

"Wear my heart on my sleeve." - Chloe Bailey

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☞ THIS kiss was the best kiss I'd ever experience. When my lips touched hers, I wanted to do so much. But I didn't. I took it slowly. I know she was going to regret this, but I needed to kiss her.

This time she didn't pull back, so I pulled her closer to me, wrapped my hands around her waist. I forced my tongue in her mouth, and she let me explore. She moaned softly, humming. Her hands gripped my hair and my neck. I let one of my hands slide all the way down her thigh and lifting it up.

She pulled back and looked me in my eyes. "We shouldn't do this." She said, whispering. I nodded. "I know." And I shut her up by kissing her. But as I was kissing her, I felt water on her cheeks. I pulled my mouth away from her to see that she was in fact crying.

"Baby why are you crying?" I asked her, she took her hands off me and shook her head. "This is wrong. I shouldn't have kissed you." She said, I let go of her thigh, and grabbed her waist with my hand. "We both wanted it. And that's okay." I said.

Maybe she was right. As much as I didn't want her to be. She didn't know about Aileen, and what happened to her. So maybe I shouldn't kiss her because Catrina is already on her ass about it.

On mine. And if she catches us, then we'd...she would be gone. I pulled away, my facial expressions changing. "Leave." I said, I didn't mean to sound so harsh but this was my fault. And I need to make her hate me.

Otherwise, s**t would go down. She would leave my life, and I would be lonely once again. "What?" She asked.

"f*****g leave Maeve. I don't want to say it again, you have five seconds." She scoffed and shook her head. "You're pathetic ya know. You kissed me, not the other way around."

I needed to come up with something to get rid of this business deal. And fast. But for right now, I can't touch this girl, I can't be with her, I can't talk to her, and I can't even look at her without wanting to rip all her clothes off.

"And I guess you are too. Now get the f**k out. You can go to the mall, I don't care." She took a deep breath and went to open the door, looking back at me and shaking her head.

And she left. I sighed. This was for the best. I didn't want anything to happen to her. I didn't mean to be rude. But I just had to happen. I needed her to stop liking me. I needed to stop wanting her so much. I felt like a teenager who daydreamed of their crushes.

She was an addiction. I wanted her, needed her. But I couldn't have her. Things were too complicated and I thought back to the time we had dinner together, how she said she would try and tell the whole world.

And I'm sure she was talking about me. She was never good at hiding her feelings for me. I could tell by the way she looked at me, how she would cross her legs together and squeeze them.

They just set me off, she set me off. Anything she did was f*****g hot. But if Catrina actually confirmed I was f*****g her or had a connection with her that was romantic, her father would be involved.

Which why I needed to find a way out of this. I didn't need this, and neither did Maeve, she didn't deserve it either. I wanted her to be happy and not in pain. I wasn't a good person. I sat down, sighing and rubbing my temple with my fingers and looked at my computer.

This whole time working, I had been trying to come up with a deal, for Catrina and her father. I didn't want to be with her anymore, I've been nothing but unhappy. Pretending like I want to have s*x with her, or even be happy with her has been the hardest thing I've had.

Especially now that my feelings for Maeve have arisen. I don't want history repeating itself, and maybe I could've done something different by just letting it go and keeping my distance.

But I'm me, I'd rather her hate me than love me. I have issues as well, maybe because I keep my guard up. But even looking at her I see all my problems going away.

I busied myself. So much so that it soon became darker outside, I hadn't eaten dinner. I just wanted to figure out how to escape this. I didn't even want this big ass manor. A mansion would've been fine but no, Catrina wanted to build this place to use my f*****g money.

She's a gold-digger. She uses my money so much, and she makes her own. But since we're married, she can use mine, but I can't use hers. Nothing is mine.

"Fuck." I mumbled, stretching and leaving my office. It was silent, and I was sure Catrina wasn't here.

I made my way to the kitchen, sighing and opening the fridge. I wanted nothing more but to go into Maeve's room and apologize for how I reacted. But I couldn't.

Aileen never deserved what happened to her, and neither would Maeve. Aileen was the light to everything, always had a smile on her face. And when we were talking deeply, she would let me talk, she would let me get any emotion I had.

Because she understood me. She knew me. And there are so many moments where I need her. She helped me sleep, she helped me breathe. I loved her. I probably stared at the fridge for ten minutes just thinking about her.

It's hard to let that go, especially since she was apart of my life daily. I heard someone clear their throat and I snapped my head. Angeline. "Yes?" I asked.

She scoffed. "I don't know what happened between you two-"

"There's absolutely nothing going on either." I said, cutting her off and shaking my head. "Okay. Well if there wasn't she wouldn't have been depressed today. I don't know what you said to her but she didn't deserve said words." She said.

I see that Angeline cares for her deeply. And I admire that, but this wasn't her business and unfortunately she had to hate me as well. "Listen, maybe she's just insensitive, she cries over everything, that's not my fault. She went to the mall, obviously it's not my fault."

She scoffed. "But it is. She was fine before we left, and then bam, she's upset over something you said. You don't think I know you upset her? She told me."

I looked her in the eye, getting closer to her. "You can leave and dismiss this conversation, or I can fire your ass." I said, she didn't break the angry look on her face. "You can fire me for all I care, but just know Maeve is my best friend, all you do is make her miserable."

My eyes softened and I didn't mean to let that happen. This is what I wanted, this is what she needed. "Get the f**k out." I said.

She smirked and nodded. "Did I hit a soft spot?" She asked. "Good. You don't deserve her anyway." She said, looking me up and down. Then she shook her head and turned around, walking away. "Come on Mae I'm sorry." She said, holding her hand out.

My eyes widened and I watched as Maeve took her hand, she looked back and I just watched her. She turned her head back and I watched them walk away.

I put my head down and sighed. What as I doing with my life?