His Pissed Rejected Mate

Anger

Kloud*

Beep Beep Beep, I hear something, a beeping noise. I’m in darkness, my body feels heavy and hurts like hell. my throat feels the worst.

 I don’t understand, I thought once you die you can’t feel pain. where are my parents, why aren’t they with me? it's too dark here, am I sleeping? Do dead people sleep? maybe if I try opening my eyes. 

My eyes feel so heavy. this is not what I thought it would be like. Finally, I get my eyes open and I see that bright light I’ve been expecting but why are my eye so sensitive to it, I thought people who have passed can stare into the light.

 As I flinch to shield my eyes I hear a muffled voice, “ she’s awake”,  it sounded like my dad, maybe I was asleep in heaven and they’ve been waiting for me to wake up.

 I longed to see the faces that I’ve missed so much, the warmth of hugs that I haven’t felt from another in so long, the voices of love that my ears have longed for. but as my eyes adjusted and I hear more clearly, I’m meant with faces that I long to forget, the warmth that I will never feel, and voices that my ears don’t miss.

 the room is filled with faces with looks of concern and worrier. why those faces are pointed at me has me confused. Shylar and jasper start to walk toward me.

 the beeping that woke me gets louder and faster, “ Kloud, calm down, everything is ok” shylar says and he tries to reach out and touch me. why, so he can hurt me more, I ask myself trying to understand the situation. I push his hand away, a look of hurt crosses his face.

 then I hear that voice from early that I thought belonged to my father “ she’s awake” jasper screams through the double doors to the right of me and then the doors open and a man with black curly hair, brown skin, and kind eyes rushes to my bed.

 “ Miss Bowing, my name is doctor Kizor, calm down, you're in the pack's hospital,” he says as he looks back and forth from me and the screens beside the bed, he continues again  “ you have to calm down or you're going to pass out from the stress” how can he expect me to do that.

 I’m confused, I’m surrounded by the people who betrayed me, and as I look at their faces it's like I'm reliving all the things that have happened to me and realization hit me, why am I alive, why can’t I have peace. I have nothing to live for, the only thing that’s left is to be with my parent.

 Now I’m back here to suffer and be alone. My thoughts made my heart feel as hurt as my body, my throat hurt as I try to force air through it.

 Everyone in the room came toward me but that made the situation worse, doctor Kizor must have sensed it and told everyone to back up and give me some room and turn to me and said “ calm down, breath, deep slow breaths, In. Out. In. Out.  ” he goes on to demonstrate, as I watch and try to match his breathing.

the beeping that seemed so loud a second age seem too slow and steady. After I’m calm he explains to me about the poisoning chemicals from the detergent and how it's going to affect my healing and make me weaker and that my neck is fractured and my vocal cord is bruised. 

so I need to rest my voice for a while, he says it with caution on his face that said he’d stop at any time if he sees me getting panicked again, but after he explains that, so many feelings passed through me.

 Hurt, that I’m surrounded by the three people who hurt me the worst because there’s a difference between getting hurt by a stranger than getting hurt by a loved one. 

Betrayed, that the people in this room who were supposed to be the closes to me never tried to stop it and never believed me when I pleaded that I didn’t hurt my parents. 

Fear, that this is my life and that I’m stuck.  Sadness and Angered, that this happened to me. why can’t I get a break?

 The people who were supposed to love me no matter what broke me the most. Then, All the feelings seemed to disappear and I felt nothing. I starred at the floor, feeling numb.

As they all stare at me. I started to feel something, something started to boil in me. I take in the faces in front of me, Anger. That’s all I felt, that’s the only emotion I had left.

 I did nothing to nobody. I always did what I was told, I catered to all of them. I never talked back to anyone, not even my sister and Zara when they would say the most gruesome things to me.

 I just took it, well I don’t deserve this. I let this go on too long, I don’t care about anything or anybody anymore. Dr. Kizor snaps me out of my deep thought by asking “ are you ok”. I signal to him with my hands for a pen and paper and I write “ I want to be alone”.

 “I understand,” he says. He turns to everyone else in the room and politely asks them to give me some time to myself. I see the look on Shylar’s face that he wasn’t leaving but I gave him a look that said everything that I was feeling and just like that a look of defeat crossed his face and he backed out of the doors.

 As I was left alone I start to think I had to get out of here, there’s been one thing after another. There is no light in my life, I’m stuck in darkness. Once I find the right moment I’m running.

 Dr. Kizor comes back in and somehow it was like he was reading my mind. he walked up to me and said “ you should take it easy for a while, I see that look on your face, but I don’t think you should do it”. 

I looked at him confused and wrote “ do what?” and he says “ run” and I’m shocked that he knew what I was thinking. He continues by saying 

“ I know you’ve been through so much, that they’ve put you through so much but you’re in no condition to try and run away. I need you to stay so I can make sure you get better and heal. I heard the Alpa say he rejected you, but he took it back, he seems to regret it, so maybe you want to work it out with him see how things go”.

  All I could think is that’s not going to change what happened. I'm not sure what look I had on my face but he continues by saying “look just focus on getting better, please” and he leaves. He seems sweet and caring but I already made my mind up, I’m leaving.

 There's nothing for me here, even if he took back his rejection, it doesn’t heal the pain and hurt that it caused. it doesn’t erase the images of his eyes filled with anger and disgust starring at me and it doesn’t make the scars on my heart from him sleeping with Zara disappear.

 I'M DONE. I need a fresh start, it's time, I deserve a second chance and I’m done waiting. now I’m going to go get it and it all starts with my first steps off the pack territory.

A few days had passed. All I did was sleep mostly. It was that or sit there staring and listen to those people. The ones I wanted to get away from but of course, the Doc couldn’t keep the Alpa out of my room and my siblings would come too, all of them there pleading and begging. 

What about my pleading and begging when they were hurting me. so I just sleep. The Doc comes into my room while I’m eating, I’ve eaten more in the past two days than in the past month, I was alone finally, the Alpha had some duties to handle.

 “ I’ve informed the Alpha that you can transfer back into the packhouse, you’re healing great, I’ll schedule some follow-up appointments every week to check up on your progress. But no need for you to be stuck in this room anymore. the Alpha told me to let you know he won’t be back today he’s getting things ready for you in the packhouse, he’ll be here early tomorrow to take you home.” he tells me.

 And the thought of going back to that house was making me cringe. Bringing back images of that day. But then I realized once I get in the packhouse, I can get my things and make my escape.

 The next morning the Alpha arrives and I get ready to leave, as we arrive at the packhouse, I just can’t wait to get this over with. 

We enter and there’s a few pack members there, including my siblings and Marcus. Feeling slightly uneasy I walk toward the back of the house to go out the back door, trying to get to my room where I can be alone but as I’m about to open the door the Alpha jumps in front of me, surprising me and I fall to the ground “ I'm sorry I didn’t mean to scare you, I was trying to tell you that your things are now in my room or.... our room” he says with an apologetic look on his face.

 I was going to protest seeing as after all the things he’s done to me he thinks I’d want to sleep in the same room as him but then I figure it's not worth it, I’m leaving anyway.

 So I let him lead me to the room which is 3x the size of all the other rooms in the house, and they are huge so you can only imagine, I mean the packhouse really isn’t a house it's a mansion or mini castle. So as we are standing in silence, I grab paper and pen and write that I want to take a shower.

 He points toward the bathroom and follows me, then I turn and write “ can I have some privacy” and he gets a nervous, shy look on his face and says that he’s going downstairs to handle some things with Marcus and he’ll bring us back some food.

 I node and he leaves, I give it a minute then rush to the closet. I find a duffle bag and start filling it with my thing, I got out of the hospital gown I was in and changed into a pair of my clothes, t-shirt, and sweats, and throw on my beat-up white snickers and grab one of his hoodies.

 Then I peeked out the door and there was no one there, so I sneak down the hall to a staircase at the back of the house that leads straight to the kitchen that no one uses but for me, seeing as I had to clean this entire house from top to bottom, I don’t even think anyone knows about this staircase.

 I pass thru the kitchen and slip out the back door to go to my room to get a very important item I can’t live without.

 As I’m in my room I go to the back wall where a brick is loose and take out a box and retrieve a necklace, my mom's necklace. It was a small gold chain with a circle pendant and a symbol engraved on it.

 I've been hiding it for all these years, countless times Steph has beaten me looking for this necklace, but I suffered through those beating knowing if I gave it to her, I would never see it again.