Life changes in a short time

Chapter 13

Still in the 2 month flashback

Back to Athena POV:

Sleep was not working after the talk with Zack, I guess I should have realized that this could have been one reason he asked if I wanted to come with him. Just laying here in the bed my mind was going in different directions, when we talked is aura keep changing a little but he was not lying to me that I knew. Even if I did not have the aura to tell me otherwise, his eyes gave him away. I could not take it any more I need more answers and he needed to know about my aura reading because if he could block it from me then it would be helpful so I would not get distracted by it like last time.

I got up and seen that it was daylight I guess I had slept but my mind never stopped, I felt like a couple of hours is all I got. I took a shower and changed into something comfy and went to sit outside and enjoy the warm air. I could not tell you how long I sat there and stared out at the water with my own thoughts, my mind not settling on one but bouncing around to different thing. Why had Nate not told me about the bond with everything that we had talked about.

I had so many question and so little answers but a part of the talk with Zack popped in to my head right then the bond. He did bite me that night in France, I wonder if we are bonded now. If that is the case that would explain why I feel weird all the time and why there feels like a part of me is missing! I need to find Zack just to double check.

I got up and walked back into the room right as Zack shut the door. "Zack I need to continue our talk now!" I know I had a look of desperation in my eyes. "Ok, give me a few to wash up!" I nodded walking back out and staring back out at the water. I zoned out for awhile before Zack came to sit with me. "Zack, I need to know, how can you tell if your bonded?" Giving me a shocked look, he said "Well you will know if your bonded when you feel like some part of you is missing, but if your bond is strong enough then you can feel each other's feeling like they are your own." I nodded my head. I opened and closed my month a couple of time before I got the nerve to ask "How can I try to see if I'm bonded to Nate?" "Well I could call him and see if he can change his emotions and then you can tell me if you feel any different!" I thought about it for a little bit then nodded my head, I need to know because the way Zack talked about the bonding thing I would never feel the same way with someone else and I did not want to but Nate throw any of my grief or pain. I could hear Zack talking to Nate on the phone tell him what he need to do. "Ok, Athena relax your mind and tell me if you feel any different emotions running throw your body!" I nodded while closing my eyes taking deep breaths in and out to clear my mind. Nothing happened and then all a sudden the feeling of loneness consumed my body like nothing else. I felt hurt, alone, sad, and in pain like my heart was ripped out of my chest. Tears welled up and ran over, I started shacking like a blender with ice in it. I heard Zack yell at Nate for some reason and then I felt a par of arms take a hold of me and smother me in a hug rocking back and forth trying to comfort me. I was finally able to get myself back to normal after a little bit and then I knew right then and there I was bonded with Nate for life. I loved him and he did not mean to do this but I was hurt that he did not tell me this would happen if he bit me, He made it sound like it was normal for vampires to bit during s*x. My breathing was still labored from all the crying and shaking I had done but I raised my head to look in Zack's eyes "What am I suppose to do now and why did he not tell me about the bond?" Zack closed his eyes then opened them and I could see how sorry he was. "Nate never told you because he did not know about it. One thing about Nate you need to understand is he was so determined to be as close to a human as he could get he never really learned all the ends and out of being a vampire and what comes with it as well. The rules were as far as he went to learning about his world." I felt myself give in to the sad moping feeling that I first had when I got home. The worst part was Zack was still holding me and it felt so wrong even thou he was just trying to comfort me, which just made me feel worse than before. I tried to get out of Zack's hold because it felt wrong on so many leaves they were not the strong arms I wanted to hold me and those emotions I felt must be how Nate feels now

Finally able to get out of Zack's hold I went back into the room, I could hear him following me but I did not say a word making my way to the bathroom. I need some time to myself to think about this but I also felt dirty from the crying and Zack holding me. I turned around to shut the door and there was Zack with a sad look in his eyes "Are you ok?" I nodded my head "Yeah, I just need a shower and some time to think!" With that I shut the door. Leaning on the door taking large breaths I felt alone again but this time I did not know it they were my feeling or Nate's. Pushing myself off the door I walked over to the shower and started the water, then I turned and there was the mirror. In the weeks to almost a month now I had not really looked at myself closely. There were bags under my eyes and my face was a little shallow and I was a little bit paler then normal. Good I had let myself go, closing my eyes I knew what I was going to do.

Zack POV:

I could hear the water running from the shower when I pulled out my cell phone. Hitting the recall button to give Nate a ring I knew she need him, the most important thing is for them to talk. Nate answered after the 3 ring. "What happened is she ok?" he yelled thru the phone "Stop yelling she is fine now!" There was silence on the other in, I didn't want either of them mad at me but this is what they needed, time together to talk. "Nate be here in 30, she is in the shower right now ya'll need to talk." After that I hung up on him and got a days' worth of cloths, knocking on the door I poked my head in when I heard her yell yeah. "I'm going out be back tomorrow night enjoy the peace and quiet." Then I left, I just hope they work things out.

Nate's POV:

When I got the call from Zack telling me to clear my mind and to let my emotions run throw my body I was a little worried. I had no idea why he wanted me to do that but I did, but the next thing I know I hear cry on the other end of the phone. The only thing that came out of Zack mouth was for me to stop and to shut off my emotions, I did as he asked but I was still confused by why.

I could tell that it was Athena that was crying which would have broke my heart if my emotions were not shut off. The phone line went dead before I could ask what happened. A hour later my phone rang, I looked at the screen and it was Zack I wonder what he wanted but the first words out of my mouth and I yelled them not meaning to was what happened is she ok?. He just told me to come over to the room in 30 minutes which I did. I was not far from the resort they are staying at because this was part of the plan. Well it was suppose to take a couple more days before she knew I was here as well. Once the phone went dead again without a good bye or an explanation I left.

I stopped in front of the room and seen a card on the floor with my name on it. I flipped it over and there was a room card which I used to get in. The shower was still going so I just sat on the bed waiting for her. I could feel the happiness bubbling up in me and the excitement that always came when I was around her. I could feel her in my arms as I hold her, the feel of her lips on mine, I just wanted that again whatever it took I would do it. I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts I never heard the shower turn off or the door open, but the gasp and intake of breath from her made me look up. Wow she is a work of art with her hair wet and the little bit of water droplets running down her arms making my mouth water. I wanted her right then and there but I pushed those feeling back, now was not the time.

"Athena" I whispered

Athena's POV:

The shower had relaxed every part of my body, the feeling was great after the little episode I had earlier. I wrapped the towel around my body loving the feel of it so soft and plush. I had the room to myself which was good because I forgot my cloths. I walk out and gasped. There he was just sitting on the bed zoned out and god did he look cute with that smirk on his face. I wonder what he is think about. I took a large breath in not being able to take my eyes away from him. I heard a faint whisper that sounded like my name. I could not help but smirk I wanted to fling myself on him he looked that good, but now was not the time so I pushed those thoughts away.

"Why are you here Nate?" I softly asked "I have been trying to talk with you but you never give me the time to or you just ignore me!" Signing knowing this was the right thing to do, I grabbed some cloths and headed back to the bathroom to change. Once I was done I sat beside him on the bed. Silence over came us and I thought to myself this was going to be a long night.

I waited for him to say something but nothing. Finally I had, had enough with the silence. "Look I know your more than likely mad at me for giving back the ring and telling you that we should go are own ways, but you have to understand that I can't trust you to not leave me now." He went to cut me off but I stopped him by holding up my hand. "No, let me finish I had a lot of time to think about this in Asia. You left with Zack and for 5 days or so I was sitting in the hotel room wondering where you were and if you were ok, I got no call or even a drop in letting me know you were alive. Then you walk in the night or early morning of the day we leave acting like everything was ok but you turn around and get upset with me because I was mad at you for it. Now I find out that you really don't know anything about vampires even thou you are one all because you want to be human and never took the time to learn about yourself. How am I to deal with all of this. God now we are bonded and who knows what might happen now. All I wanted was someone that I could be normal with and not have my aura reading gift to get in the way." I just kept going and going until I felt his lips on mine. A moan made it way out before I could hold it back, his lips felt perfect on mine and I never wanted the feeling to go anywhere. This is what I had been missing his touch the love and passion that I feel with ever kiss. The feeling were over powering and nothing could compare to it. I let the feeling surround me and take hold. One hand made its way into his hair pulling lightly and the other holding onto his neck pulling him closer to me. He pulled away so I could take a breath moving his lips down to my neck "I've missed you so much!" he whispered I could feel every spoken breath on my neck making shivers run down my spine. I pulled his head back to mine "I've missed you too" I whispered looking into his eyes.

I pulled away from him getting off the bed, I could see the hurt in his eyes but he was here to talk nothing more. "We can talk outside!" He nodded his head and followed behind me. We sat down on the little love seat on the balcony. I looked over at Nate thinking of where to start.

"I know you want to know what I was doing when I left with Zack in Asia but that is his trouble to tell you. I did not mean to be gone that long it was only suppose to take that night but it got complicated. The only thing I can tell you was we left the area." I nodded my head I knew that Zack was in trouble and I could not know about it and that is why they did not come back for so long. I was no longer mad at Nate for that, but he didn't need to know that. He stopped talking now and was looking at me, I nodded my head as in understand which I did now and ok maybe I jumped the guy with the whole brake up, but I was mad and I do stupid thing when I get that way. Taking a breath, I started trying to get everything off my chest without rambling this time. "Why did you never really learn about vampire?" He looked down speaking in a low tone "I hated what I was at first all I wanted was to be human again and I thought if I put enough time and energy into it I could be as close to a human a person like me can. I learned the rules of the vampire world and after that, I fought every day for years to be as normal as I could. I wanted a human life or as close as I could get to one. That was about the time I meet Zack, it was 2 years after I was turned and still being in the I hate myself stage I had turned my back on the vampire world. I had no friends or people to call family, he took me in and helped a-lot with my life." I felt tears start to form pushing them back I took a hold of his hands "This whole time we talked about our lives you never said anything like this to me. You have to stop holding everything in and if this marriage is going to work you need to tell me things like this." Hearing my own voice c***k a little he looked up, taking one hand and cupping my face. He slowly leaned forward and I closed my eyes waiting for his lips to meet mine, but his lips were placed on my cheekbone instead, kissing a stray tear away. We talked for the rest of the night. I missed him holding me so much that I feel asleep in his arms on the balcony.