Past Memories

AKHIEL CHAPTER TWO

As time went by, I got closer to you and became more interested because of what you show and make me feel. I don't know if all that is true, or if it's just a show, but I'll go along with it.

I'm immature, yes I won't deny it but you choose to persevere with my being like that.

Days passed and the second month of our friendship came again. But I can't be sure if it will take longer because at that time I left the RP which made you angry.

It's okay, I understand. You say why didn't I say goodbye or at least tell you before leaving, yes it's my fault but do I still need to say or let you know?

We fought and didn't pay attention, it's okay. But I was the one who couldn't stand it, I made the first move because I felt the pain in my chest again that I couldn't explain why I was in pain.

I apologized, you said it was okay. Because you don't control me, so I can do whatever I want. But I'm not satisfied with what you said, I'll just keep apologizing until we're okay again. But you know what hurts the most?

The one you grabbed me and said 'Uyy Akhie, it's you. It's good that you chatted.'

Because of your chat or reply. I realized, if I hadn't made the first move, you wouldn't have planned to chat with me? And one more thing, where is the word 'My attorney?'

We've been okay, but I won't hide the extent of the change. You don't have time for me as your friend.

Especially when you let me know you're dating someone new. I thought you would wait for me? And besides, haven't you been flirting with me for two months? Why does Yeji have something new?

You are surprising. Because at first you were so bad at chatting with me and reminding me that I'm only yours, then now you have someone new and you're just going to trash me as well as what happened to us for almost two months after I came back?

What happened? ashesh? Did they slander me to you? I know some of your friends don't like me, do they? Are they the ones who ruined me for you? Edi congrats for them they have ruined me for you, it's okay it's not a loss.

But wait, isn't it? I'm confused. I get hurt when it's always about you. Especially when I found out that you have a girl you are dating.

I do not understand! Why am I hurt?! Is it necessary or not we are just friends? It's not, because you didn't make me feel like a friend, but I won't hide it and I'll admit that I accompanied you on your trip. But I never expected to fall for someone like you.

Annoying! Why do I have to fall for you out of all the men in the world? Why Nathaniel?! You are really annoying!

A FEW days passed, we were okay and the day came again when we became friends and I wrote a poem for you again.

You liked it again and said you would keep it like you did the first poem I made for you. I was thrilled a little, not like the thrill of the times when you said that I was yours and no one could steal me from you that I thought you were just tripping. I accompanied that because I fell for it while you were already in someone else and happy. The pain!

Another week has passed and the changes between me and you are growing more and more. I can also see that you are happier with him at GC, from your messages to each other at GC that I attended

I want to leave gc but I can't. I wanted to avoid you but someone said no because he still needs you. And because of the love I feel for you, I could bear to stay even though it was so painful.

You poisoned me so much Nathaniel, your poison is so strong and I can't let you go anymore.

AND UNTIL the day comes when you and Yeji broke up, break up in other words.

I was worried about you after I chatted. I asked you how you were doing and what you were doing but there was no reply. When night came, when I opened it, everything unfolded. You deleted your acc, you didn't say goodbye but you to me, but you persuaded others.

I was hurt because you also left me without saying anything, now I understand and I feel what you felt when I left.

Yes, you did come back, but everything was fixed quickly. I lost the chance to win you back. And worse, you've lost your love for me, you make me feel like I'm no longer welcome or a part of your life as a rp'ier. You always make me feel like you never met me and became a part of your life in rp.

Of course I was hurt, hurt again and again until I couldn't take it anymore. I have also given my feelings for you. So I decided to walk away, well of course you will be hurt, won't you choose to walk away and forget? Well, of course I can't deal with the pain anymore, so it's better to stay away than to see it again and again. You're done being stupid so don't do it again, but the question? Can you stop if you really love him?

At my first decision I thought I couldn't stay away from you. So I went back again, but I regretted it. I came back but saw that you were happy even though I was gone. What's the point of me coming back?

Who am I again? Shesh, your friend you just trashed?

But I'm just wondering, why is there no Yeji? Why Nathalie Ramirez? Are you gone? Didn't you get along when I left? And besides, does that mean that after I left, you broke up immediately?

Done. Do you have something new right away? Ayy shesh, hanep ah?

How fast can you move on? Or, maybe you back up sister girl.

But you know that? It's really regrettable that I came back for you. Because I came back and chatted with you but why doesn't it seem like I'm not with you? It's like you don't know me anymore, you can't even give us time to talk.

But of course, even though it was painful, I endured it until I couldn't take it anymore and gave up. September 17 2022, I came back to say goodbye forever. Of course it's necessary.

I said goodbye to Kess, Ceazar and Alex. Of course they are also my friends and I have to say goodbye too. They became a part of my rp'ier life so I have to say goodbye.

And you are the last. You are the last because you are the most important to me, you are the last so that we can talk longer.

I said goodbye to you, of course.

After I said goodbye, all you said was 'I hope you fulfill all your dreams, and don't ever give up on reaching them.'

I said 'I will do it, don't worry. And I hope you are too.'

And you know what hurts the most. The words you said.

"I already have my woman who I see as my future companion. I now have my woman who will take care of me. I'm sorry Attorney."

'Alright police, don't hurt that, right? Take care of her or else you will get hurt. HAHAHA'

You replaced me and worst of all your promises, none of them came true because you left.

How about you saying that you are my number one witness in my first case that will be dealt with in court? How about the crime scenes we go to together? How about the late night talk including eating outside street foods and singing along the beach while watching the sun set? How is it all? I don't even have a partner to catch panicked addicts on the corner? How is that Nathy? How about me? That's it? HAHAHA leave?

Then you disappeared again so I thought to chat a very long goodbye.

I chatted with you and asked for a favor. I wish....

'I hope we meet in the future and I hope we can be together in the court while fixing the same case we took. Hopefully Nathy, and last because I don't want to lose my partner. I hope I can join you in catching some jerks in the corner in the future. You're the only one I want to be a partner in everything, so you should be my first police when I reach my dream.'

After that, you replied. 'Alright attorney, be careful. Bye.'

I smiled bitterly before typing the words 'Babye police ko, take care. Ily.'

After that I left. I can't do it anymore because my tears just keep flowing.