Alandra
It was slightly suffocating being surrounded by all these guys. For one, I have never been around this many people every day in my life. So it was an adjustment. Secondly, I didn’t feel right being intimate with Jonathan when I know for a fact the entire cabin will be able to hear us.
Jonathan doesn’t seem to mind and always tries to make some kind of move. But I just can’t do it. I start to freak out and I can’t enjoy myself. Of course, Jonathan never pressures me to do anything, which I love, I just feel bad because I know he’s bent up.
Not only am I dealing with this backup problem, but my birthday is also in two days and it has me in a depressive mood. I know I have Jonathan and the pack members here, but this will be the first birthday I will spend without Mar
