Chapter five
The moment the question left my mouth, I knew I couldn’t take it back
It hung between us
Heavy
Dangerous
What happened the night I begged you not to let them take me
Sebastian didn’t answer immediately
But I saw it
That reaction
Small
Quick
But impossible to miss
His jaw tightened
His shoulders stiffened
And his eyes…
His eyes darkened in a way that made my chest tighten
That wasn’t confusion
That wasn’t surprise
That was recognition
My heart started beating faster
“You heard me” I said, my voice quieter now but firmer
Still nothing
He just stared at me
Like he was deciding something
Like he was choosing his next move carefully
And that scared me more than anything
“Where did you hear that” he finally asked
His voice was low
Controlled
But there was tension underneath it
“I asked you a question” I replied
My hands were shaking slightly but I kept my gaze on him
“I asked you first”
That was when I knew
He wasn’t going to make this easy
My chest tightened
“Answer me, Sebastian”
His name
I hadn’t called him that since yesterday
Since everything started falling apart again
For a second, something flickered in his eyes
Something familiar
Something that made my stomach twist
Then it disappeared
“You’re getting involved in something you don’t understand” he said quietly
Anger flared inside me
“I don’t understand because no one is telling me anything”
I stepped closer
Ignoring the way my heart reacted
Ignoring everything except the need for answers
“So tell me”
Silence
Again
Always silence with him
Like he thought he could control everything by saying nothing
“I don’t remember anything, Sebastian” I continued, my voice shaking slightly now
“That’s the problem”
His eyes sharpened
“What do you mean”
“I mean I don’t remember you… I don’t remember us… I don’t remember whatever happened that night”
My chest felt tight
Painful
“And yet everyone keeps acting like something was taken from me”
Another pause
Longer this time
Then he exhaled slowly
Like he had been holding something in
“That’s because something was”
My breath caught
The words hit harder than I expected
“Then what was it” I asked immediately
His gaze didn’t leave mine
“Your memories”
The room felt like it shifted
My head spun slightly
“My… what”
“Your memories” he repeated
Calm
Too calm
Like he was talking about something normal
Something simple
“That doesn’t make sense”
“It doesn’t have to make sense to you right now”
Frustration rose quickly
“Stop doing that”
“Doing what”
“Talking like you know everything but refusing to explain anything”
My voice was louder now
Shaking
“You don’t get to do that, not when this involves me”
His jaw tightened again
“It’s not that simple”
“Then make it simple”
Another silence
Then he stepped closer
Close enough that I had to tilt my head slightly to look up at him
“You’re not safe” he said quietly
My heart skipped
“What”
“You’re not safe” he repeated
Something about the way he said it sent a chill down my spine
“What does that mean”
“It means you need to stay away from things you don’t understand”
Anger flared again
“So your solution is to keep me in the dark”
“My solution is to keep you alive”
The words hit harder than anything else
Alive
My breath caught
“What are you talking about”
His eyes searched mine
Deep
Intense
Like he was trying to decide how much to say
“You were taken once” he said finally
Everything inside me went still
“What”
“They took you”
My heart started pounding violently
“Who”
Silence
Then
“The people you’re starting to remember”
My head started to hurt again
Sharp
Sudden
Flashes
Darkness
Hands
Voices
Fear
I gasped, grabbing his arm without thinking
The moment I touched him, something shifted
A memory
Stronger this time
Clearer
I was crying
Begging
Holding onto him
“Please don’t let them take me… please…”
My breath hitched
The memory snapped
Gone
I pulled my hand back quickly like I had been burned
My heart was racing uncontrollably now
“That… that was real” I whispered
His expression changed slightly
Not much
But enough
“You remember that” he said quietly
My chest tightened
“Why was I begging you”
No answer
“Why didn’t you stop them”
Silence
My eyes filled slightly
“Why didn’t you help me”
That was the one that broke something
Not in me
In him
I saw it
Clear
Sharp
Pain
Real pain
“I tried” he said, his voice lower now
Rougher
Like it cost him something to say it
“But you didn’t succeed”
The words slipped out before I could stop them
His gaze snapped to mine
Something dangerous flickered there
“You think I let them take you”
“I don’t know what to think” I replied honestly
“Because you won’t tell me anything”
Another pause
Then he stepped back slightly
Running a hand through his hair
For the first time since I had seen him again…
He looked unsettled
Not in control
“What you’re asking for… it’s not something I can just explain”
“Why not”
“Because the more you know, the more dangerous it becomes”
My heart tightened
“For me or for you”
His eyes met mine again
“For you"
Silence
Heavy
Then
My phone buzzed again
The sound felt louder this time
More urgent
My chest tightened
Slowly, I reached for it
Same number
Of course
I hesitated
Then answered
“What now”
A soft chuckle came from the other end
“You’re asking the wrong person questions”
My grip tightened
“What do you mean”
“He’s not going to tell you the truth”
My eyes flicked to Sebastian
He was watching me
Closely
Dangerously
“Then who will”
A pause
Then
“Come outside”
My breath caught
“What”
“I’m right outside your building”
My heart skipped violently
No
That wasn’t possible
My eyes moved slowly toward the door
Then back to Sebastian
“Don’t move” his voice came sharply
I froze
The tone
Commanding
Serious
“Stay here” he added
But my heart was already racing
“What if they have answers” I said quietly
“They have lies”
“How do you know”
His jaw tightened
“Because I know them”
That made everything worse
“Then tell me who they are”
Before he could answer
A loud crash echoed from outside
My entire body went still
Both of us turned toward the door instantly
Another sound
Closer this time
Like something had just hit the wall
Hard
My heart started pounding violently
“What was that” I whispered
Sebastian didn’t answer
His expression had completely changed now
Cold
Focused
Dangerous
He moved toward the door slowly
Carefully
Every step controlled
“Stay behind me” he said quietly
I didn’t argue
I couldn’t
Fear had already settled deep in my chest
He reached for the handle
Paused
Then opened it slightly
Just enough to look outside
For a second… nothing happened
Then
His body went still
Completely
Like he had just seen something that changed everything
My heart dropped
“What is it” I whispered
He didn’t answer immediately
Slowly…
Very slowly…
He turned back to look at me
And for the first time since I had met him again…
I saw something I never expected
Fear
Real fear
“They found you” he said quietly