I woke up and Ash was no longer in the room. I've been here a total of three days and I've never really thought about what else there is to this house other than this room that I've been told is Ash's and mine and the kitchen. I don't really have any need to look around and find out what else is here. The closet has been made up with clothes that Joy and Lonnie have bought when they were out. I haven't even really looked at them I've stuck to yoga pants and shorts and t-shirts.
I figured that there wasn't a point in fighting anymore. I was stuck here, and even if I did feel like being without Ash would be an almost impossible task I still would like to go home and be with my family. I miss waking up to Bentley attacking me because mom won't let anyone eat breakfast without everyone seated at the table. I miss getting the letters from Ryder. I miss my dad's odd way of trying to keep his business in the family.
Sometimes I've caught myself wondering what things would of been like if Ash had just tried to talk to me like a normal person. He's highly attractive and I've always felt that I had a pull towards him but that doesn't mean that he had to take me. It's odd how no matter what I do, I can never get myself to get upset at him. I want to have hateful feelings towards him but something just won't let me do it.
I sighed and got up out of the bed and went to the bathroom to take a shower. I turn on the IPod that I found in the room with an IPod dock and leave the bathroom door opened so I can hear the music. Even though most if not all of the guards that came here with us are here, no one comes into the room without knocking and waiting for an answer.
I listened to the songs that were on the IPod a lot. They weren't that bad, most of them I would listen to on a normal bias. I wondered who picked the songs to stick them on here. I scrubbed myself with the expensive looking body wash that was in the bathroom when I got here. Everything here seemed to be expensive and name brand. Not that I'm complaining. The drawers were full of things that girls would use at any given time. Though there were two with manly looking supplies in there that I didn't know what half of it was for.
I got out and put on an outfit that was like the other ones I've been wearing and only put on a pair of socks and headed down to the kitchen. I walked in and noticed that Lennie and Joy were sitting with Hayden and Landon. For two normal couples they were awfully close and touchy. Like they couldn't go a few days without touching each other.
I didn't say anything to them and grabbed a bowl and a box of random cereal and made a bowl for myself and sat down at the table, not really paying attention to anyone. They've gotten to the point where they don't really look at me like I'm an outsider anymore, they've actually have tried talking to me. I'm not really sure what to think of that, they're my kidnapper's friends who didn't seem to that there was anything wrong with that. Which just seems a little odd to me, are they brain washed or what?
Did he tell them that I was crazy and that I would spill lies about being kidnapped? Would he really do that? The thing is though, is that I really don't know him enough to know what he would and wouldn't do. Even with these feelings that I've been feeling for him I'm not so sure about how I feel about getting to know him. I guess if I really want to know what I should expect out of him I should just get to know him somewhat. Maybe even get to know these people in the kitchen that keep sneaking looks at me.
I stopped eating and looked back at them with a blank look.
"You know even when you take a break from it it's still not nice to stare at people." I said to them as they looked at me.
They seemed shocked that I even said something to them. They looked like they didn't know how to act about it. Lenny gently smile at me and broke the awkward silence that had followed my words.
"Sorry about that, it's just we've all been here with you and we've never had a conversation with you. If we don't try to get to know you Ash is going to head butt us all and we won't be able to do anything with a pain like that."
"You know, you guys really don't have to do everything that he wants you to do, he's not the king of the world even if he has the ego for it. If you don't want to get to know me, don't, if you do, then do it. The choice is yours. I'd much rather you guys do it out of the kindness of your hearts rather than because an asshole told you to."
The guys stared at me in awe at the words that I had said. But I didn't get why. I just said what almost every teacher I ever had had taught me, to be your own person. Why was that so odd to them?
"Don't let Ash hear you talking about him like that. He wouldn't like it one bit. But I agree with what you said. And I whole heartedly want to be your friend "out of the kindness of our hearts" as you said. I don't like you walking around here so timid. If anything we should be the ones closed up in our rooms every day. This house is yours, not ours. Didn't Ash tell you that?"
I kind of liked Lenny, she seemed really down to earth just from this start of a conversation.
"Yes, but why would it be my house? I've never asked for it, or better yet paid a dime for it. This is your friend's house, I don't much more about him other than his name and that my father wanted him as a business partner. You guys should have reign over this house more than me. I don't understand his reasoning or his mind set or anything about him really."
"Well, on another note, why don't we go shopping later? You know, get out of this house for a while, and spend some over amount of money on things that are replicas of what we have just because we can?"
"That sounds awesome, except I have no money to spend."
They all looked at each other and smiled.
"That's okay, Ash left a black card in your name for you to use." Joy giggled.
This guys must be crazier than I thought