The Lost Wolf

Chapter 19

AVA’S POV

            The pain radiating throughout my body is starting to slowly subside. I don’t understand how my own mother had caused this pain throughout me. How do you hurt someone who you are supposed to care for and love?

            Nothing makes sense anymore to me.  To be honest, it probably hasn’t made any sense to me in quite a while.

            I have always wondered so much about my family and if what we had was actual love within our family. I never expected the reality of my thoughts and fear to be true, but today, I am unable to deny what I thought and felt. No matter what I expected to be true, it is still heartbreaking to know that there was no real love. I feel so alone as I sit in my room.

            My mind begins to wander to what I have felt the past few days with Liam. It was a feeling in which I never felt here. I felt wanted and care for, and possibly loved as well.

            Regret. I knew the dangers of wandering the forest that day and running away from Liam. I expected the fear to be a wolf, not this though.  I never would have expected this.

            When he was near, I was always able to sense him but ever since that moment in the woods, that moment when I realized my mistake of running away from him, I have not been able to feel his presence near me. I want to feel him near again, even if I am unable to touch him. He has always made me feel safe and secure.

            When I ran, I didn’t expect to see my mother watching from the distance.  That was my mistake of going near her. My inner voice kept telling me turn back to Liam, but sometimes trust can trick you when they hide their ill intentions. And even though, through that night of fear at my house, it is hard to unwrap the trust I have had in my parents.

            It feels heartbreaking to know that everything which I thought was true was a lie. I can still see my mom standing before me as she watched me agonize from the pain I was feeling, telling me that this is what I deserve. She just stood their coldly before me and told me that she was a witch and that she was the reason for this pain. It was her revenge.

            I would usually think she was kidding, but with everything happening right now; I don’t think I can deny that she may very well possibly actually be a witch.

            What kind of world am I living in? Witches are not supposed to exist.  They are fictional characters you find in books, tv shows, and movies.  Not in real life.

            I never cared for them even as a child though. The idea of witches always left a fear within me. My family would always tease me for being so childish and being scared of them. Now, I realize how correct I was on those childhood fear.

            ‘Stop delaying. You must leave now!’ I hear speaking to me from within. Of course I need to, I think to myself. But how? They’ve made a barrier to block that I can’t break through. It is too powerful for me.

            ‘You are strong. Trust yourself and fight for the strength hiding within yourself,’ I hear from the voice within me.

            As I pace the floor, trying to come up with a plan, I hear footsteps heading towards my door. I fling myself on the bed as quickly as I can. I don’t want them to know that I feel scared.  They need to think that I am confident. They will not take my feeling of strength from me. They’ve already taken my freedom from me, but they will not take any more. And I will get my freedom back. Who I am will not be taken from me.

            The door slowly opens, as I pretend to not notice. I should have expected to see him after the day in which I fled the house with Liam.  But even through that, it still left a wave of surprise to see Alex standing there before me just staring at me smugly.

            How did I ever love someone like him? I can barely stand to look at him right now and be near him. I just want him to leave and get away from me.

            Looking down at the book on my bed, I choose to pretend that I don’t even notice he is in the room with me. I don’t want him to think he has any power over me.

            “I knew you would be back.  Couldn’t stay away from me for long, now could you?!” Alex says before walking closer to me.

            I feel a wave of heat radiate throughout my entire body in anger pulling my full attention towards his direction which is probably what he was aiming for when he spoke. A deep growl full of anger escape my lips. I don’t know where that came from, but the feeling of the growl makes me feel stronger and powerful. For the first time in a long time, I feel that I can deal with anything standing before me. That nothing will break me or who I am.

            “I guess the only way you think you can have me is through force, but you will never be with me. No matter what you do or say, you will not break me. I am more than you will ever be. I am thankful to have realized that before you took any piece of me.”

            A slight chuckle leaves his lips. “It disgusts me to be near you. I never wanted to be with you in the first place, but I knew what you could do for me and that meant more to me, so I went along with this relationship.”

            “What are you talking about?! What is so important that I can do for you?” I ask.

            “You don’t know, do you? Well, I don’t think I’m quite ready to ruin that surprise for you just yet my little wolfie.”

            Wolfie? Why did he just call me that?!  “What are you talking about? Have you lost your mind?”

            “Oh, my dear, I would explain more, but your mate is on his way here. And well, I need to take care of your memory before he arrives.  We will deal with him after we see his reaction to you and me back together.”

            “Nothing you can do to me will EVER make me be with you again.”

            “Have you not realized anything yet? This is not a world you thought you lived in. Your mother is not the only one who is a witch. And that pain she shot through your body, it will be ten times worse towards HIM,” Alex says as he slowly walks closer towards me.

            “Stop! Please! I don’t know what you are planning to do but please stop. Don’t hurt him. He has nothing to do with you and me.  Don’t lay one finger on him,” I say before I find my body lunging towards him.