Unwanted: The Arranged Marriage

Jealousy

Suhaiba's 

We walked down the aisle of the shopping mall, we were shopping for food stuff at shop rite. Abdul held ablah in one hand while he pushed the cart with the other. 

"just let me help you carry ablah or hold the cart for you. " I whined 

" okay fine, hold the cart." I smiled and was quick to collect it. 

After getting what we wanted, we paid and headed straight to the car. I put the bags in the trunk while Abdul buckled ablah on her baby seat. I was about to enter the car when a lady's voice interrupted me, shd called out to Abdulaziz. 

"Rukkaya, what are you doing here?" he asked with a fond smile on his face, I felt this uncomfortable feeling in my chest.  

"Just shopping you?" she looked over at me and back to him

"I'm here with my daughter and wife, just shopping." she nods shyly at his reply  

"i-i tired calling you yesterday, the new shipment arrived and I know you and you're perfumes." she stuttered blushing 

"yeah, suhaiba this is Rukkaya I buy my perfumes from her, she imports them from various countries. Rukkaya this is my wife." we shook hands and smiled at each other, of course mine was forced. 

"you don't visit anymore, it's been boring without you lately." she flirted shamelessly 

"oh sorry, since my wife came back I've been busy. I'll visit you sometime this week, I promise." 

"I'll hold you to that, I'll see you around. Bye." she turns around and walk away swaying her hips, well she didn't have any! I don't know why but the way he smiled at her made me jealous. 

*****

Arriving at home I bolted into the house with a sleepy ablah in my arms, I put her to bed and went back straight to the kitchen to find Abdulaziz arranging the food stuff we bought. 

"what?" he asked sounding bored 

"nothing "

" she's a friend I've gotten used to, I know she's all flirty and stuff but she's a good person." I didn't know what to say to him, do i have any right to even get jealous? No I don't. 

"it's okay, I don't have any right to question you, I just felt jealous. You hardly smile at me and there you were showing off all 32 of your teeth." I mumbled 

"well I'm sorry but I have a lot of things to think about, I'm trying to ignore the big elephant in the room."

"and that's the problem, ignoring it makes it worse. I want to get back to how me used to be, I miss you so much." I say as I run my hands up and down his arm. 

"are you trying to seduce me?"

"I'm your wife so there's no such word between us, but if I were is it working?"

"mhhhm" he barely let's out as i slipped my hand under his shirt, he groaned in frustration when i retreated 

"why are you teasing me?" he asked with voice heavy with lust. 

"let's just say we have a lot to talk about tonight, in your room." I replied wiggling my eyebrow 

"I can't wait." I could see the smile on his face, he's such a perv. But it immediately vanished 

"is that what you think I'd say? What do you take me for? A toy you use for your amusement. I'm trying so hard to put all this behind me, don't push." he fumes leaving the kitchen in a hurry. 

I felt embarrassed and ashamed, why do I always make things worse for myself? I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but I didn't think it'll be this hard. I'm not giving up on us, not when I finally I'm ready to start a family. 

*****

If anyone knows me they know how jealous I am, so imagine how I felt when my husband suddenly developed the habit of calling his so called friend 'Rukkaya'. They always talked especially at night, and I'll be lying if i said I wasn't fed up with their disrespect. 

I was currently sitting opposite him watching him bark out a loud laugh, Ablah was busy watching Dora the Explorer and chewing on homemade cookies So i tired hard not to start an argument with him, I bit my tongue and clench my teeth. 

........

After dinner I went straight to my room, Abdulaziz was showering while his phone was ringing. I hurriedly answered hus phone... 

"kai I told you, like you're completely wrong. I called this friend of mine who studies in china and he said it's a lie." a squeaky voice answered while laughing 

"and who am I speaking with? " I asked with authority in my voice 

"oh, am...... This is rukkaya."

"don't you have a life, why are you disturbing other people's husband. get a life for goodness sake, it's embarrassing trying to ruin a happy family for your sick fetish." I hung the phone up with a smile on my face, that'll teach her to call again