My Once In A Lifetime Dream

Chapter 9 It is so darn...stupid!

It is so darn …stupid!

                I reach school with time to spare, so I went straight to my first class and tried to review for it being my “favorite” class and all (moved my eyes). Just when I finish reviewing it was time for class. Some of my classmates were staring at me while entering the room until they got to their chairs. Then the bell rang and the rest of my mates entered with Mrs. Patterson. When she came into the classroom and walked towards the front of the class she started roll call. Once she reached my name she looked across the room looking for me, and I think I saw for a second a small frown appear on her face, and to that, I asked myself why?  

                When the class finished thought I had a lot of homework, then Kelly and Angelina asked me if I was OK because my face was showing a grim look. And I just told them that it was because of the given homework (but in reality, it was because I didn’t know how to handle the stares of these people and dreading my encounter with the basketball team). They just laughed about it and continue walking to the next class. I paid attention to Mr. Ortega not only because it is my greatest class but because he gave an assignment to my liking. Because the class was about the different types of poetry, and he even read a few in class. He told us to look for information about them and write a composition of which one is our favorite type and which is our least favorite, make a comparison of each. I got too excited about it because I know about what and how to do it. My next two classes were ok until I had to go to my Literature class.

                Walking to my Lit class I got to conscious of my surroundings, I didn’t want to confront the gym class at that hour.  I was very nervous and sweating to the point that I couldn’t stop my thoughts from the past.

Flashback

Sixteen months ago

    (Shouting and grumbling) It was during group therapy at the hospital, there were two girls and three boys my age and four young adults (2 and 2). They were arguing about whose problem was harder than whose. They wanted acknowledgment of what they were feeling, I was rocking in my seat trying to tune out the noise but my nerves and fear picked making me scream and cry. All of their eyes and harsh words stopped and looked at where I was.” NO NO NO NO NO NO NOOOOO don’t stop stooooop!” Those words were coming out of my mouth I couldn’t handle my heart’s pain and the fights. It was my breaking point I got sedated after almost 30 minutes of thrashing in fear and tears. And my mind went black.

End of flashback

                I had to shake my head a couple of times to pull out of my thoughts. I stop and took two deep breaths and steady myself. I had to keep my composure and have a clear mind for myself and the class. It was sort of stupid to compare what had happened and what is happening. When I was in front of the gym and decided to look straight to the front and avoid the gym. They were running inside, I think, I just heard the sound of their sneakers on that court. I think no one paid attention outside the court. I arrived at my class had to dry my sweet with my handkerchief and then entering the classroom on time. And it went by without any mishaps.