Chapter 7 I Can't...!
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I can’t…!
Once I came back home, I did my chores like every other day. I cleaned the front yard by raking the leaves and putting them in a bag, then went into the kitchen, bathroom, living room, and the bedrooms collecting the trash and took it out and into the big bin outside in front of the house for the garbage collectors. Had to place Nicky’s, and Jina’s toys in the toy box. Then, help setting up the dining table for dinner. And helped my twin siblings with their homework, too. This is something I have done ever since both my parents work and because I am a big and older brother. I love my family very much and I want to help with everything I can do.
When I finished with my part and ate diner, I went to my room and started doing my homework, “sigh” and it has to be my least favorite class, math! Fifteen minutes into my work my mind trailed back to that little chubby girl’s face, it made me feel awkward. Probably, because it was partially my fault, I didn’t mean to do something like that to anyone and not even a first-year girl. But I have pushed it aside many times today because I don’t know how to fix it, but I have to ease my conscious or I won’t be able to calm down any time now. But I don’t know how to say sorry without making it more embarrassing. What would that little chubby girl be thinking of? Would she be angry, upset? What things would go through her little head? I can’t concentrate!! I’m into sports and I am good at studying, and I like to play a lot with my friends. On the other hand, I try to portrait myself as an unreachable guy toward the girls so I don’t falter or get weakened by them. That’s why I don’t know what to do.
First, if I go around inquiring about her,(because I don’t know anything about her) everyone will think that I am into that little chubby girl, although I do not think being chubby is a bad or good thing, either way... Second, she might run away, again, when she sees me (I think), and that might cause more misunderstanding between us and the people that are around. I don’t want that at all! Third, my fans might hurt that girl if I approach her for anything, they can be cruel to any female around me. I don’t pay attention to them, and because I don’t have a girl they fine (probably). Then again, if I try to have a conversation with any girl, they’ll try to do mean things when I’m not looking. So I avoid any interaction, in school, with new girls at school. I am not saying that I want something with the girl, nonetheless, it will be perilous for the little chubby girl! Hence, what should I do now??! How should I proceed? I can’t think of anything that can help! Gosh!! Wait,… why I’m thinking like this? DAMN!! “Stop thinking about that Joe Berrios!” I said to myself after punching the desk I was at. And went and finish my homework, took a shower, and went to sleep.
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