The Bad Boy's Property (TAGALOG)

Ep.1: Chapter 2: Farewell

I went upstairs to the second floor of our house and went to my room, sad and broken. I let myself land on my oh-so-fluffy bed, and I stamped my feet like a child while laying on the bed. Iyon ay dahil sa inis ko sa bagay na nangyayari ngayon sa akin.

Paano kaya kung mag-artista na lang ako? Nang sa gayon ay matupad ko agad ang mga pangarap ko ng ganito kaaga. Pero pinag-iisipan ko pa ang pagpasok sa ganoong mundo habang nag-aaral ako. Ayokong magdesisyon kaagad sa bagay na iyon nang hindi pinag-iisipan ng matagal na panahon. I want to take my time to think about whether I want to go or not. That place is also too messy and chaotic for me. Bukod do'n, pinagpipilian ko pa kung ano ang kukuhanin kong propesyon sa hinaharap. Anyway, it's not going to be a solution to this problem. I couldn't consider doing that. Pero ano ang gagawin ko? I couldn't think of anything else to be somehow a solution to stop this crazy stuff going.

"Urgh! I don't understand you, 'ma!" I shouted out of disgust. "Ano na ang gagawin ko ngayon? Ano na ang mangyayari sa akin ngayon? I can't imagine that I am going to study at a school like that. Mabuhay pa kaya ako ng matagal nito? Ito na ba ang huling beses na masisilayan ko ang mundo at mararanasang mabuhay?" Oo. Kinakausap ko nga ang sarili ko. Oo. Baliw na nga ako. Siguro. Nabaliw na ako. Well, it started kind of a long time ago, but now, I am crazier. Very crazy. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan ang mama ko. Bakit niya ginagawa sa akin ito?! What is she thinking, putting me to a school of brats and morons? A school filled with stubborn students. A school where badasses are everywhere. Oh, my gulay! Sana may magsabi sa aking hindi talaga ito nangyayari! If I'm going there, then will I be the only good girl to exist there? So, it means that I am going to be the only toy they will have? Pagkatapos ay tutuhugin nila ako gamit ang barbeque stick at kakainin ng buhay?

Oh, no, no! Please!!!

Ayoko talagang lumipat doon! Lahat ng mga kaibigan ko ay nasa Riz High! It is where I belong. I'm just going to feel out of place if I go to a school where I know no one! Most of all, I am not a bad girl, brat, badass or stubborn, or whatever the students there are! Hindi ako para sa iskwelahang iyon. I am not going to fit in. Alam ko at sigurado ako na walang gugustuhing kaibiganin ako roon o kahit maging interesado man lang.

Oh, poor lonely beautiful me.

Sana talaga ay lahat ng mga tsismis na naririnig ko tungkol sa school na iyon ay hindi totoo. I hope that those are all just rumors or will remain that way.

I'm just 17 years old now, but it seems like this is the end of my life. It is the last year that I have to take to get into college, but it seems impossible to happen now.

Kasalanan ito ng nanay ko, eh. Ever since kindergarten, I started in Riz High. Hanggang ngayon ay naroon pa rin ako. Hindi ko akalaing darating itong araw na ito na bigla na lang magdedesisyon si mama na ilayo ako roon.

Riz High is like my second home. Iyon ay isang lugar kung saan ay doon na rin ako lumaki. The school is very sentimental to me.

I grab my phone from the desk on the side and sit on my bed. I dialed Hetera's number, one of my best friends. Inilapit ko sa tainga ko ang phone para marinig ang call. Hindi ko siya matawagan. It was out of coverage.

Ibinaba ko ang phone galing sa tainga ko upang makita ulit ang screen. I clicked Zekeine's number to call. Isa rin siya sa mga best friends ko. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanila ang kung anong nangyari.

"Oh, hello, Elay? Why are you not here yet? Aren't you attending a class today? Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo?" Zekeine immediately said when answering my call.

"Zeki, gusto ko lang kayong pasalamatan para sa lahat ng oras na pinagsamahan natin. You guys are such a blessing to me, and it was a pleasure to have you in my life. I appreciate everything about all of you, everything you've done for me and.., just, everything. Pakisabi na rin sa lahat ng friends natin. When you come for me here, remember that the flowers I prefer are roses and tulips. Okay? About the lipstick that you're supposed to give me today, just put it on my grave, okay?"

"What the hell? Is this a farewell? Are you severe? I think you are. You've gone very crazy. You don't know how to talk like you're normal now. Can you do me a favor? Because I am talking to you seriously here, right? Why don't you answer me appropriately in return?" She sounded a little pissed and sarcastic, which I know she was being. Inaakala talaga niyang nakikipaglokohan lang ako?

"What makes you think I'm not serious! It's no joke. Mama is going to transfer me to a new school." Nagsimula na akong magkwento ng tungkol sa bagay na sasabihin ko sa kanila.

"What? Holy cow! That's crazy! So that is why you are not here to attend a class? Why is she going to do that? Seriously? It is the end of the world! You are getting separated from us." She squealed.

"Yeah. Pero ito ang malala. Do you know which school will I go to?" I asked with a serious tone.

"Yes? Which school?" She asked.

"Sa Eco High. She's seriously putting me there!"

"What?! Really? That's cool. Pero ano raw ang dahilan kung bakit biglang nagdesisyon si auntie na ilipat ka r'on? Parang biglaan naman."

"Are you kidding? What's cool about it?" I sighed out of irritation. "I am also wondering about the reason. It's not clear to me. Ang sabi niya sa 'kin ay gusto niya lang pero duda ako roon. It's sick! Ayokong lumipat pero wala akong pagpipilian na tumanggi. God knows how much I tried to stop her about this decision, but to no avail." I cried.

"I see. Sa tingin ko ay may dahilan si auntie. Maybe, she can't share it with you for some reason. I think you should discover it yourself. Don't be so over-acting about it. There are a lot of good-looking guys there. Malay mo, doon mo na matagpuan ang ipapalit mo kay Papa Jeon. By the way, is your fiance still planning to return to the country?"

"How many times do I have to tell you not to mention his name to me?! Wala na akong pakialam sa bwisit na iyon matagal na panahon na ang nakakalipas. I even erased his face from my memory. At hindi siya ang dahilan kung bakit wala pa akong boyfriend hanggang ngayon o hindi naghahanap ng jojowain. It's because I do not want a headache from being in a relationship for now. After all, I was traumatic about my experience with him. Kaya itigil mo na ang pag-iisip na ayaw ko siyang palitan. Aside from that, I do not want to be with a bad boy. I am not looking for one. So what will I look for in that school? I don't care about the thought that there are many good-looking guys there! Now, why are you changing the topic to talking about him? Huh?" My blood is heating up when someone is mentioning the name of that bastard. I'm being hysterical. Para akong halimaw na handang kumain ng tao.

"You have just bitten it. You fell in the trap." She laughed. "Why are you so defensive about him? If I knew it, everything you say is opposite from the truth. I know for a fact that you are still waiting for 'J' to come back, and I know that your type is a bad boy. P'wede mong maloko ang ibang tao pero hinding-hindi mo magagawa sa 'kin iyon. You like him for that, don't you?"

I feel like I'm getting lost because of everything that she's saying. Deny everything. That's all in my head right now.

"What?"

"You like him for being a bad boy."

"I liked him for that. Yes! I liked him for that." I corrected her.

"You like him for that." She repeated.

"Can you stop it! Don't keep reminding me everything about him." I yelled, desperately demanding it.

"You like to remember, don't fool me, girl."

"I said, stop! Yes, I admit. I liked him, but that was in the past, okay? It's already done and gone. Gusto ko nang kalimutan ang lahat ng tungkol sa kanya. Okay? So, stop now! Ayokong pag-usapan ang taong hindi naman importante. I don't think that moron still remembers me either or even coming back." I sighed anxiously.

"But you're hoping, right?" She teased again.

"I'm not!"

"You know, girl, forgetting about him is impossible because the fact is you two are fiances and tied to each other a long time ago. You two are like both a reminder to each other because of that. You can't fool yourself. You will meet and going to be together whether you like it or not."

As long as he's not here, he is not yet my problem. Right! I do not have a problem yet.

Ever since he and his family left the country, I've been trying so hard to convince my parents to stop the arrangement with him, but my mom keeps telling me the same thing every time, that I couldn't turn back now.

"You know, girl, as much as you try to forget about him, you'll end up being stuck in a situation where you would realize you couldn't because the truth is, being engaged is like being married already. Girl, you are tied up like a married woman. Both of you are committed to marrying each other and being together."

"I don't want to think about it in a very complicated way. It would be a big help if you just shut your mouth and stop talking about it. For now, I don't have to think about anything. I don't have a problem, as long as I don't see it coming yet. I'm good as long as the bad idea of coming back to the country has not yet brushed his mind. I take advantage of the opportunity to erase his memories in my mind, so stop doing the s**t of reminding me about him, okay? My day is getting more ruined than it already is. So, ano na ngayon? Tulungan niyo naman akong kombinsihin si mama na baguhin ang desisyon niya, oh?"

Narinig ko ang pagtawa niya bago magsalita. "Give me a minute. I'll tell them your dilemma." For a spare of seconds, I heard that she was talking far from the phone. I could hear them talking. After a minute or two, she's back on the phone when they get done talking. "Hey. Here's the thing, we don't think we could help you with this, because they were also thinking the same thing about this matter. Mas kilala mo ang mama mo kaysa sa amin. Halos sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay hinahayaan ka lamang n'yang magdesisyon para sa sarili mo at gawin ang gusto mo, pero kapag nagdesisyon siya sa isang bagay para sa'yo, alam mong hindi mo siya mapipigilan hanggang mangyari iyon. That's how I knew your mother."

Tama si Zekeine. They are right. They know my mother well as we have all been friends for a long time now. Oo. Nasanay akong ako ang nasusunod para sa pagdedesisyon sa sarili ko. I'm in control of everything. But once my mom wants something for me, I don't have an option to disagree. Maybe, that is the downside of it. Hindi ako p'wedeng humindi dahil doon.

But honestly, this was the first time I did not like what she planned for me, so I used to follow her every time she intended to do something for me.

I do not like what she plans to do now because I don't think it is righteous. It's crazy.

Bakit nga ba sinusubukan ko pa kung alam na alam ko naman na ang kahihinatnan ay wala akong pagkakataong iligtas ang sarili ko rito? I know well that it's a no-win situation. Not negotiable. Not a discussion. At wala na akong ibang pagpipilian, sa kadahilanang si mama ang nagdesisyon at kilalang-kilala ko siya pagdating sa ganito.

I cried and sounded like a child, but no tears like earlier. Pero gusto ko talagang umiyak. Only, I don't know why these eyes are not likely to cry. Maybe, it's not well digested yet by my system. Na parang hindi ito maproseso. Hindi nito matanggap at ayaw nitong tanggapin.

"I don't want to transfer." It is so not acceptable for me. I mean, it goes the same way for me. It is not negotiable and not a discussion. Pero 'yon nga, wala akong pagpipilian. I must respect my mom's decision because she rarely does this. Like, not once in a blue moon. It is much rare than that. Sinusunod niya ang desisyon ko para sa aking sarili palagi.

Ang alam ko lang ngayon ay siya ang mama ko at dapat ko siyang pagkatiwalaan. Alam kong may dahilan siya upang gawin ito. I hope so.

I heard Zekeine sigh. "Us, too. We don't like you leaving, but we all have no choice left to do. It's your parent's decision, and we can't go against that."

"Yeah. I know."

"We are going straight ahead to your house once classes get done. We'll be with you on this journey." She laughed because of the corny words she said. "But seriously, I like that school you're going to. It's not too bad. So, don't be sad. You're going to learn a lot of different and new things there. All exciting stuff! It would be a big adventure for you. Like s**t. Doing s**t, talking s**t, and giving a shit." She laughed loudly.

Kumunot ang noo ko. I feel like this talk is stressing me out more. I expected to have comforted, but I realized I should not expect much. Kilalang-kilala ko na ang mga kaibigan ko kaya alam ko ang dapat asahan.

Maybe, I should talk to them when I get a bit fine so that my stress won't double, you know! Pakiramdam ko ay ngayon na mismo ang araw kung kailan ako papanaw. Hindi 'yong araw ng pagtapak ko sa Eco High.

"H'wag na lang kayong pumunta, parang awa n'yo na. Alam ko na ang mangyayari. Alam ko ang tumatakbo d'yan sa isip niyo. Don't stress me out more than you do now. Mawawala rin kami sa bahay. We are heading to Eco High to make it possible for me to attend class tomorrow. Meet my pretty face tomorrow in my wake when I'm dead." I cried.

I feel like my life will be ending soon. Mababaliw na yata ako. Ni hindi man lang ako makaisip ng paraan para matakasan ang tawag ng kamatayan. If only I have superpowers. I can be invisible.

It is hopeless. Kaawa-awa naman ako.

I heard my best friend Zekeine laugh at what I said. "Don't be too exaggerated. Walang kung ano man ang mangyayari sa'yo. Don't overthink it. If someone touches you there, let me know, and you can count on me. I promise!"

Kung sa kanya siguro nangyayari itong nangyayari sa akin ay madali lang para sa kanya. Paniguradong hindi siya magre-react ng ganito. It will not be a big deal for her. Bakit? Dahil malakas siya. Walang makakatapak sa kaniya. If someone tries, she will make them pay double. A guy or a girl, Zekeine does not choose adversity. That is her. But she made us an exception to that. She treats us well. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Like, even when the times that we treat her badly. She does not do her famous avenge to us. Maybe, that is the advantage of being best friends with her.

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