Chapter Nine
We must have talked for hours and hours. It felt like the edge of possible insanity had faded away and, as a result, I felt a thousand times better. I can’t really explain it, but this was the first time that I had found myself in a real conversation with Terrence. He was a great man, pleasant and kind, and something about him made my heart jump in crazy circles. I couldn’t understand why the flush on his cheeks and the strange way he brushed his shaggy hair behind his ears made me smile so widely. I shouldn’t have felt that way.
I remember a lot of the guilt that I suffered because of my feelings. Something about the way he talked, with nerves on edge. He had been afraid of my judgement, as if I held the future of his world in my hands. I suppose that in a way, I did, but h
