Chae vomited the bit of food he had in his stomach, he spit the remnants out crying; crying for so many things going wrong in his life.
It all started when he stupidly agreed to marry Ditroníse and merge both of their companies to form a now major conglomerate.
The fact that their company had a major turn over doesn't make things any better especially since that Dion incident that happened a month ago, Chae's throat instantly closes when remembers that awful day he saw the life leave Dion's body and what happened after; Chae shudders as he now sits on the shower floor letting the water rain down on him.
He holds his wrist to stop it from shaking so much but he fails, his hands continue to tremble as he still feel the rope burns left by the ropes Ditroníse used to tie him to the bed after he dragged him out of Dion's burning building.
*flashback*
"So you think just because I f**k around, that gives you the right to do the same?!? You're supposed to be the pure one, the one who's not tainted; I'm f****d up! That I know but not you, you don't get to become me...but since you're tainted by another man...well I'm gonna f**k his smell, his touch out from you. I'm gonna make sure your body still remembers who it belongs to!"
Blinded by his rage, burning jealousy, possessiveness and outright obsession with Chae, he fails to notice the slight bump on 'Chae's stomach as he went on like a mad man.
He made sure Chae couldn't walk for at least two weeks and marked his body with bites and marks all of his body.
*End of flashback*
Chae's body shook as He cried, he wailed only for his voice to crack, it was still sore but the shower was his only safe place from Ditroníse.
Chae's wrists burn from the fresh cuts he made before showering, he doesn't mind it, at least he's in control of this pain.
He can't understand why he can't stop loving him, he did feel something for Dion, he cared deeply for him and is grateful for the slice of heaven the man gave him and feels extremely guilty that he had to pay with his life but in the end it was always Ditro no matter how sick and twisted it sounds.
Chae wonders what's wrong with him that makes him love a monster like his husband, someone whos only ever hurt him.
Was it because his mom left him at a young age?
Or that he couldn't get over the deep hole his mother left inside of him?
No matter how hard his father tried to be there for him and Lord knows he tried his best But he could close the hole But only made it somewhat less painful.
But that's just it he can't stop loving him, he craves his touch but not like this; not when it hurts him.
But he still hates him for all he's done to him.
Now out of the shower he wrapped his body with a towel and takes shaking steps towards the white stick on the basin.
With trembling hands, he turns it over...Positive...
He's pregnant.
He knew it, he could feel it but denied it even with physical changes on his body.
But now the stick in his hand is like a slap of reality, forcing him to face the truth...
He's pregnant with Ditroníse's child, a child that would force him to be with Ditro forever.
Why can't Ditroníse just love him back? Why cant he be a normal human being and a normal husband?
Tears cloud his eyes as he palms his bump and for the first time he really feels it.
It's there and not going anywhere.
He feels like he can't breathe, needs to get out of here.
With the pregnancy test still in his hand, takes out clothes to wear; he places them on the bed and grabs his phone.
"Hello? Sung'er?"
Chae sat on the bed, he looked down on his hand to the test, he cried
"Daddy...I'm coming home" he sobbed.