Like slashed with a samurai. That's how painful Takeshi feels inside his left chest now. He just read email from Xiao Ping that scattered him with questions full of doubt. Takeshi understands. Xiao Ping has every right to be jealous. Who wouldn't be jealous to see her lover being intimate with other woman ? That is not what makes his heart hurt. His heart is hurt to realize that he has put their love in the horns. He can't tell Xiao Ping the truth. He doesn't want Xiao Ping to know how low he has done, selling his pride for some money. He feels so low and disgusting. And he is afraid that he can't bare when Xiao Ping looks at him as low. Takeshi deeply inhales, filling his chest with air, and slowly exhales it. His fingers hang on top of keyboard, doubts for a moment of his brain's deci

