I've been crying in my room for hours now. I know that I am sad about marrying someone that isn't Arthur, but I feel like it's more than that. My body has been extra sensitive recently, and today it's been going crazy ever since I agreed to the wedding.
I can't let my parents see me like this or know that something is up. I have no one to talk to, and it's killing me inside. I feel trapped, even more so than when I was stuck in that sickening room back at the Blackner's residence. At least I had Lucas to talk to back there; I also had Arthur with me; even though he wasn't with me the way that I would like, his presence did make things better, and he also protected me from his father anytime he sensed that I was in danger.
Who would I turn to when I went back in that sick place? I indeed
