Destiny's Fusion

Never Gonna leave your side

Its hard to tell when you start feeling close to a person that you just met few days back..

you feel connected like you've known them for a while but don't realize it until you see them caught up in a situation that involves you too..Is that the case with me and Roop..?

definitely not because god knows what she thinks about me..

Now that she knows that I don't cook well and when I do its literally crap..

but why the hell do I care what she thinks..

anyways she is gonna leave once her parents know the truth..She would go..

She would leave... Me...why do I feel weird just thinking about it..

its like losing her..a part of me would be lost too..

Would that really happen.. what would I do then?..would it not effect me..It wouldn't right? it won’t..

"R-Richard...?" I realized I had been staring at her all the while as she slept but now she was up looking straight at me

'uh hey! Good morning.." I blurted out awkwardly

"Is everything fine..?" she asked blankly

"yea Just.. um.. You look beautiful.." what the.. what am I saying

"what..?!" she asked again with a frown

"um..I meant usually people don't look good not in the morning but you do.."

"So you were staring at me because I looked beautiful..?" it showed on her face that she didn't believe me

"You doubt that you don't..?" I folded my arms and smirked at her

"you need to shave and I need to make breakfast for us.." she eyed me then got up and walked towards the bathroom but I quickly stepped in blocking her path..

"well you need not worry about that..it’s been taken care of.." I smiled sheepishly

"you made breakfast..?"

"Believe it or not I did.. It wasn't hard but wasn't simple either but I managed..so you get changed and leave the rest to this gorgeous cordon bleu in front of you"

she looked at me skeptically then without a word walked into the bathroom while I just stood there with a stupid smile..

that was the lamest crap you ever came up with.. man! but she got it right! or else she would have given me her 'your so weird' kinda look...whatever!

I had made coffee with toast because that was the only thing I could cook right whenever I felt like a sloth to go out... And she was pleased with my simple but considerable efforts..

We ate in silence but my heart being the impulsive one wanted to hear..listen to her and there it went again

"so.. um.. Is it good? I know its not something you wouldn't expect from a cor"

"Your right.. its not.. But it isn't bad either.. its fine as it should be..." she smiled and that was all my heart needed to steady itself as I smiled back..

"how is your hand now?" what hand I thought for a second her question then struck my conscious cords and I looked over my still bandaged palm

"i think the wound is healed now..but you should remove the bandage or it will cause infection" she spoke casually as she sipped her coffee

"really?.. Then what?..

Would it spread out and turn me into a zombie?.." I grinned and eyed her teasingly

"that stuff happens only in movies but yes... it would spread all over your arm and maybe then you'll have no choice but to get rid of your arm" my eyes got bigger but then I grinned

"riggght.. is there anything else I should know about my painfully one armed future The great and oh so illusive sibyl?" I couldn't help but laugh at her not at all amused blank face

"a what?!.. fine! laugh all you want.. i had to warn you and I did.. Moreover Its not something you should be making fun of.. Richard.. especially when it happened to you.." she then abruptly got up and walked towards the kitchen sink with her plate..

i remained seated with a stiff face as I tried to take in what she just said..where is this all coming from..i looked over at her and it showed on her face she was still angry..

what did I say.. and then it hit me like a massive meteor..

I got up quickly and walked over to her

"Roop.. Look at me.." she didn't as she went on cleaning the already speck less plate so then I turned off the water and made her look at me

"Roop..listen to me.. What happened yesterday in that store... something like that wont ever happen again but if it does.. i'd be there to get you out of it..because as long as your with me, your my responsibility so just... don't blame yourself for things that I wish to do..the things I would do for you because you can't control them.."

before I realised I had said those things that I wanted to hide from her.. it wasn't just mere duty that pushed me to save her..it was what I felt and still feel for her..

" you..would have done the same if they had caught someone else, isn't it ?" her dark eyes questioned me..I gasped and moved away coz the answer she expected was again a lie and I couldn't lie anymore..

"I um.. I'll check out the bandage and see if there any symptoms of me being infected" I tried but even my smile couldn't hide how stupid I felt..I then simply walked over to the bathroom ignoring her completely and shut the door behind

Roop's POV

Why didn't he say something..he would have done the same right.. there's no doubt about it...but I really can't be his responsibility forever..

I have to talk to my parents..face them..i have to...

"Great news!..my wound is gone..just a little mark but that would go away too in about 2-3days nice work! you just saved the world from the zombie invasion!" he smirked broadly..why does he have to be not so funny at times but I'm glad that his wound is all healed..

"so now that everything’s clear,no doubt very clean, thanks to you..I’ll head out and do some work" he spoke as he scratched his stubble

"it’s Sunday what work do you have?.." I don't know why I even asked ,maybe curiosity was much queasy to know

"Let’s see from the viewpoint of a normal bachelor, so yeah I have laundry to do and then couple of bills to pay,you see all of this unfortunately doesn't come for free" he smiled and then looked over some papers kept in the shelf

"Can I help? Whatever it is... after all I live here too.." I stepped up..he looked at me sternly but then went back to looking at the papers

"So can I help?" I asked again

"Nope you can't, not when you feel obliged to do it, help me because you want to then we'll talk" he dismissed me like a small kid

"fine.. I want to help.. Can I help now?" I asked loudly with a daggered look

"that doesn't sound like you really want to help.." I glared at him and as usual he laughed enjoying my idiocy

"just kidding relax! Grumpy head.. now hold these and i'll get my jacket and clothes for laundry" he handed me some papers and then came back with a bunch of clothes..

"yeah right whose laughing now.." he spoke through the clothes hanging all over him and dangling down..

"you look funny.." I laughed

"ohh.. Do I? You should see yourself then, you make that grumpy little kid face who doesn't get his favourite candy" how dare he say that I am a kid that too grumpy one

"Exactly!..that’s what I am talking about.. You’re so good at it.. " he teased me with a big smile

"after you madame.." he managed to open the door as we got out but then I took the key from him and locked it myself..

we headed in his car where he wanted to go..driving through the streets of new york was something I hadn't got over yet..watching from a distance filled me with so many wishes and hopes...

I wanted to travel around the city..see things I hadn't seen before but it all got washed away so soon.

.but still somewhere that girl in me longed to discover and admire the beautiful places in this city..would I ever get a chance..

"hey.." I quickly looked over at him

"we're here..you okay?" I nodded simply, he had parked the car on the sideways

"its too much crowded inside..its better if you wait here..i'll be back in a few minutes" I nodded again because I really didn't want to trouble him more with my lurking presence all around..

"it won't take long..the keys in there, just turn on the stereo if you feel bored and you better not wander off because I’m no Indiana Jones" after giving me the usual safety instructions he headed off with the clothes kept on the backseat.. I gazed out through my window at the stores on the opposite side..

one of the shop that caught my eye read 'shmaltz accessorial' it had all types of musical instruments..i watched as the small boy in the store picked up a violin and then called a guy who I figured was his dad..

it suddenly triggered a memory of my own..my dad always got me what I wanted..never asked why, what for..because he believed in me i never had to beg for things..

Preeti di would always be jealous that I got what I liked so easily without any efforts made..Dad always knew whatever I would choose or want would be for the best..

But all I did right now is disappoint him.. I'm so sorry Dad..i just.. I failed you..the only that you wanted from me..i couldn't do it and look, where has it got me..

Still depending on someone because I have nowhere else to go..if only I had listened to Preeti di and married that Kawalpreet..then this all would have never happened..

sadness crushed my heart and tears formed but I quickly wiped them off..i need to stay strong and talk to my parents..i'll tell them everything..it won't be easy for them but they'll forgive me..

i know my family

"hey grumpyhead!..it took less time than I thought, you see, being a regular customer they let me do my thing before others..I kind a felt like a star.. But no discount spoiled the gladness.. you good?" I nodded with a smile but he still stared at me oddly

"y'know your face makes it quite easy to guess what you’re feeling.." I just didn't want to look at him so I looked away

"You miss them, don't you?..your parents..and your sister who I thought I could date until you happily crushed my hopes..thank’s really" that made me chuckle even though I had just cried

"now.. all you need is a mind freezing icecream with a cherry on the top.." I couldn't see but I could make out his grinning face.. and I wasn't wrong as I looked at him..

"I dont like cherries on the top or anywhere in the icecream" I teased with a grin

"fine..but grumpykids like icecreams.. soo without further delay lets grab some.." he winked at me and my heart fluttered as if consumed by overflowing happiness. Why did he have such an effect on me…no doubt he had looks of a charmer but it wasn't that.. what was it then..our fates tossed together..why in the whole world,with him! few days back I didn't even know him..now we tease each other like best friends

"I know I look good so just carry on with those googly eyes because really, I don't mind" he grinned again and I could see his slight dimple taking shape amidst his stubble..

i quickly looked away as soon as I realised I was shamelessly staring again but my heart continued to dance frantically as if on fire..

I tried distracting my mind and crazily beating heart by staring at shops, people moving along the sidewalks crossing the road with pets or with bags or with partners..

as we waited for the traffic light to go green..my eyes wandered more around the area as we waited until it finally stopped at a familiar place..

"It.. it cant be..this..this is the place!" my eyes widened and I stared at the place with astonishment

"What..?" Richard asked confusedly but I wasn't in right mind to say anything because all I had were unanswered questions myself

"Roop what are you, hey stop!..don't! Roopp! " without wasting more time I immediately stepped out of the car and ran towards the place..

Richard's POV

Dammit! Where is she going?!... I watched Curiously as she entered the pennsylvania hotel.. what the?..why is she going in there?..

But my concentration didn't last long because it was interrupted by loud honks of the cars behind me as the signal went Green..

Guess I’ll have to park somewhere and see it for myself..

I immediately parked the car as soon as I found a parking space and then headed towards the Hotel

Roop's POV

My legs and hands went numb as coldness entered my body but I had to cover the distance..know what had happened..face the truth..

I walked with as much strength I had towards the blonde haired receptionist.. her smiling face was still the same nothing had changed except my life

"Good afternoon Mam..how can I..?" she stared at me perplexedly but then her face lit up with a small smile

"Please excuse me for not recognizing you before..how are you feeling now Mam? Your fiance was too much worried that day when all of a sudden you fainted.." she spoke with pitiful eyes

"um im fine now..What had happened..?" my voice cracked as I asked the dreadful question

"Didn't he tell you?..he wanted to take you to the hospital as soon as possible so we got him a cab..we also told him that we could get a doctor here to examine you but he didn't want our help but I'm so glad that you’re doing fine Mam.." she smiled warmly but all my feelings were slowly sinking into the dark sorrowful abyss

"Is he... still here..?" the moment I spoke the words my eyes got all moist with tears ready to spill out of my eyes.

"Why would you ask so Mam..? He left the very next day too,with all the luggage..we offered him a discount as well..because all our customers are precious to us..Is there anything else I can do for you?" I just shook my head because I couldn't talk anymore..everthing went blank out of order..

it was hard to digest that he had done everything that I never in my life could've expected he would do..maybe I deserved it for taking things so lightly..

you can't depend on love always because even love loses its real value in this cruel realistic world..shock dilemma..there weren't words to describe what I was feeling..

every step that I took felt heavier, weakening me from inside..the truth was as clear as it claimed it would be and now it was coldly knocking me down

"Roop..." I lifted my head up weakly..

Richard stood there watching me..i didn't want him to see me like this..I couldn't even ask him to take me home..home where my parents were...still waiting for me..hoping I would come back someday..because all i felt right now was alone..utterly alone

"Come on, lets go from here" Richard mumbled softly then held my hand in his and led me to his car..

Richard's POV

This was the place they had stayed in.. Why didn't I think of it.. It breaks me to see her like this.. Its like I can feel every inch of her pain but still can't do nothing...

I can't even hold her when she needs it the most.. It’s so frustrating.. The silence between us was deafening and ridiculous..

there're so many things I want her to know..but I just.. It all feels useless when I dont even exist in her world..

After few minutes we reached my apartment as icecream plans got screwed by overly obnoxious details of Roop's Past..Roop without a word walked into my room and I didn't interrupt because space was the only thing I could give her at the moment..

It was half past seven now and Roop hadn't come out of the room…it worried me so I checked up on her..as my eyes circled the room..

I found her in a corner with her head down and arms wrapped around her knees..

" Roop look, what I made..I hope you like cheesy pasta.." I smiled even when it hardly looked like it

"I’m not hungry Richard" she grumbled plainly

"do you think I’m going to take no for an answer?..now, come on..grumpykid..I’m not moving until you eat and talk to me..you haven't eaten anything from afternoon and that includes me too but i'm a guy so no worries but you.. Young lady need to eat.."

she stared at me unblinkingly then brought my hand that held the fork to her mouth and ate the pasta on it

"my sister used to make pasta for me whenever I had a bad mood or fights with my friends..she always knew I wouldn't say no to it because I loved having it.." I too then sat beside her after she finished eating

"I was wrong Richard..all this time I was wrong..how stupid of me" she rested her head gently on my shoulder and I watched her intently as it suddenly filled me with so much warmth..

"Roop you were never wrong..the douchebag you dated, he was wrong and what he did, that was wrong..we all make mistakes Roop and from that, all we can do is learn..

but still i'd say your efforts didn't go waste after all you met me.." I smirked proudly and she slightly laughed

"Yeah I met you the charming joker.." she cracked in-between her sniffs

"I'd prefer the term entertainer more..but you surpass me with your googly eyes"

I laughed just imagining them

"oh! you mean like this.." she quickly looked at me and her eyes were twisted towards one another like a lunatic

"Now..thats creepy and so not the googly eyes I was talking about" she laughed at my weirded out expression..

"you need to be specific.." she teased and I was glad she was back to her normal self

"I'll keep that in mind next time..you should rest now Roop..or your brain's gonna explode because of all the what ifs and not's you must have thought of.." I got up from the floor

"How did you know that I did?" I looked down at her.

"Isn't it obvious? Women always have more to think about..even when its trivial..they love and think intensely, being less rational about worldly things..but that’s what makes them unique..Now, sleep googly eyes.." I grinned and then walked towards the door

"Richard..” she murmured

“Roop..” Her name was all I could whisper as she stood before me

“would you hug me, please?" her all of a sudden words threw my heart into frenzy

"Roop.." before I could settle my heart..her hands were on my chest as they clutched my shirt tightly..

I hesitated to touch her but then I wanted to hold her as much as she needed it and so I did as I pulled her closer to me.. nothing else mattered.. not anymore...

she didn't let go neither did I as we stood there holding each other close..

she cried herself to sleep in my arms and i wanted her to let it all out..

cry as much as as she wanted because it was better than holding it all in..

I then pulled her up and laid her on the bed..

"Don't go please.." she grabbed my hand and held it near her cheek as she turned over the other side..with the other hand I covered her with the blanket and sat beside her..

In this widespread city all she has is me I thought as i watched her sleep..

I won't let her feel alone...

I’ll take care of her as long as it takes..

but... when the time comes, would I be able to let her go.