Deep tenderness

Her smile matters the most

I smile, I smile so brightly feeling her lips on mine. And then our eyes meet, she laughs and I laugh back. Again, she eats half of the candy and teases me to eat the other half. I laugh and eat while we continue to kiss. My heart was like a kite flying up in the sky, it was so unreal. She finally came out of the shell of controlling herself. I was really very happy, I wish there was a word to express this feeling of love. She hugs me and stares into my eyes, I really felt how pleasuring the moment was. My happy days felt like they were around me, even when she delicately talks. I wanted to see her more often now, see her from a different perspective. Love was really felt when she was around me, was this feeling even real? I questioned myself. I just her to let me, love, We were destined to happen upon. I close my eyes at the moment, to really feel this beautiful memory. My first kiss. It was all her, It was all about Aria. Even her delicate features, her glossy eyes, pink little lips, and that pretty hair, I am a fan of that. I would do anything to make her mine.

We both went back to the park, My teary eyes now had a smile. Everything felt so calm and peaceful, I wanted to talk and really have fun no matter what. What was his magic aria did to me? What was this feeling? I could never imagine Aria would be the one who would really approach me like that, and it really was heart-touching to see her want to love me as I do. She made me feel like love was around me, remember those movies where they kiss and a song plays in behind. Just like that, it felt like a song was playing, a romantic one singing out my heart. But, who knows this could be love? I was suddenly very happy, very happy that she made me feel like this. She has my heart, from this little moment, I will never throw her apart. I didnt utter any word and kept staring at her walk into the rides and laugh. I also notice Mac not even bothering about Me or aria, he was fully busy flirting with random women he saw. Awkward.

Later that day, both of us rode back home fully tired but also with lots and lots of memories to cherish once again. Mac left back to his home, and Aria stayed. She smiles when she gets into the room to dress. I sit and wait for so long until she was back with a pretty little skirt and a ponytail. She was cute. I smiled back and got in to dress. While I continued to dress, my thoughts didn't stop. I thought about how badly I wanted this kind of relationship with Aria to continue, and how bad I wanted this with Aria only. I went back to the hall with my nightdress on. I looked pretty cute too, but aria was much cuter. We both had our food, laughed together, and then I realize that Aria was really wanting this to continue too. "So what do we have here." said aria when she completed eating her food. I stammered, "um, uh... what?" She laughs back in cuteness and replies, "I asked what is going on between us?" I looked at her in the eyes and said, "I don't really know if you would love to continue this relationship, but you know. " While I tried to complete my sentence I already see aria kissing me. "I love to continue anything, anything about you is bliss," she said between the kiss. I enjoyed the kiss.

While we continued to kiss at the dinner table at my home, I hear my dad. "Oh, s**t" I exclaim because just I know my dad wouldn't be happy if I kiss a girl. I push aria away and see my dad walking towards the hallway. He was fully drunk and was going to get mad at my mom again. I try to help my dad, while I see my mom coming out of the bedroom with a worried face. "Go away dear, don't touch this toxic man, let him be. Please take aria along with you to your bedroom." Said, my poor little mother. I walk into my room with aria's hand in mine, my dad stares at us and goes, "k-kiss.." and faints. I see my mom's disgust in both of us, she signals us to just get into the bedroom. I comfortingly rub aria's hand and make her calm. "look, it's okay to kiss me. But-" Before I could complete again, I see aria tearing up.

She looks at me with the most devastating pout and starts crying along the time. "Ray, I'm sorry." and she walks away from the bedroom and window. That was it, I could not do it. Why must love hurt this way? My heart felt like it was bleeding, it was not even a minute until she said she was going to stay with me no matter what. But, why does god have to punish me in this way? Why do I have to go through this pain? I didn't even cry, I was broken from inside, I really was. I didn't want this to happen. This was literally the last thing I wanted to see in my life, to see Aria walk out of my life like and never ever come back. It's going to be so hard to get through this again, a lot of questions and worries in my mind but I still smile like a fool when I think of aria. What is love even?

 The next day came by, I didn't want to go to school, neither wanted to talk to my parents. But, going to school was better than being my drunken dad make my mom suffer. I walk into my classroom and see Aria ignoring, guess the game is just starting.