Deep tenderness

Lied for a date?

Aria slowly came closer and spoke softly with her weary voice, "Your hands got paralyzed." My mom sobbed harder. It was a shock to me, I was with too many questions, I didn't know what was happening to me. I tried to raise my hand so hard, But it didn't come up. What is happening? I was scared and trembled by the fact about how worse this summer was getting. It felt so weird to see my hands paralyzed, what was going on? With so many questions in my mind, My eyes teared. I was worried about myself for the first time ever. I clearly didn't know what was going on but it felt honestly sad. The doctor lowered my bed and sat beside me with the scans of my hand. He cleared his throat as he spoke, "Im so sorry that you have to see this at a very young age, It's not a serious issue but a very huge disadvantage for teenagers. You have your hands paralyzed, and we tried various tests to get to know what it is. But, unfortunately, we are also very confused about how are your hands paralyzed? You have been in for almost a month in the hospital, and you're rarely able to talk to people. But we are going to soon figure it out, And you're getting discharged tonight. Good luck buddy, we are here for you." And the doctor left. I was in peak devastation, It was so heartbreaking to hear this about myself.

Was I having a nightmare or was all this true? I got back to my home that night, I was still not talking to anybody because I was in pure shock. My high school was going to start in few days. What if everybody bullied me and made me feel so disgusting? What would I do? I closed my eyes and fell asleep in the wheelchair. I couldn't feel my hands, I was honestly so terrified by the fact that I couldn't use my hands anymore. As much as I panicked, I could clearly see my mom going through the same phrase, She was quiet for the first time in a while. In my whole lifetime, It was the first time My family was quiet and icy. Just like me, They were also horrified by the whole situation. And, the worst part was I couldn't even talk, I didn't want to talk. It was only me that made me go and think about the future. I could only sense that everything about me falling apart, until one day the high school opened again. Aria helped me so much with a lot of things since I couldn't use my hands. She helped me eat, read and even comb my hair. She was an angel, but suddenly I lost all my feelings for her, Even when she was kind enough to do everything I didn't even ask for. My mom was helping me pack my bags, while she asked, "Hey love, Do you mind if I ask something?" I shook my head and she continued, "Would you join a counseling session? It's gonna be great, you're gonna do great after you go there." I wasn't very sure about therapy, but I thought to give it a try, I nodded giving her permission.

The next day my high school was opened, My heart raced so fast. How would people react to me? And the next second I entered the hallway I saw Mac coming towards me. I sighed looking at him. "omg ray? How are you? My girlfriend Aria told me what happened to you, hope everything goes well." I didn't want his attention, of course. I hated him so much. I nodded and fake smiled as I moved. I could see the whole hallway staring at me like I was the odd one out and the weirdest human there that existed. It didn't feel great to see people staring at me like that. I walked towards my drawer, and then came the most beautiful girl, my girl? Aria. She helped me with the books and let me go back to my classroom. As I sat I realized Mac was right beside me, and all the girls of the class were staring at him. He was the hottest dude in our class, with all his abs and dancing abilities people fall for him. Not going to lie, Every staff and even every student have a huge fat crush on him. He looked pretty hot of course. But I generally disgusted men, I didn't like them at all. I felt too cool to like men. Aria then entered the class, She was the prettiest obviously and most precious too. The class started with all of us waiting for our history lecturer to enter the class. He got in with the same old wrinkled t-shirt and the same tie he has been wearing since I was a kid.

He wished us a good morning, sitting at the desk. As we wished back he noticed me, with my paralyzed hands. Sounded pretty weird to say that to myself, but alright let's move on. He brought me to the notice of the class while all of them were busy chattering about how their vacations went, mine was the worst summer. "Children, Can I have your attention? Our student, Ray mellion has got her hands paralyzed due to a huge meltdown this summer. Hope you are a little supportive and considerate to her. And I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart." He ended. It was quite embarrassing but also lowkey comforting that he wished for my wellness. I also wanted to get better as soon as possible and break some bones, But just like said we can't really do whatever we want to in life sometimes we need to adjust and accept. As I sat back on my seat, the class continued with a new chapter. I was reading the chapter on my own while Mac disturbed me, I was annoyed by his continuous whispers. "Hey, ray I wanna date you." He said giving me a heart attack. What??? Why would he want to date me? Isn't he already dating Aria and that's totally enough. Thats when my amazing mind gave me an idea of dating mac but later confessing my love for aria, this was how I could get closer to aria. "Sure." I fake blushed.