You are not my ALPHA

My mates motel room

Chapter 4

Sierra’s Point of View

I woke up with this weight on me. Warm tingly feelings came over me. But this weight on me was making me feel pain again. I started to cry remembering what happened. Then I feel the weight moving. I realise I’m not paralyzed from the punch to the spine but still to the same, I get scared. My wolf is calm and happy so I smell the air and just as I smell the air, he pulled me closer to his chest and rolled over so I was laying on top of him. I realised his scent and opened my eyes slowly. He kissed my forehead.

“Good Morning Damon.” Said Sierra sleepily.

You could hear the pain and fear in her voice, but the tiredness as well. Even though Sierra tried to hide it.

“It’s not morning. But Sierra listen.” Damon said sounding serious.

I sit up properly to look at Damon. I could see the look of regret but also he looked miserable. Dark bags were under his eyes. I could see he hadn’t slept. It felt like agony though, waiting for him to speak. It felt like minutes, but I knew it was more like 20 seconds. He looked into my eyes.

“Sierra I am so sorry.” Said Damon.

Why is he apologising? Why is he choked up? I wondered to myself.

“Why are you sorry?” I asked confused.

“I never should have left, I should of stayed. I should of protected you.” Damon cried.

“Don’t you dare!” I shouted at him.

Damon was taken back by my outburst, it was obvious. He was about to speak but I wouldn’t let him. Not until I was done with what I had to say.

“You do not get to blame yourself! It was my father that encouraged Michael. It was Michaels behaviour. It was me not being able to defend myself. I froze in fear Damon. I FROZE! The daughter of an Alpha, froze. I am suppose to be strong and I am suppose to be brave. If I was then I could have fought him off. So don’t you dare for a second, try to make it about you. Who cares if you left, what matters is you came back. Now just drop it and move on. But tell me one thing.” I said.

I know I shouted while crying through most of it. But I could even hear my confusion with the last part.

“What happened to Michael, and how did I get here?” I asked him confused.

"You’re okay now Sierra. But I couldn’t get there quick enough. If I could I would have stopped him. I didn't want you to hate me though so I didn't kill him. But I did hurt him badly. I'm here to protect you and never leave you alone again. Before you ask, I went looking for a pack that we could join. And I learned more than a few things while I was away. I brought you back here, but you were very injured. I did my best to wash you in a bath and I dressed you in my shirt. I just laid with you for a few days until you woke up. Sierra I really am sorry." Said Damon.

At first he was upset and to be honest at the end he was but when he mentioned the before I ask, he sounded genuinely interested in what he learned. I saw him look down towards my chest and saw the red rims of bite marks. Damon frowned again and held me tighter. I was about to tell him to not worry anymore and that I am safe. But he quickly spoke before me.

"Quickly we must buy you clothes. I have money saved up. Come on beautiful." Said Damon.

I hear him say it, but he isn’t looking me in the eyes again and it makes me wonder if he meant it at all. Will he ever kiss my lips or feel comfortable again? I wear his clothes to the shop, he quickly gets a random shirt to buy then meets me outside so I can change. So I can get rid of the one with Michael’s blood. He goes to the female part of the shop and he gets me nine different shirts of my choice, nine different style pants and skirts and he looks at me.

"You will need bras and undies I suppose." Said Damon.

Damon says this as his wolf takes over and pulls me close with his hand on my butt. My heart is racing and my breathing changes. His wolf is looking at me and leaning closer. He tries to resist but he kisses me on the lips, as he does the sparks shoot through my body as if I am on vibrate. He makes me shiver in delight. He kissed me on my neck and then I saw Damon come into his eyes again. With his beautiful brown hair and his tall body standing upright.

"I'm sorry Sierra. I am trying to control myself. And you need to recover." Damon says with so much pain in his eyes.

I grab his arm and place it on my chest, above my heart.

"I will recover. But I am all yours Damon. There is no need to apologise. Because I wanted you to. Never apologise, the mate bond is what pulls us close." I say while trying to not blush.

He leans down to my ear

"I'll be back. I need to distract myself or my wolf and I won't be able to control it any more. I love you. Pick out some underwear and bras. I'll be waiting near the register." Said Damon with red on his cheeks.

I kissed his neck and felt him shiver. I know he will one day get me back for that. And I can’t wait.

"Oh god you’re torturing me." Said Damon with a chuckle.

He walked away quickly. I saw some beautiful lacey underwear with matching bras and some beautiful lingerie. I grab a couple and a couple g strings that I hope will satisfy him. I hope he will want to mark me soon. I think to myself as I am walking towards him.