You are not my ALPHA

Does he mean it?

I stared at him eager to know more of what he was saying as I got less nervous and put my arms on the table and held his hand with both of mine.

"I want you to enjoy your first time with me and if your not ready for it after everything that has happened please let me know. I don’t want you to go through pain instead of pleasure. I want you happy and to my self. Your my mate and I'm your mate. I always will be. I want to be with you with all my life. I knew from the moment I first saw you transforming even though you were young. I knew I loved you and would protect you. I still live by that thought of protecting you." He stopped for a moment.

I knew he was talking about everything with Michael and father. And about the abortion. Which I have to admit I didn’t know werewolf babies were a little wolf. But I think back to what my mother and the doctor and Damon's mate said when they said "Your not normal."

It repeated in my head. I squeezed his hand for a second and he looked at me.

"Where is the pain? What's wrong?" He asked me with panic in his voice.

"Nothing I’m remembering something. Can I borrow your phone?" He hands the phone to me straight away with curiosity.

I put his phone on blocked so no caller ID and I entered my fathers number.

"I think I can spare us a bit of time. Just wait here while I walk to the ladies room to talk." I whispered.

Damon shook his head.

"Stay here so I can hold your hand and help support you if you get sad I can hold you." He looked like he was in pain.

I nodded and stayed and clicked dial. The phone rang through and went to voice mail. I left a message.

"Father it's Sierra. I will call again in a few minutes so you can get this message. Please pick up." I said holding back my tears.

I hung up. Then there was silence between us as I took a drink.

"What's your plan?" Damon asked me confused.

"I figured after this we run in wolf form. Carrying out luggage in a bag in our mouth. But I tell father what happened and how he forced me and you saved me. Then I tell him I heard the heart beat of life inside me and went for an abortion. I tell him that I’m getting that done soon. And I tell him I saw mother. Which will give him a bigger distraction. And I lie saying she wants us to follow her. It leads him away from both of us as mother said she was heading our direction." I say confidently.

He looks at me shocked.

"It amazes me that you could think of that after what just happened. I forgot how truly smart you are." He said almost sounding amazed in me.

I smiled and drank again. The people brought the food out and more drinks and he handed me my plate.

"How do you know I love chicken more than red meat? And that I loved Pepsi max?" I asked him confused.

"Because every time we met i could smell them on you. And I just knew you would love it." He said sounding so confident.

I smiled and laughed as I saw him lean down for his straw and it missed and poked his cheek. He pulled me closer.

"Don't laugh at me or I'd have to punish you" he said with his eyes keen.

I looked down and saw that me this close aroused him. I smiled and saw him blush. He let me go and I quickly decided to be a ninja and kiss his lips then sit down. He looked at me shocked.

"Your a cheeky one." He said blushing and chuckling.

I nodded as I ate a chip. I then picked up his phone. I dialled again and it instantly answered. "SIERRA! WHERE ARE YOU?" Shouted my father. "Hi father, don't raise your voice please." I responded my voice breaking.

"SIERRA!" He yelled again.

"I'm sorry. Where are you? Are you okay?" Said father as his voice started to break.

"I am okay now. But father. Listen to me. Without questioning me for a minute or interrupting me please." I said.

"Okay Sierra I'm listening." Said father in a angry tone.

"I went to the old house and Michael attacked me. He forced himself on me and he left bite marks which took longer to heal. He r***d me." I started explaining.

Then I could hear heavy like when father is about to hurt someone.

"My mate saved me from him. He attacked him and made him lose part of his arm but made sure he didn't kill him. He helped clean my blood and Michael’s semen from my body. But it was far from over. I struggled to process everything and then I could hear another heart beat and found out I was pregnant. I had an abortion because I don’t want to have my rapists baby. My mate and I agreed to not do anything because I’m not even 18 yet and after everything he knows I'm not ready. He and I hopped on the plane to get an abortion and I saw mother there she called me by name and I didn’t realise who she was. She said she knew she wasn't able to look after me when I turned at the age of 10. She said she knew it made me harder to look after. She said she was surprised I was alive but that she learned more about me. She said to meet her at the museum tomorrow for a first mother daughter time so I can learn who I am. She said I am not normal and that I am the rise or the fall of the packs. She said if I had a baby with someone other than my mate then it would be the fall of us. If I was to with my mate it would be the rise of the packs. And I’m not normal. So what does that mean father? That I am not normal? And if you want me back you need to accept my mate. He’s not a rogue he was living with humans. So father speak. If I don’t like it then you won't hear from me again until your eventually a grandpa." I said starting off sad but turning stern and serious.

"Sierra, your mother was right about you not being normal. But I don’t know about the mate offspring. Michael said you accepted him as a mate and a rogue attacked him and kidnapped you." Alpha Ryan said.

I scoffed in disbelief.

"I thought your mother was dead because I haven't seen her or heard from her since the night you turned." He started crying.

I looked at Damon and squeezed his hand to comfort and distract me.

"Sierra, what's your mates name?" He asked me.

I was suspicious.

"It doesn't matter what my mates name is. I accept my mate and my own pack should to. I love him and no matter what my own father should have the common decency to accept my mate as a member or even as a son of his. You hurt me every time I asked you to accept him. Every time I wanted to choose him as a mate you sent Michael to tease or hurt me and it backfired. It lead to me being r***d. So what does his name matter. Will you accept him or not?" I asked my father sounding cold.

I looked at Damon he whispered to me not knowing father could hear him.

"You need your strength beautiful. You only just started healing. You need to eat and gain your strength so you can continue to heal. I hate seeing you weak." He tried whispering quietly as he handed me a chip and I ate it.

"You swear you choose him?" My father asked me.

"Yes." I replied.

"You swear Michael hurt you?" He asked again.

"Yes he did. Out near our old house. If he hasn't been by it my clothes will still be there. The scent will be proof if it hasn’t rained." I responded getting upset.

"I will look into it. And I will ask them to vote on him joining after I have the facts. I will have them soon. When will you head home?" Father asked me.

"I will only head home if he is accepted and if Michael is punished for his crime of r**e. I have some things I want to do. And I will ask mother to come home. But father if you look for me you are breaking my trust. If you really want me to return and the pack wont allow him. Then let me move into our old place with him. Or another place along the creek like where he saved me. So instead of a violent memory every morning I have a good memory." The phone was silent.

"I'll think about it. But you need to come back." He said sounding serious.

"Not without my mate. I have to go I will call again another time." I said quickly hanging up.

"I think Alpha Ryan was lying." I said.

Damon kissed my forehead. And with that I put the phone down and my hand was shaking lightly so Damon grabbed both my hands.

"Look at me beautiful." Damon said to me. I looked up to him and he smiled. "You still look beautiful but you look much better without the tears." He said wiping the tears with his thumbs and then leaning in to kiss my lips. He put his arms around me and says in my ear.

"A princess should never cry." Then I kissed him again. He looked at the table.

"We should probably eat before we let it get any colder." I laughed and nodded. After I ate the chips and he ate his. I started eating my schnitzel and he ate his steak. I relished at the taste. And even though I love chicken I was only allowed it once a month at the pack house. And that was if I was lucky. Because the pack preferred red meat. I use to sneak away to buy a hot chicken wing box from kfc to taste chicken. But it was such a good taste. It was like my wolf was not interested in red meat. Which meant if I went rogue I wouldn't survive unless near a farm. For the loose chickens. Or even maybe fish. It came to salad and all I did was eat the cheese and the tomato. Meanwhile I was thinking of my chances of surviving as a rogue. And I didn’t realize Damon left to order more drinks as I was deep in thought. He approached and sat back down.