Life After Heart Break

Business

Sevyn didn't know what he was doing to me. Each day, he would get me hot and bothered but refuse me s*x. It wasn't doing any good pleasing myself and it made me frustrated. It wasn't working. I needed him to hold me while he was inside of me. I don't know, maybe it's because I had gone so long without s*x with someone who loved me. Now I had that person who loved me and only me, as I loved him, but the problem was that he was refusing to give me what I wanted most from him.

At this moment, I was ready to go over to his house and jump him, but all I could do was think about him while pretending that the dildo I had sliding in and out of my p***y was him. "f**k harder." I moan thinking of all the dirty things that Sevyn could say to me while we make love. I loved dirty talk, or him telling me how much he loved me. Either one was good. He could call me his slut and w***e all he wanted, as long as he told me that he loved me between it.

It was all I could think about while trying to bring myself to my climax when my bedroom door opened, and I saw his face. It was everything I needed as I turned to him, making him watch as I came moaning his name. It was funny how he stood there without moving or saying a word, but he watched me stick the toy down my throat, sucking it clean with a pop from my mouth.

"You should learn to knock, but I hope you liked what you saw."

"And you call me the tease. You know I was coming over, which means you planned this Asia, and it still won't get you what you want. I have gone longer than a year without s*x before Baby, and it was by choice. I know you want me to show you that I love you. I can do that in other ways than s*x, Shorty. Remember that for me... although that was sexy as f**k. You have to do that for me once we are married but let me help."

"You could've helped then." I smiled and walked my naked self over to him to get him a kiss. I knew he couldn't help himself when he pulled me to him, grabbing my ass. I was hoping that he would do a little more, than rub his finger against my butthole before smacking my ass hard.

"You're such a bad girl and need to learn that I'm the one who's in charge here. You'll learn that soon and will learn to submit to me."

"Please tell me that you're not one of those dom and sub types of person."

"No, but I do like to be in charge in the bedroom." I had no problem with that, but we weren't there, which meant I didn't care until the day he actually gave in to me. Except that he was holding on to his words, and I didn't see a way around it, which means I had to hold on until he was ready. It made me sigh, kissing him once more before leaving to shower. Once done and dressed, I found Sevyn in the living room with Princess in his lap while Bandit played with one of his toys.

"Have you thought about sending him to a rescue sanctuary? Somewhere, he can be around his own kind. I'm not saying that he's not happy with us, but I don't want anything to happen to him once we move in together. My dogs are a little vicious, and I'm afraid that they may kill him."

"I've had him since he was a baby. I don't know if I can give him away like that. He's my baby, so we will come to that once I move in with you. Give me some time to find the right place for him to go..."

"Or you can let me have him. I like the little rascal, and I don't have a beast as a dog. That way, you can see him whenever you like." Quinton spoke from the corner of the room. I didn't see him there, and I wondered if he was here when Sevyn walked into my bedroom. If so, that meant he heard me moaning for him.

"I'll think about it, but why are you both here. I know Sevyn was coming over, but I didn't know you were coming too."

"Oh, I just got here, but the three of us are going on a mission. Today, we are going to see how well you handle business. I suggested this for a reason. We are visiting someone who owes us money and has become behind on their payments. It's a courtesy visit, but we want you to take the lead."

Me? He wanted me to take the lead on something I had no clue about. Now, he suggested that I do the main thing that had my children killed. What in the f**k was he thinking? I couldn't do something like that even if it were nothing but a warning. Warnings turned into kills, and the next thing I knew, he was going to want me to kill the people.

"I can't do that..."

"You can and you will. You're going to be my Donna, so you'll have to learn the ropes. We're starting you off easy. Today, we are visiting a person who is behind on his loan, and you will be the one taking the lead. I don't want to hear anything about work because Jennifer has it handled. Now let's go."

Something about Sevyn changed in that moment. He wasn't the nice, loving man that I met at the house over a year ago. Today, he was demanding, and for some reason, I couldn't say no. So, I followed them out to the car. The whole time I was thinking about not wanting to do this, but I knew I had to. Truly, it made me feel like I was doing a gang initiation besides becoming someone's wife. I was so scared, and I was shaking the whole way there, but once the car stopped, I slowly turned to Sevyn as he placed a hand on my thigh.

"We are not here to kill anyone. It is a warning that you have to handle... Scare him, threaten to harm his family, or to burn down his shop. It sounds evil, and I know you don't want to burn down anything because of what happened to your babies, but you had to come up with something. Quinton will join you."

"Why not you?" He didn't answer, but he pointed to the door as Quinton got out, holding out his hand for me. That was rude of him, but then I thought about how he was letting me know that he couldn't hold my hand through everything, but he could have said that. Anyway, Quint and I walked in, and the shop owner had his back turned. I didn't know what to do, so I walked up to the counter and slammed my hands down on the smooth surface. Quickly, the man turned to me with a confused look, opening his mouth, but I spoke first.

"You're overdue for your payment, and I'm here to collect, or there will be consequences. Pay now..."

"First, who the f**k are you. And I owe you nothing, so you better turn around and walk right back out that door." I sighed, thinking about what to say next. I turned back for help from Quinton, but he wasn't there; however, I knew he was somewhere in the store listening.

"Actually, when you owe money to The Black Doves, you owe money to me. You don't know yet, but I'm the fiancée of Sevyn Martin, and I came here to collect what you owe now, or I can give you 7 days to get it up. If not, you see this pretty little gun? You will be looking down the barrel of it before my bullet pierces through your f*****g head b***h. So do you have what you owe?"

"I... I didn't know he was getting married. I was holding on to the money. No one has come around to collect in months; wait right there. I'll be back in a second to give you what I owe and this month's payment." Something didn't feel right. So, it told me to keep an eye on the door I had gone through. Plus, he was taking too long, which caused me to pull my gun from my purse just as he was walking back out.

"I want to see your hands."

"What are you now, the damn police?" That was when I spotted the shotgun on his side. I didn't think as I pointed my gun and shot twice, hitting him once in the chest, and the other shot went through his head. After I dropped the gun, I took a few deep breaths. I killed a man... I killed a man.

"Asia breathe, it was you or him. He wanted to play games, and he got a stupid prize. Remember that you did what you had to."

"I know... I know, but I never thought I would have to kill anyone, well, not this early into becoming Donna. I'm not even one yet." Quinton smiled, texting someone, and I was sure it was his brother, but after he walked us back out to the awaiting car, where Sevyn was sitting, playing a game.

"How did at go? Did you get your message through to him?"

"I... I killed him." Slowly, he looked up at me, then he turned to his brother as if he was about to say what the f**k or something. He had to understand the reason behind it because he didn't go in to kill.

"He was about to pull a gun on her, and she reacted. She didn't even have to think about it, bro. She saw danger and reacted; most wouldn't have... I mean, I had a clear view, but she took care of herself. Be proud of her."

"I'm not upset... but you were supposed to be with her at all times, which meant standing by her side."

"If I did that, she wouldn't have learned what she needed to know. She went in there and gave her demands, but he didn’t take her seriously. As I told her, when people do stupid s**t, they get dumb results." Quinton said as Sevyn glared at him as if he wanted to kill him. All while I was fighting my inner demons about how I murdered a man. Yeah, he had a gun, but I never thought I had that in me until I saw his weapon. I reacted, and that was the end of the story.

"Asia... Asia!"

"Uh? What?"

"It's okay, Shorty. You did everything as it should have been done. Your first kill is always the hardest, but you'll get over it with time. If I had known he would pull that s**t, I would have never sent you in there."

"For f**k sake, stop damn babying the woman, Sev. You're marrying her, and she's to become your wife. Therefore, she has to match your energy. I understand that you weren't ready for this phase so early, but she passed with flying colors."

Quinton was only trying to explain the situation to him, and I thought he was getting through. That was until Sevyn leaned forward, punching his brother twice before sitting back like he didn't do s**t. Quinton wanted to hit him back, but instead, he got some tissue, looking the other way, while Sevyn turned to me. I've never seen him pissed off like this, and I wonder what punishment I was about to get. I didn't do anything wrong, but he was looking at me as I did.