Ziya was beginning to realize something terrifying.
Her body was no longer just hers.
Each morning was a new battle - with nausea that came in waves, with dizziness that made her hands tremble as she brushed her teeth, and with cravings that made no sense. She could feel the tug of exhaustion in her bones, and the growing ache in her chest that had nothing to do with her changing body.
It was loneliness.
It was guilt.
It was fear that she'd fallen into a life that didn't belong to her.
Despite Madam Luo's kindness, despite the butler's silent care, despite Xiao Nai's insistence that she rest and eat, Ziya felt like a placeholder. Like she was wearing someone else's crown, sleeping in someone else's bed, carrying a child that came from a night neither of them had meant to happen.
Some nights, she sat at the edge of the bed, hand protectively over her belly, whispering things like:
"It's okay. I don't know what I'm doing either."
"I'll protect you, even if I have to do it alone."
And the baby never answered, but the quiet calmed her more than anything else.
The storm enters with perfume and ted lipstick. It happened two weeks after she moved in.
Ziya was in the garden, struggling not to throw up after breakfast, when a sleek black car pulled up the circular driveway like it belonged there.
The door swung open.
And out stepped a woman in heels too high for the gravel path.
Her red lips curled upward. Her dark curls were pulled into a sleek twist, and she wore a blazer like she owned the world.
Ziya straightened slowly.
The woman blinked at her.
And smiled.
"You must be the new one."
Ziya didn't respond.
"I'm Lin Yue. Nai and I went to high school together. We were..." She tilted her head thoughtfully, eyes glittering. "Close."
Ziya kept her voice even. "Nice to meet you."
"I wasn't informed there was someone new living here. Last I heard, Nai was still grieving Jiali. For years. I was the only one he ever let in."
Ziya smiled politely. "People move on. Eventually."
Lin Yue's smile sharpened.
"Oh, darling. They do. But some people?" She leaned in, her perfume suffocating. "Some people are just rebound comfort. Easily replaced."
That night, Xiao Nai came home to find Ziya curled up on the window seat in the study, arms around her knees.
He paused at the door. "You're not lying down?"
She didn't look at him. "Your friend came today."
"Friend?"
"Lin Yue. Beautiful. Confident. The kind of woman who probably knew your favorite coffee order and the way you liked your steak done."
He frowned. "She shouldn't have come here."
"She said you were close."
"I was a mess after Jiali died. She helped distract me, that's all."
Ziya finally looked at him. "Does she know I'm pregnant?"
"She will soon." His eyes locked with hers. "Why? Are you afraid she'll tell people?"
"No," Ziya whispered. "I'm afraid I'll start to believe her."
"Believe what?"
"That I'm just... temporary. A mistake. That the only reason you're being kind to me is because of this-" she placed a hand gently over her stomach, voice shaking, "-and that once this child is born, I'll be no different than a stranger who once lived in your house."
He took a slow step forward. "Ziya-"
"Don't." Her voice cracked. "Don't make promises out of guilt. You've loved before. I haven't. I don't know how to stand in the shadow of someone you still visit in your dreams."
A beat of silence.
Then, softly:
"I haven't dreamed of Jiali in months."
Ziya looked up, startled.
He walked over and knelt before her.
"Not since the morning I woke up, trying to remember what happened that night-and saw your blood on the sheets. That morning, I realized I didn't feel haunted. I felt terrified. Of what I might've done to you. Of how I failed you."
His voice dropped.
"And lately... when I see you curled up with a book, or smiling after grandma makes that terrible herbal soup, I realize something else."
Ziya's breath hitched. "What?"
"That I'm still grieving, yes. But maybe... just maybe, you're not standing in someone's shadow. Maybe you're lighting a path I didn't know I needed."
Her tears spilled then.
She didn't say she believed him.
But she didn't push him away either.
***
There was peace in silence.
In the morning light, Ziya sat by the window with a blanket over her shoulders and a warm cup of red date tea in her hands. Her nausea was lighter these days, and her body was finally adjusting to the little life growing inside her.
She found solace in Madam Luo’s presence — the older woman fussed over her in a way Ziya never expected. Gently wrapping a scarf around her neck when she went out into the garden. Offering ancient remedies for better sleep. Sometimes just sitting beside her and humming lullabies to the baby she already called her cucu cicit — great-grandchild.
There were still nights Ziya cried in the dark, heart aching with confusion. But there were also mornings like this. Soft. Slow. Real.
Until it wasn’t.
Lin Yue returned with an air of triumph — as if her previous visit had only been the first volley in a game she fully intended to win.
This time, she brought someone with her.
Lady Wen. Xiao Nai’s paternal aunt. A tall, sharply dressed woman with judgment in her eyes and disdain in her voice that she met the other day.
They arrived uninvited for tea.
Madam Luo, ever graceful, welcomed them — but Ziya could feel the storm brewing in the way the old woman’s cane tapped a little harder on the floor than usual.
Ziya, polite as always, poured tea and offered biscuits she had helped prepare.
But Lady Wen didn’t even look at the plate.
“So,” she said, tilting her chin. “You're still here.”
Ziya froze.
Lady Wen narrowed her eyes. “Very adamant. Very interesting.” she smirked.
Madam Luo’s teacup paused mid-air.
Lin Yue sipped daintily, her smile thin. “She was working under Nai, right? A subordinate. One night… one mistake… and suddenly she’s carrying an heir.”
Ziya’s hands trembled.
Lady Wen leaned forward. “Let me ask you plainly, Miss Lee. Is it the child you want… or the fortune?”
Before Ziya could speak, the teacup in Madam Luo’s hand slammed against the saucer.
“How dare you.” Her voice was cold. Regal. “You barge into my house, insult my guest — my granddaughter-in-law-to-be — and have the gall to bring this scheming woman with you?”
Lady Wen looked shocked. “Mother—”
“I told you before, I raised Nai as my own. I know his pain better than anyone. If this girl was just after money, she would’ve sold the story to the tabloids. But she didn’t. She came here quietly. Carried his child with dignity. And she stayed despite your poisonous tongues.”
Lin Yue stood. “I was only trying to—”
“Leave,” Madam Luo snapped. “Before I call security.”
Later that evening, Ziya sat in Xiao Nai’s home office, eyes hollow. She hadn’t said a word since the guests left.
Xiao Nai entered quietly and closed the door behind him.
“I’m sorry,” he said softly. “I didn’t know she would bring that woman.”
Ziya shook her head. “It’s fine.”
“No, it’s not.” He walked to his desk and pulled open a drawer.
Ziya blinked. “What are you doing?”
He turned and placed a crisp envelope in front of her.
Her resignation letter.
Already printed. Signed.
“You’re no longer working for me,” he said, jaw tight.
Ziya stared at it. “You’re firing me?”
“No. I’m protecting you.”
She stood. “I don’t want to be protected, I want to work. I don’t want to sit in this house like a caged bird while everyone thinks I’m here to leech off you!”
“I don’t care what they think.”
“Well, I do!” Her voice rose. “Because I’ve worked hard for everything I’ve had. This job was the only thing that made me feel seen before you…”
She stopped herself, but it was too late.
Xiao Nai looked at her, quiet for a long beat.
Finally, he reached for the letter — and tore it in half.
“You want to keep working?” he said. “Fine. But not from that cubicle.”
Ziya frowned. “Then where?”
He nodded toward his desk. “From here. In my office. Under my nose.”
“I can’t—”
“You will.”
She opened her mouth to argue.
Then stopped.
Because in his eyes, she saw something else.
Not dominance.
But fear.
Fear that if he let her go too far, he might lose her — and this fragile connection — before it had even begun.