IIICAROL SAYS I TALK TOO much when I’m nervous.
But she’s right in so many, many things. I believe her in this one. But I can’t feel myself talking too much. Usually when the other person simply wants to do something else, we quit talking.
And so I write when I don’t have anyone to talk to. Or when what they call “conversation” doesn’t go anywhere at all but around in inane circles about sports or weather or how-screwed-up-something-is-and-we-can’t-possibly-do-anything-about-it-except-complain.
So mostly, I quit trying to deal with human conversations. And find something I can do to help them, like clear the table and then go and turn on the TV to drown out their noise.
Nobody watches TV, they just endure it. Helps pass the time.
Like humans don’t enjoy time.
Probably because they do
