Checkmate

Chapter 20

Keira-Lee

I needed some time to sort through things in my mind and what my next move should be regarding my husband would be, I stood by the contract I signed and the oaths I took in my mind. I was committed and I have never been one to play the victim, but right now, I felt like a puppet played by the big boys. Only I knew how this world worked and how unfair it could be in all aspects, so I set out towards my husband’s company. I wanted to let him know I would be gone for a couple of days, I was not the best liar but I wanted to drive to my grandparents. Clear my head and ask their advice. They could for sure shine some light on my current situation and nothing can heal a broken heart like grandma’s homemade ice cream and grandpa’s hugs and cuddles. I drove right in front of the building but there was for sure a lot of action going on in front of those double doors, cameras flashing and paparazzi filled the space, I got out of the car and saw Kade’s best friends. Our eyes connected and they jumped into action making way for me towards the door. Everybody pushed and shoved but they took their stance and helped me. I nearly was nearly knocked over in all the hustle and chaos, I had no idea how celebrities did this and how they dealt with all of this, it must be hard on them, no privacy. Not to mention if my husband were a normal person, nobody would have even took the time on a man cheating on his wife. However, here we are. They pushed and shoved until they got me inside; it felt like I was holding my breath all the time and I could finally breathe. I looked up at them and smiled, finally. “Hey guys, wow crazy out there.” Their smiles were restrained as if they had no idea how to handle all of this, not to mention me right this second. However, I waited expectedly, they were all nice people and I adored each single one of them. “Yeah, crazy. Are you here to see Kade?” I smiled and nodded “yes, I want to see him. My grandma is sick, so I want to go check in on her and make sure everything is okay. So I was heading towards hubby to tell him I am leaving for a couple of days, but by the looks of it, it seems he might need me here more.” They all jumped in nearly shouting “NO! I think you should go to your grandma.” “Yeah, I mean she’s sick she might need you” each one of them trying to cover up what was going on right now. Inside I wanted to laugh but on the outside, I was playing poker like nobody’s business. I acted all confused as if I had no idea what was going on, “right well can I go up, to the kings thrown or is he coming down to see his wife?” They all looked relieved as if they fooled me, and then showed me to the elevator. We made small talk all the way towards my husband’s office, talking about the weather and the long drive to my grandparents, but then we met with those doors. I had to act cool, no s*x I kept telling myself but the moment those doors opened, and I saw my husband I just wanted to hold him. This is the most conflicting and confusing feeling ever. I should hate him for what he did yet, all I felt right now was hugging him. He looked like s**t, like he have not slept in years. Worry and frown lines marred his face and dark circles edged underneath his eyes. His hair was in a mess, as he has been pulling at the strands. He looked up when someone cleared his or her throats and the moment he saw me he jumped up from across his desk, a small sad smile appeared and inside I was really feeling sympathy for him. I walked over and pulled him towards me, holding him wishing I could take all of his pain and worries away. You see conflicting he brought this upon himself, he cheated on me he slept with someone else and here I am feeling sorry for him. He is supposed to feel sorry for me not the other way around, holy s**t I need to get away from this man and get some perspective. However, his arms enveloped me making me feel safe, calming this storm of sadness inside my chest. He placed his face in the crook of my neck and could feel him breathing me in, I broke contact having to put as much distance between us as humanly possible keeping in mind not to look like I was running from him. “What’s wrong? Having another bad day? Jeez, it is crazy down there. Is it a business deal gone wrong?” I tried playing it cool acting all confused and he fell for it, he became uncomfortable moving from one heel onto the other “something like that, but you’re here so my day already had some sunshine.” I gave him a big bright smile, “well then I should stay” The guys once again jumped up and said “No you can’t leave you’re grandma, she’s sick you should go.” However, Kade eyes snapped towards me “grandma is sick? Is she okay, you should go? I can come with you?” The guys once again intercepted stating that he had to stay to clear everything up, like I had no clue what they were talking about coming up with stories and make belief but Kade wanted to go, stating family first. But honestly I had no idea what was worse, the fact that they were making up ridiculous stories trying to play me like a fool or for the reason that I knew they were lying in my face. But I ignored it and told Kade that grandma had the flu and grandpa would need my help getting her better while her worked the ranch. This seemed to ease his conscious, “okay, well then if something else happens you would call? I will make the drive no matter what time.” I gave him a smile and nodded while he pulled me back into his embrace; I leaned up on tiptoes and gave him a small kiss. It turned into passion as always, as I opened up my mouth for more access. We kept it PG13 since we were between people. I looked into his eyes wondering how I could not hate him for what he has done, every single time I thought I could hate him he had to come in and just rip everything from underneath me and make me fall all over again, exactly the reason I needed some distance between us to clear my head and heart. To get over all of these weird feelings, they were conflicting and I had no idea how to handle all of it. I said my goodbyes and barely caught my breath until I was safely inside my car driving away from all the chaos. Now only if I could get all the chaos sorted inside me then I would already feel a lot better