Checkmate

Chapter 17

Keira-Lee

Heading home to pack my bags, I came to a realization if my mom knew about my father’s affair how much sadness and pain must she be going though right now. So instead I turned my focus onto my mother’s pain instead and gave her a call she answered on the second ring “good morning baby girl.” I could feel the tears well up knowing everything she’s been through and still she made time for me, playing pretend. “Hey, mommy. Do you have time for a late breakfast?” She agreed of course she would and we agreed to one near the hospital, she showed up in her blue scrubs and doctors coat and no matter how time flew by I always admired her strength and beauty. We greeted one another and I pulled her in close to me, she has always been my true inspiration. I sniffed close to her neck and she pulled away long enough to see my eyes. “Baby why are you crying?” We sat down and placed our orders, I felt like having a grilled cheese and mayo sandwich which to my mom was the weirdest order and truth be told, to me to. I looked into those gorgeous eyes and started crying, it felt like water works and I told my mommy every single thing. How could all of this turn out to be so darn horrible. She had her own tears in her eyes, of my father’s infidelity and when I finished she took my hand. “Baby, I am not innocent. I lost track of all lot of things over the years. I am not the same care free girl your dad fell in love with I am not the same person I was were. And along the way me and your dad, we started to lose ourselves. It’s not easy for us, being in the spotlight, multi-tasking full time careers, trying to be the best parents we could be and trying to work on our marriage. A marriage is hard work sweetheart, loads of commitment and we have been put to the test more times even mommy can count and even though we made it work throughout the years. We lost ourselves.” I wiped my tears and looked at her, f**k knows how much I have adored my parents and loved them whole heartedly. Without any conditions. But this was breaking my heart,” will you give dad another chance? I mean would you try to fix something that is broken?” My mom stayed quiet for a little while and then she looked at me “a relationship is a two-way street baby girl, if your daddy would meet me half way then yes, I think I would be able to forgive him and move past this with a lot of therapy of course. But I cannot attempt to fix this and heal us alone, with this would have to come that I have to be able to trust him. And he would have to start earning my trust.” I sat there thinking, wondering if me and Kade’s relationship would work if I really tried from the start. But I have no regrets when I met him he was full of s**t not to mention arrogant as hell. But I am no pawn I have never been, I am the queen and if I fall so will my king. So for all tends and purposes, I am not done yet. I am switching this whole game around and I will prove to the men in my life who the queen bee is and how to respect me. After lunch and a deep discussion with my mommy I decided to head back home, I was going to pretend like I didn’t know about anything and that I was still head over heels in love with my husband which in all fairness I was. No matter how deeply betrayed I felt and how much my heart ached, my entire soul felt ripped apart like the breath were stolen out of my lungs and left me gasping for air. Only thing is I refused to cry, I refused to spend one single f*****g tear, because my tears are valuable and would only be spent on people who love me as much as I love them.