Ashley is so mad , she is not going to speek with me again after what happened , Adan and i can't be friends anymore because he got punished and his eye has been damaged . I don't know why all that came to me suddenly , everything happened so fast like in a movie , i can't fell happy about me winning this competition anymore , i am desperate that i am not longer joyful and excited sush before . I have mush bigger problem , as my relationship with Josef , i don't know why eveything is not as normal as it used to be . We were getting along , we understood eatch other and we always stick together but now we are separated . Now , I don't recognize him , he acts weirdly lately , he became so aggressive and untouchable , i couldn't adjust with his new personality and i don't want a

