The break up
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My heart is racing , my chest felt so tight , my hands are swatting , i am watching someone coming from far away , approaching to the hall .
I am not surprised by his arrival , he said that he will be here after two days and that is exactly what happened , the problem is that i am not ready to face the realty !
I don't know how to act or react to what he is going to say !
I am scared and patrified ! I don't fell alright !
I can hear his foot steps arriving , i can see his cute face from distance !
He is coming to me , his phone was on his hand .
Josef looked at me for a little beat long , i couldn't know if he is mad or fine ! He was apparently tired !
His look changed , his checks became red , he has angry eyes and his eyebrows were lowered .
Instantly he putted the phone in front of me so i can see clearly , it is the photo , he saw it .
I was surprised and shocked , i couldn't speek , i thought that i don't have the right to say a word !
I waited for his reaction , what is he going to say ? !
I hoped so mush that he will give me some time to explain and speek for myself but it is the realty ! It is not always our lack day ! and not everything goes as we plan !
He was starring at me , he couldn't beleive what i did !
He asked me to verify :
- Rose can you tell what is this ? Is this real ( i was going to put my hand on his shoulders to calm him down but he stopped me )
- No Don't Touch Me ...Ok !? ( he said that words aggressively )
I was tearing up , i finally spook and told him with hesitation and fear ! :
- yes ....it... is ( with a small voice )
He answered directly without listening to me or undrestanding what i have been through :
- Wow Rose ....you are such an actress ! All the time you were playing with me !
I thought i have known you ....this Nice and Beautiful girl !
Now i can see your real face ! ! I don't want to see you again !
WE are OVER !
He left me there , standing like a pathetic girl , he was so mad that i couldn't finish my conversation with him !
I get it ! He has the right to act like that , anyone in his place would do it!
I broke his heart ! His beautiful and kind heart !
He was so nice to me , he treated me well , he was always on my side .
I can't imagine that this happened , i literly took off his nice part , i turned him to a monster !
A savage boy that no one can talk or approach to him !!
I stayed for 6 minutes in the same space , i couldn't move , still sad ! and devastated !
People who were around me were looking at me strangely , with indignity !
I fell so guilty when i see them on thar position .
After a while , i saw Amy , i took my note book from my bag and i wrote fast with irritation , some evil words that will make her undrestands how painful i am because of her fault .
I putted it on her locker , she was opening it and surprised to see me like that .
I went straight to an isolated room that no one can find me there .
She laughed at my note , i can fell it !
She is ruthless , that is why she will not fell any regret or guilt !
The note was writing with extreme anger :
^^ GO TO HEEl AMY !^^
She desreves it , she is the reason of all this mess !
I stayed in the room , it was perfectly locked .
I was craying all the time , i have never stopped craying !
I stayed for hours ! I have even skipped one class !
I can't attend it , i can't show my face !
I don't want to see Josef !
I don't want to see anyone !
Sara heard about what happened later , she searched for me in every room and every corner , she couldn't find me .
She freaked out ! , this is the first time that she felt that worried and started having bad thoughts !
She became so tired from looking around so she stooped for a minute , kept thinking for so long !
Where could a pearson go to find himself alone and in his own space .
Somewhere locked and small !
Sara went to the bathroom , hopped that she could find me there .
She heard my voice , craying , she knocked at the door for multiple times !
I didn't like her sudden arrival , it is not the right moment ! I don't want her to enter but i will not make her wait for so long , worried for me so i opened slowly .
She took my hand and drove me to the sink to wash my face .
My face became wet , i used a lot of water , i have even threw some of it on my hair .
I returned to my normal self and hold my emotions .
We took a walk to get some rest from this aweful event .
I was walking all the way , drinking a holl bottle of water to refresh myself and to breath like usual .
My eyes seamed lazy from tears , how can i turn on to that situation!
I felt so weak , i was tired and broken to many peases !
No one can cheer me up or make me forget , not even Sara .
This is more than a problem , it is a disaster !
I like Josef so mush , and it is not my desire to hurt his fellings , i would never harm him !
Sara couldn't accept seeing me gloomy and sorrowful like that but she has nothing to do except giving me the large space to think and forget by myself !
She went to her room and left me outside in the garden , there was a big swing , i always seat there when i fell bored, or mad or sad .
I kept looking in the vacuum, enjoying my loneliness !
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