I still resist
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He is obliged to go , to leave because something happened , something bad that almost changed his life , that
destroyed him emotionally .
I know him well he is sensitive and carrying , he cares a lot about his familly
He used to tell me when he was young , that he spends all the summer with his grandfather , it is not because his familly wanted him to go it is because he enjoy staying with him . He loves him so mush , he is the pearson that raise him and learned him how to be a men .
He is precious for him and he became desperate when he found out about his death.
At 8 am , i was standing behind a door , i was with Sara saying goodbye to Josef , he will be leavibg and staying for few days .
I know that i am going to miss him but it is the right thing to do !
I approached slowly to him then took his hands and said with affiction and comprehension :
- The one thing that i want to tell you is to take care of yourself ! And we are all here for you !!
- Thanks darling ( saying it with a weak voice )
Moreover Sara added to encourage him too :
- Yes Rose is right , we are here for you if you need anything !!
That made him happy and pushed him to be strong and to handel his emotions , he responded :
- Thanks guys for your support you are the best !!
It is the time for him to get to the car and began his trip far away from here , it is ok he won't be gone for so long !
Before he left , i kissed him and let him go foreword accompanied with his familly .
It is hard for me to accept the fact that a nice men ends to be dead and leave behind him people that loves him that mush .
It must be hard for Josef's dad because he lost his father that means a good part to his familly .
At the end i don't have to be so dramatic but in the contrary i have to be powerful to help Josef get through this.
I was on class , studying even i have felt sad and not in a better situation to concentrate .
That is so annoying being on class without really being on class .
What i mean is that you are present you exist on that place but your mind is nowhere , i think about everything except the course .
While i was supposed to be there to attend to what the teatcher says , i was thinking about problems that is not related to the present or to the situation .
The English teatcher was showing as essential parts of the course and trying to do his best to explain , when he saw me staying on the chair , my eyes are wild open , starring at the window and i wasn't admiring the view , the trees behind and the blue sky , i was lost on my mind .
He knew that i wasn't paying attention .
He called me by my name and ordered me to look at the board and concentrate because he won't repeat the lesson over and over again :
"Hey there ! what are you doing ?
What are you looking at ? Stay focused please !!"
I understood from his words , that he is telling me to be awake .
At the end of the sation , everyone left the class but for me i had to stay for minutes so that the professor can talk to me , he thought that i was dealing with a huge problem therfore he asked me :
- Are you sure that you are fine ? Do you have something to tell me ? Do you have some troubles ?! I can help ! ( confused )
- No nothing don't worry , i didn't slept well last night so i fell tired , it is my fault i am sorry !
- No that is fine ....make sure to get some good sleep ! ( smilling to me )
I didn't want someone to investigate me but it was nice from him to worry about me .
I saw someone walking near me , it was a friend from class named Angelia , she is the popular on that school .
She is all the time dressed up like a young beautiful lady , she goes to a lot of parties and events . Her familly is rish and they own a big house in New York .
I am not spaying at her of course , it is simply everybody know her well .
She shares a lot of photos and talks to mush about herself .
I didn't expect her to come to me , she came to invit me saying :
- Hey you ? Your Rose right ?! Wherever i invit you to my own party !
i will be glad to see you there ! bye
She said that with remarkable speed and left me as if she doesn't have so mush time on that moment .
What a crazy women !
I have already decided to not go , i am really not in the mood for parties !
For Sara she was excited more than me and loved the idea of joining this people , she reclaimed :
- Are you naught ?!! We have to go to this party ,that is Angelia !!
- And what ? What is diffrent about her ! She is a human like us !
- No it is not like that , i mean her parties are so cool and fancy ! You get it right ?
- Actually no , and i am not going , i need some rest !
- Listen i understand what you are felling ! Because of what is going on lately but maybe it is good opportunity to finally make you good-humoured
- i don't know about that Sara ! ( hesitated )
- Girl this is our first party since we got to hight school ! Don't be boring !
- I am not like that ........ ( after a lot of consideration) ok i will come but i won't stay for so long ! You hear me !
- That is fine we will see that !
It is so weired how Sara gets to change completely my opinion and the way i think .
I sometimes beleive that she is using some magic to gets to what she wants and change my mind .
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