It’s been almost two years since that horrible birthday. The night where my blissful dream of a mate obliviated my soul.
And true to my words, I’ve never been back since.
Jemery tried calling and texting, but I’ve never had the courage to answer. Apart from that one text telling him to, quote, leave me the f**k alone.
I knew from his response that I broke his heart. It broke mine at the same time. But I’m too prideful and ashamed to say it out loud.
I lost my brother to my stupid pride.
In one of his texts, he said Wesley told him he saw me the night before I left. He sent me questions after questions, asking, pleading for me to tell him what happened and why I wouldn’t talk to him anymore. Why I was being so distant.
But, even now, I still can’t tell him.
Even Anthony tried coming over in Jemrey’s place. But I turned him away. He knocked on the door so many times, I thought he would break off its hinges.
Truth be told, I feel deeply ashamed of what happened to me. I don’t ever want to talk about it. To anyone.
No one will ever find out.
Since then, I’ve completely reinvented myself and I don’t take bullshit from anyone. Especially coming from a wolf! And no sluts are ever going to come in the way of what I want and desire!
I’m known for my hard ass and bad attitude. But I like it that way.
Although someday, most days, I don’t feel as strong inside as I portray from the outside.
That horrible night still haunts me in my sleep. If I don’t take some sleeping medication, I stay awake all night. And even then, I wake up in cold sweat most mornings.
Replaying all those horrible moments, his egotistical laughter resounds in my ears, his pounding into that bitch... makes me want to throw up every time.
The only thing keeping me going is the thought of Lucas becoming our mate.
He’s still as kind as he was when we were young pups.
And his smile, it could melt the north pole.
He’s mine and no one else's.
It only makes sense anyway. He’s the future alpha, and since my father is the current 3rd in command, I surely will be the next one. I'll be by his side regardless, so becoming Luna is a no-brainer to me.
‘But, he isn’t our mate. He’ll find his fated mate sooner or later if he hasn’t already.’
‘Shut up, Sacha! He IS going to be our mate!’ I yell out, making her recoil.
Every time I mention Lucas and I becoming mates, she has the same reaction. It’s annoying, to say the least.
He’s our perfect match, how could she not see that?
School’s finally starting this morning and for once, am excited to go.
Lucas should be back from his training in the UK and I can’t wait to see him. It's been too long.
Finally stopping out of the shower after a good twenty minutes, I fix my hair and do my makeup perfectly.
After getting dressed in some skin-tight jeans, a low-cut strappy shirt, and some heels, I head down to the kitchen where my mother awaits my arrival with my favorite morning drink. A mocha chocolate latte.
“Good morning sweetheart. How did you sleep?” She asks, handing me my cup and a bowl of mixed fruits.
“Fine, mom,” I reply, taking a raspberry and plopping it into my mouth.
“Are you sure? You look like you could use some more sleep.” She says, eyeing me from the side.
“I’m fine, mom. You don’t need to ask this every morning.” I huffed, pushing my bowl away.
I suddenly have no appetite.
“I should head off to school now. I’ll see you later” I say, grabbing my cup and backpack, leaving the kitchen quickly before she can ask me more questions.
I love my mother, but she asks me the same question every morning. And I give out the same answer every time.
I step behind the wheel of my convertible and mind-link my friends to make sure they’re on their way to school too.
I hate being alone, so I do everything to keep someone around me most of the time.
When I’m alone for too long, my mind involuntary wonders back to my nightmare, back to that asshole I should have called my forever, my ex of a fated mate.
Piece of trash…
“Hey girl!” Maggie bellows as soon as I exit my car.
“Hey” I replied, grabbing all of my stuff before joining her.
“Did you hear? Brad broke up with Kayla over the weekend! She looks like such a mess. Who would have thought he was such a player?” She says with disgust.
‘I would have. He tries hooking up with anything that moves. It’s not a surprise to me he dumped her after he got what he wanted.’
He’s the same as Blake. They are all the same. Dirty dogs that need to be put on a leash. I told her to stay away from him and why. But she didn't listen.
Just like I didn’t…
I do need to exclude Lucas from the dirty dog category. He’s in a class of his own.
I shake off my thoughts about this and make my way into the school.
Walking down the hallway, Maggie keeps talking about everything that's happened in detail. In the next moment, that stupid school's ugly trash bumps into me.
“Watch where you’re going, you freak! You almost spilled my mocha chocolate latte!”
She mutters a barely audible apology.
This won’t do. I can't let her walk away scot-free.
“You think you can just run away? I don’t think so!” I say, pushing her hard against the lockers.
That’ll teach her to watch where she walks.
She screams in pain as she hits the lockers. What a wimp. I didn't push her that hard.
In the next moment, Lucas rushes in and bends down to help her up.
He’s here!
But why is he being so nice to that freak?
The next word he utter breaks me. Again.
“Mate!” He says to that trash.
No… NO! He cannot be mated with her!
He is mine!