I hate staring at these four blank, white walls.
They are extremely dull. But I suppose it’s the price to pay to get the help that I need.
True to his words, Lucas got me the help that I needed. It took a while for me to fully open up to the therapist, but I eventually started trusting her and confiding all of my thoughts and locked up emotions to her.
My mother was so frantic when she learned about what happened to me.
“No wonder you never wanted to come with us after your sixteenth birthday. Oh, my sweet, sweet girl. I’m so sorry. I wish I’d have known. I would have never pressured you so much.” She says, sobbing while holding onto my hands tightly.
“Is that why Jeremy and his friends tried so hard to talk to you? Did they know?” She asks, hurt of the possibility flashing in her glossed-over eyes.
“No. They don’t know. And if they do, I’m not the one who told them. I didn’t want anyone to know about what happened to me.”
“I should go over there and rip that poor excuse of a wolf into shreds!” My father roared, his nostrils flaring and the vein on his forehead bulging.
“Dad… He’s not worth it.” I exhale.
“But what he did to you…”
“I know dad. But what will it change? It’s not like we can erase the past. I know I wished I could. Goddess knows I wished for it many times. But he’s not with bloodying your hands over.” I explain with a faint smile.
His expression softened, he walked closer to me and kissed my forehead.
“Ok, sweetheart. I won’t do anything. For now. “
“Thanks.”
“We should get going and let you rest some more. We’ll be back later today.” My mother says, wiping her face one more time, giving me an encouraging smile.
“Ok. I’ll see you both later.”
“We love you.” They both say, closing the door behind them.
Staying in my seat silently for a few minutes after my parents left, I took a deep breath and got up. I make my way to the window and look out at the beautiful flowery scenery in front of my window.
‘This place might be a hospital, but it sure knows how to create a beautiful view outside’
'That you are right. It would be nice to take a rest beside them after a good run. Do you think they’d let us out for one? A run I mean.”'Sacha asks.
'I don’t think they’ll let me out for a while. I’m sorry. It’s all my fault.' I whispered.
“It’s ok. You are trying to get better. I know that. As much as I would love to still be mad at you, I can’t. Because I know first hand how much you were hurt. How much I Was hurt by all of this. By that stupid asshole of a jerk mate. And no one but yourself could have made you realize what was right, and what was wrong.” She went on.
“You know you’ll have to face Lucas and Sienna at some point. Lucas did get you the help you needed, but you’ll need to beg for his forgiveness, and hers. You’ve placed them in an unimaginable situation. They were severely injured by your tattle tailing. I’m not chastising you when I say this, I know why you did all of it, but it doesn’t mean you can’t do anything about it now. You’ll need to prove to them that you will no longer do anything to harm them and hurt their mating bond.”
“I know. I know. I have a lot to be forgiven for. And I will, when it’s the right time. I’m pretty sure she won’t want me anywhere near her for a while.”
“Yeah, you might be right. At least you can acknowledge that.” She says with a smile.
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It’s been a few weeks since I’ve been hospitalized, and I am getting much better. I still have a long way to go, but I’m on the right path.
Although today, everyone, including the doctors, all seem on edge.
Opening my magazine to distract myself from this weird atmosphere, I keep fidgeting.
That is until the alarms start resounding loudly from the speakers.
‘What could be going on?!’ Sacha’s questions.
“I’m not sure, but I think that’s the intruder's alarm! Are we being invaded?!’
A warrior suddenly burst through the door, instructing me to get out and into the safe space along with all the other patients, women, and young pups that can’t fight.
Rushing out, I notice the large number of warriors rushing to the woods and some guiding everyone in a safe direction.
I notice one young pup having a hard time walking, so I bend down to help her out.
“What’s your name sweetheart?” I ask, mirroring my mother's warmth.
“Annabelle” She whispers out between her sobs.
Poor girl… She’s so scared!
“Here, grab hold of my neck, I’ll help you get out of here.” I offer, trying to give her a reassuring smile, although I don’t feel quite confident with the situation we are facing.
I’m not used to helping others, but I do want to better myself, and she is still so young and innocent. She reminds me of myself. If only someone had helped me when I needed it. But that’s not the point. Right now, I need to get her to safety.
The closer I get to the safe space, the harder my heartbeats.
Only a few feet left. I think to myself.
Shivers...Sudden shivers crawl all over my body. It’s been years since I have felt this, and for the first time, I’m dreading it.
‘It’s not possible! How could he be here?! Why would he be here?!’ Sacha crooks pure fear.
I stop walking, trembling, hoping my fear is what’s betraying my body. Praying that this isn’t real.
“Well, well, well. It’s this a pleasant surprise” The mocking bastard says.
Slowly putting down the young pup, I keep her protected behind me while I turn to face the person I hate most in this world.
“Blake.”