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I lean on the wall malapit sa entrance ng library.
I'm actually waiting for Chelsea to show up at lumabas mula sa library and I'm here for quite a while now.. I saw her kanina na nagbabasa pa rin sa loob and i don't want to bother her doing her thing. So i decided i will just wait for her here.
I assumed she don't want to be bothered while reading the book because that's what i would want if i were in her shoes.
A small smile tugged my lips when after a while i saw her palabas na ng library.
She's looking around at sinisipat nito ang suot na relo.
I think hindi nya pa ako nakikita dahil nakasandig lang ako sa may pader sa harap ng library. I'm holding my skateboard on my left hand and i have my backpack on.
I sighed. I guess i have to approach her now.
I walk slowly papunta rito with my heart hammering inside my chest. 'Cmon Sydney, you can do this!' I took a deep breathe before taking a few steps closer to her, and:
"Hey!" I manage to say.
I'm almost surprise i did not stuttered. She turn around. And i swore she looked like the the goddesses of Olympus.
Her hair shining almost under the setting sun. She looked surprised to see me there and her eyes.. It's royal blue right now.. It's captivating.
"Hey!" She looked at me and flashed the most dazzling smile i have ever seen.
"Sydney? What are you doing here?"
"Um sasabayan ka pauwi?" I said wincing.
Am i stupid??
I'm stupid.
THAT sounded stupid.
I felt stupid. Until she spoke.
"H-Huh?" She looked surprised but still smiled. s**t. She's freaking smiling.
That smile that can make my knees go weak. It was so gorgeous that I'm almost convinced that it can cure wars and cancers.
Malala na talaga ako. I gulp. 'Cmon Sydney! Just explain why you're here!'
"I bumped into your friend Alison.. a while ago.. And she said that may emergency daw na kailangan syang puntahan.. And she's really in a hurry but hindi ka nya mahanap.." I scratched my head " So she asked me instead kung pwedeng sabay na lang tayo umuwi since sira yung kotse mo at sa kanya ka sumasabay .."
She raised one eyebrow amused. "And you said yes?"
"Yeah" i just nod and shrugged. "It's no big deal." s**t! You know it's a big deal! She's a walking danger sign!' My inner self warned me but i just mentally shake my head. I can't possibly leave her alone and let her walk! She just look so innocent and fragile that needs to be taken care of always. I won't let her walk home alone.
Paano na lang kapag napahamak ito!? My inner battle cut short when she spoke. "Are you sure it's fine? I think it's okay lang naman if I'd go home alone—"
"No!— i mean it's really fine besides she said that your house is just a fifteen minute walk from here" i suddenly scratched the back of my head when i remembered that i will be using my skateboard to go home nga pala today. "Um okay lang ba kung maglakad lang tayo pauwi? If you want you can use my skateboard and i will just walk beside you."
She smiled brightly. "Yeah! Of course it's fine! But.. i don't really know how to ride a skateboard.." She looked down and scratched behind her ear. The thing she always do when she's embarrassed about something and i can't help but to chuckle because of that.
Oh boy! She looked so cute! This girl would be the death of me.
"Don't worry i will teach you how" i just said and saw as her cheeks turn a light shade of red. "If that's the case then i guess.. Sure?" She smile again and i swear my heart beats so loud that i think I'm having a hard time to breathe if she keep that up.
I sigh and tried to relax myself. 'Cmon Sydney! Act like a one normal human being! She will think that you're weird!'
Nagsimula na kaming maglakad pauwi.
I noticed na mabigat yung suot nitong backpack kaya i stop from walking. "Let's switch backpack's" i said kaya nagtataka ako nitong tiningnan.
I sigh bago kinuha na lang ang suot nitong bag pagkatapos ay isinuot sa kanya ang back pack ko. Magaan lang iyon kumpara sa kanya na tila may lamang makakapal na libro sa bigat. Inayos ko muna iyon sa pagkakasuot sa kanya bago ko ayusin ang sa akin.
I saw her smiled on the gesture and i just smiled back at her. We're walking side by side and i can feel her looking at me, so i turn and looked at her. Her eyes widen when she realized that i caught her staring. She look down immediately with red stained cheeks.
Kumunot ang noo ko. 'What is wrong with her?'
"Uhm.. Chelsea?" She finally look up at me when i called her name "Naiinitan ka ba?" I asked her because her face is really red right now. 'May sakit ba ito?'
Agad itong umiling sa akin "No.. I'm f-fine"
Kumunot ang noo ko. "Uhm are you sure? Because your face is so red right now.. Masama ba pakiramdam mo?" Agad naman itong umiling pagkatapos ay biglang inubo. "I'm just fine Syd. Don't worry"
"Okay then" i sigh.
Inilapag ko ang skate board ko nung makalabas na kami ng gate ng school. Nakita ko ring nakasunod sa amin ang kotse ko kung saan naroon si kuya Ty.
I looked at her smiling.
Tinuro ko sa kanya kung paano ang tamang pagsakay sa skate board dahil mukhang interesado talaga itong sumakay doon. I squat a little at bahayang iginiya ang mga binti nya sa tamang posisyon upang hindi ito matumba.
I smiled. "Yan, just keep your left foot on the ground to push yourself" Parang bata na tuwang tuwa naman nitong ginawa iyon and i looked at her amused. She looked like a kid being brought in a toy store, it was an endearing sight.
My smile faltered when suddenly nakita kong nawalan ito ng balanse na ikinatumba nito. Maagap na dinaluhan ko ang dalaga bago pa ito mahulog. I hold her waist habang ang isang kamay ko ay hinawakan ang isang kamay nya. For her to regain her balance and we looked in each others eyes. I shake my head amused. I guess her best friend was right she's a little clumsy and she trip and falls a lot. And i still think its cute.
Is it really like this when you like someone? You find their flaws cute? I'm weirded out by this already. Because for me her flaws are not flaws. She's basically perfect in my eyes that it almost scary.
"Are you okay?" I asked. She nods shyly And i swear to god she looked even more cuter if that is even possible. I sigh. "Just hold my hand to balance yourself is that alright?" Ngumiti ito ng malawak sa sinabi ko.
She clutched my hand tighter while i let go of her waist.
We continued our stroll looking like were holding hands while she's riding my skate board. I can almost feel the butterflies swarming my stomach at the contact. It's a new feeling and i liked it. I think that Maybe just for once i can let myself lose control.
Maybe just this once i can let myself to love the idea for us being together.
The great wall i once build for self preservation all come crumbling down when I'm with her. It's scary because i love my solitude more than anyone but here i am loving her company more right now.
She was meant to admire from a distance and not up close.
But maybe just this once i can let myself enjoy the feeling of her being near.
Of how soft her hands intertwined with mine.
How it sends volts of electricity on my body.
And how she tried to hide her smile by looking down.
We stop walking in our comfortable silence when we reach her house.
A smile automatically lit my face when i saw it. It was a two story typical hardwood floor house. May mini garden din iyon na lalong nagpaganda sa ambiance ng lugar.
The house looks really homey. "Do you want to go inside? I think my mom would really like it when she saw that i bring a new friend home." She asked me shyly while tucking some loose hair strands beneath her ear.
I just smiled at her i slowly let go of her hand na nakalimutang kong hawak ko pa pala and gently shake my head. "I would love to, but I'm afraid i have to go.. My mom is expecting me early today" i told her honestly.
"Maybe next time then?" She asked and i just nod.
Tatalikod na sana ako para umalis noong hinawakan nya ang isang braso ko upang pigilan iyon.
She flashed her most dazzling smile when i looked at her and i can't help but to mirrored that smile. She's really pretty.
No scratched that because she's really gorgeous.
She were like chaos and beauty intertwined, a tornado of roses from divine. It's terrifying and enchanting at the same time. "Thank you so much for today Sydney" she said sincerely and i can't help but to smile too.
My most genuine smile i never gave just for anyone. "You're Welcome Chelsea." And with that i turn my back and started walking away with a smile on my face all my walls already crumbled down.
'That girl would surely be the death of me'
- Writer
