A love to stay

Chapter Three

“ My name is Maddy” she paused a bit and started to say” you don't talk?” “ Oh sorry of course you talk, you don't talk much right?” I smiled softly and said “ of course I talk, I'm just trying to settle and all of that “ She started to turn back and said over her shoulder, “ I understand, I won't bother you though “. I smiled in return and made sure it was audible enough for her to hear so that I won't seem rude .

The room is so nice and comfy,it has an ocean blue color like Maddy's eyes. It is really small, but comfortable. It scented just like Maddy too, maybe because she got here before me. The rooms are just a little demarcated. I made my bed and arranged my things. The room went silent, just little scraping sounds from arranging and our feet against the floor. “ Hope you don't mind me playing music?” Maddy said, peeping into my own side of the room. “ Yeah sure,” I replied. Then she started playing Cardi b music.

“b***h I always knew I liked you” I said under my breath. Cardi b is my favorite artist for real, she has that energy and vibe. She has that boss ass attitude that I admire. She's cute,loving and beautiful. She also keeps it real and that is what I like most about her. I can recite her lyrics bar for bar, she has the most beautiful kids. All my life I've always wanted a family of my own, I want the most beautiful kids, the most loving husband, the most happy home. So when I talk of Cardi, I talk of someone I love and that influences me positively. She is that girl.

“ I never knew you liked Cardi,” Maddy stated . “ Well , I really do. I could listen to her forever” I said smiling. She smiled too. Then we began to talk , from Maddy loving Cardi for being real and being able to manage the haters. We talked about school, about family, about betrayal and friends. “ Well, there is something that will forever haunt me and I cry to this day,” I said looking at her.” What is it?” She asked, looking concerned. Then I proceeded to tell her my story.

There was a guy in my school, he was in my class too. His name is Lucas, my school is a boarding school and he was a boarder. I was a day student and cute little me was having a back and forth then. We weren't really talking but then I started to notice Lucas. Lucas is tall, dark , handsome, his dresses are always neat pressed neatly. He is really brilliant too, especially in math or mostly calculations. I could remember him scoring a 98 in a math test that everyone failed. He doesn't speak to girls , he is so quiet. I started to like him, I even moved my seat because of him. I had to swap with a guy to sit near him, he was so cold. Getting him to talk to me was difficult,he just didn't warm up to me, he didn't want to open up too. The first time he said sorry to me was when he mistakenly injured me and he said sorry in the coldest way possible. I didn't tell anybody that I liked him, I couldn't trust anyone with information like that. I keep things solidly to myself and my secrets…… I'd rather take them to my grave. I started breaking that ice little by little, we stared at each other throughout classes, his dark eyeballs piercing my senses causing my heart to race. I had a very big crush on him. Then, one day after the holidays, I tried to playfully put something in his pocket. We had just resumed, when I tried to reach him he pushed me lightly and said “ leave me alone” That was the height of everything, I take everything but not disrespect. I walked out on him and I never spoke to him again. Luckily for me, Jaden and I resolved, even though Lucas tried to speak to me. I pretended not to see, I didn't want to talk to him. Before graduation, he fell sick and he was hospitalized. I decided to speak to him when he got back, but he never did.

I paused and Maddy stared at me, I was crying softly and she rubbed my shoulder gently. With teary eyes I looked at her and said “ he died, he never came back. I just felt bad for not forgiving him.” In Fact I had to tell my mum, I asked for forgiveness a lot . I had nightmares, it was really disturbing. “ I'm so sorry Kiara,” Maddy said. Then she started to talk about how her mum left her and all the s**t she's been through, and by the time we were done it was dark.

Maddy stood up and paced to her bed, she picked up a little bag. “ I'm off to my boyfriend’s . I'll see you around” she said. “ Ok see you” I said. She left and everywhere became quiet again, I had orientation and all tomorrow. I laid down on the bed, hugging the pillow to my stomach. My mum called to ask after me, she also prepared ewedu soup, I had put it away in the refrigerator. I couldn't sleep, I kept rolling and rolling, I even stood up at some point. I slept off about three hours after. I woke up to a banging on my door as early as 6:30 am.