A love to stay

Chapter Five

I know I've said to myself that I won't be with someone but this felt so different. It felt like it would birth something that would last forever, chatting with him felt so peaceful. No fright or fear, just hope, hope that I won't be broken again. There was a tiny assurance at the back of my mind, it kept assuring me that I won't get hurt.

I prepared for my class, I couldn't concentrate, I kept thinking about his dark penetrative eyes, his seductive smile, his alluring height…… the faint smile on his face and I could bet I've been smiling since then. He texted me and asked if I could see him this evening. It just felt so good, “slow down” I told myself. “He is just a friend, friend???? He is an acquittance , it is safer and better that way “

Deep down, I knew it wasn't just friendship, it was something more. Immediately after class, I dropped my bag and jumped on my bed, holding my cheek in awe, I couldn't believe it. I kept assuring myself that it was just a friend knowing fully well I was lying to myself. I dived into the wardrobe to bring out dresses. My hands on my hips, I kept biting my lower lips staring at these dresses, we were just going to take a walk, I didn't need anything flashy. Just two pants and two crop tops, gray top and gray pants, black top and black pants. I didn't want to wear all black , I didn't want to wear all gray either. I really love black, I think it is classy and really sexy, but not this evening though. Maybe the mixture would be nice, so I decided on putting on the gray pants and the black crop, down to accessories. My mum gave me a necklace on my 16th birthday,I love to call it my signature necklace. I never take it off, if I ever intend to put on a necklace, I just wear it on the signature necklace. Except if the one I intend to wear is gold…. The signature necklace is silver.

His image kept flashing through my memory in the shower, droplets of water causing shivers through my body , down to my toes. My lips were hanging open, as different obscene thoughts ran through my memory, his shoulders….. his hands….. so masculine.. and……. The soap fell off my hands, I stood….. a little frightened, “what was I thinking “ I asked myself.

I promised myself not to think about him again, why am I getting worked up over a walk with a guy that clearly embarrassed me. Maybe he didn't embarrass me, maybe I was just overthinking….. maybe….. just maybe…. Why am I even thinking…… it is just a walk….

Perfume is always the last to put on, I'm definitely not going to see this guy smelling like spoiled eggs, I wanted to be casual but classy. Not because I was going to see him, but I care about my appearance a lot, you can never catch me looking like a rag. I slammed the door behind me and locked it, tossing my keeps in my pocket, my earpods plugged in….. I was ready to go. He texted and asked us to meet at 6:00pm, and I really don't like being late. The can dropped me off around 5:57pm, I paid the driver and watched as he zoomed off. When I got there I started to think of it as a bad idea, maybe I wasn't supposed to come… maybe I was supposed to turn him down… I mean I just broke up with someone……………

Then I stopped thinking, I had to stop thinking…… my senses caught that cologne again, my sixth sense could feel him around. I turned back and I was greeted with those dark eyes, I immediately felt weak in the knees, I could feel moisture gathering between my legs. My hands rolled into fists, as I tightened them nervously, I felt the strong urge to trip and fall but I couldn't, I couldn't fall..I had to show him I was confident , and that his dark seductive eyes had no effect on me. This was the hardest thing ever, being able to walk towards him, with his eyes dark and searching through…. Prying my soul..

I covered the few feets between us and I looked at him. I started to smile softly and I could feel the lines of my mouth soften too. He stood in grace and glory, his height complementing his physique, he was the real definition of the word “handsome” . “ Hi” he said, I continued to stare, his deep voice sending deep sensations through my ear to my brain causing me to shiver slightly. “ Hi,” I replied, dryly. “ You look so good,” he said , his eyes still searching. I noticed his hands were also tightened in his pockets.”You look good too,” I said honestly. “ You care to know my name?” He asked , his eyes gleaming. I didn't need to know his name, his name was already saved as “sexy boy” on my phone. He was truly sexy…. More than sexy. I started to talk and then I stopped, my eyes widened incredibly……….