The Tale of Xenosa

Talks With Gavin

Xenosa's POV:

"Why is it every time we meet each other I always find you here?"I hear a voice say beside me. His tone playfult and teasing. I opened my eyes to see Gavin hovering over me. I was too tired to respond but I still did nonetheless, "Don't you think this is our new bonding with each other? This is super fun you know with me occasionally stealing your spot and you appearing out of nowhere to take it back. Then I refuse to give it back to you so we argue and bicker, then after we'll act like were the beset of frends, " I said sarcastically. "Don't you think it's a bit too fairytale like for us? I mean it's a common cliche in romcoms and chickflicks," Gavin replied matching the amount of sarcasm I gave. I rolled my eyes at him and sat up a little, "Look around Gav, we are in a fairy tale, we're the main characters. Haven't you noticed?" I replied then closed my eyes again. I heard a chuckle from him. Someone's energetic. "Don't you have training? Or aren't you supposed to be in training right now mister?" I asked. Using some kind of mother tone with him. "I finished early mother, don't you worry," he answered. the playfulness still very much evident on the tone of his voice. Me on the other hand is almost not having any energy within my body right now. Despite my current situation I still tried my best to match the snarky-ness of his comment. To be honest, I'd really like to be alone right now. Like having the time to sort out my thoughts and be at peace with my own company. I then thought that if ever I'm going to be alone right now like in my current situation I'd have a hard time in organizing my thoughts, it would be better to have someone to talk to. Don't get me wrong being alone isn't bad, I actually like being by myself but I think having someone to talk to would really help with the whole situation. These past month I haven't had the chance to really be alone since on my way here I was with Cresia or Luci the entire time. And if it weren't for them I don't think I'd still be sane today, I don't even know if I'll be able to reach this place without their help. "So what's up?" He asked as he sat down beside me. I scooted to the side a little so that there's a bit of space between us. It's not like I'm not comfortable enough to be in close proximity with him it's just that I was sweaty and dirty from my training. Him on the other hand looked as clean as a baby. He's very neat looking, he cleans up pretty well. It's either his training isn't that hard or his just naturally good at these things that's why he doesn't seem to be as stressed and tired as I am. I'm quite comfortable with him to be honest. I don't find my self in constant guard like the others whom I just met. With him everything feels natural. He has this aura that makes him seem like a very trustworthy and approachable person.Unlike our first meeting with each other there wasn't any tension going on. That's a good sign right? It's important we've cleared that out before lunch. I know we talked at lunch time but it was just hte casual getting to know each other. Not the really deep conversations yet. "Well I've had a rough morning, no scratch that the whole day was tough," I started to say. I don't know why I was babbling about this and I don't why out of all the people here he's the one I'm babbling to. Am I making any sense right now? Well, I hope I am. "To start, I practiced the entire morning and I wasn't able to master anything," I said as I sighed dramatically for extra effects. That earned another laugh from him. This urged me to continue to talk, "When afternoon came, I was able to do two of them successfully. While the other two, eh not su much," I said disappointedly. Gavin understandingly nodded his head at me, "Yeah I heard you had trouble with the basics yesterday," he said. I looked at the ground feeling embarrassed as I remember the incident that occured. Geez Gavin no need to remind me about this. I mentally rolled my eyes at this. But it wasn't his fault really, I just felt really guilty about the whole thing, not only did I disrupt everybody's afternoon training but I injured him too. I really did ruin the first day of training. "Why were you having trouble with it by the way?" he asked, as he scratched the back of his head nervously. "That is if you want to answer me though, no pressure about it," he quickly added. He even raised his hands defensively. Awe what a cutie. Okay. Hold up. Just what was I just thinking. get a grip Xen. I shouldn't really be thinking about things like that. I didn't have the time to do that. I shook the thought out of my head as quickly as it came. I took a deep breath and prepared my self for quite a long explanation, "Well the truth is when I was trying out the energy water ball technique thingy Lady Eas was telling me about Sitan and his agents. It was my fault, I asked for it. I got curious about the entire thing and nobody was telling me about it. So anyway the energy ball required me to tap into my core and let the energy flow. You know like going to the deepest parts of yourself as a person?" I asked. He nodded as a reply. "Yeah that kind of core. Now don't get me wrong I was able to do that but when I did I think that was when Sitan was able to connect with me," I explained. I saw panic come through his eyes. Oh no I made the wrong move. My eyes then widened at the realization that I've just spilled something very important. Information that hasn't been approved by the higher ups yet. I didn't want anyone to get in trouble. I immediately covered my mouth, "Wait Gavin, don't react just yet. I-I didn't mean to dump all that on you," I said as I tried to explain. Feeling more embarrassed now more than ever. I could feel my cheeks redden and I think my entire face was already red too. Good thing Gavin recovered almost instantly but shock was still very much evident on his face. "Ahm no it's fine. Calm down Xen, I'm sure the elders would disseminate the information sooner than expected anyway. Knowing that we're in a middle of a crisis they'll act on it soon enough. It's just that you told me ahead of time. It's not like I'd share this to the others anyway. So don't worry about it, alright?" I then nodded at him. Relieved that he was chill about it. Okay that was a better reaction that I expected him to have. So I then continued to tell my story,"Yeah so as I was saying, I think that was when Sitan was able to connect with me. He was inside of my head. It was like we were in some kind of other realm. A limbo if you would call it. Some where in between of his and I's consciousness. He was able to inflict physical injuries on me as well, he's whole presence was heavy you know. I could literally feel the whole weight on my chest. He wasn't like any of the gods here in Biringan that we've met," I took a moment to catch my breath and then started to explain again. "When I attempted to do it again a while ago I heard negative voices. Negative in the sense they had a bad memory attached to them. I even heard Sitan himself again" I explained further. "Is it possible that you're scared of him? You know due to the fact that your first attempt at the technique lead to him uhm connecting with you?" Gavin said unsure of what he was saying. I thought about that too. It was a given. Of course I was frightened by the whole experience that was no secret. A long deep silence then followed that statement, I slowly nodded my head a few seconds after. "Yeah maybe it is trauma..." I trailed off. "Or something's just really putting you off, a thought or a memory perhaps?" he said suggesting possible reasons I was having trouble connecting to my core again. That's when the realization hit me, like a pile of bricks that just suddenly fell down from the sky. "That's right! Not only did the whole thing traumatized me but something else that happened last night as well. Last night when I fell asleep after everything that happened, I dreamed about something peculiar," I said a bit more excited that I should be. "You want to elaborate on that? Or do you prefer to uh keep to yourself?" he asked. I pondered on that for a while. Maybe it's a good idea to talk about it with someone else and not just my self. No man's an island after all. "I think we should talk about it. I think it'll help sort out the entire thing," I said. After that I made my self a bit more comfortable by changing the way I sat. I Indian sat across Gavin and he did the same thing too. "Okay whenever you're ready," he said. I toook a deep breath and said "Okay so, I had a dream . Well, actually before that Cresia and I had this conversation about her vision. And last night I dreamt of it. There were four statues, in the prophecy it mentioned that only four would make it to the heart right? So at first I thought like that place was the heart, but then the vision showed Sitan and his four agents as well. So maybe that place wasn't the heart? Because then that would make eight plus people there, already. Right?" I asked Gavin for some sort of confirmation. I left out the fact that in the four statues he was there. Cresia, me and Gavin. Those were the faces that were very clear on the vision or dream I had last night. He then nodded at me, confirming my thoughts. "What else happened?" He asked. "I think I saw Bathala there as well Gav. I don't know if he was helping us or was he just making the statues disappear into thin air. I'm not really sure that it was him though, but I felt like it was. Not only that but Sitan and his agents were dusted away too, what could that mean?" I asked hypothetically. Was it possible that we weren't the one's who will defeat Sitan once and for all? Or that we weren't able to do what the prophecy needed us to do and that's why Bathala had to step in? I was about to overthink some more but Gavin interrupted my thoughts. "Xen, I think the dream meant we weren't alone in this fight. Like it showed that Bathala will help. Let's try to think about it in a positive way. I mean we shouldn't look at it in a negative way in the first place. We should try to take a new perspective on it," he said. "I guess that's the reason why you were having trouble connecting with your core. You had negative thoughts looming around your mind. A little tip that I learned while practicing my powers, it's to always let the positive energies flow," he expalined. I guess that's a good idea. I have to admit I'm a negative type of person. It's just that when you always expect negative outcomes from things the level of disappoint won't be as high. I know you guys get what I'm saying. "I guess you're right about that Gav, I'll try and take a new perspective. Buw what do you do with the the negative ones? Do you gatekeep them? I asked genuinely curious. "Well no. To be honest, I turn the negative ones into positive thoughts. You know looking at the brighter side of things. You should try it sometimes," he teasingly said. I elbowed him softly on his belly, not really enough to inflict any pain on him. I then smiled and laughed at him. He joined later on. I'm actually really thankful for him being here today. It means a lot. Once we both calmed down I then said with a smile, "Yeah I guess I should try. Thanks for being here by the way, I owe you" I then saw a smile curve at his lips too.