CHAPTER 13
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TESSIE'S POV
I leaned against the door breathing heavily and closed my eyes tightly. That had just happened. I could try to blame Jace for it but that lie would haunt me for as long as I kept it up. He hadn't forced me to step forward. He had actually given me an out but I hadn't taken it. I didn't want to. How could I while his breath even though it wasn't even two hours since he woke up was so fresh and so arousing? I shivered at the thought and hugged myself closer.
Nothing about how wrong it was had crossed my mind the moment I kissed him and everything I had felt was wrong. How was I supposed to make a sane decision with that? I didn't even want to be right or wrong, I just wanted to feel. Jace was making me feel things. The tingle in my center, the desire to get lost in his touch and how he kissed, to bury my face in his bosom and just stay there forever.
My hand traveled across my chest, brushing lightly over my breasts as my fingers sought the skin of my neck. The thought of his breath tickling my skin transported me to another world. I was lost in it for a moment, exhaling as my body pressed against the door. I wanted him there, his hands replacing mine. Yet I had left him downstairs in his own agony. His bulge had made me panic because I hadn't been expecting that. A part of me had still been doubtful about his intentions but the look I had seen in his eyes downstairs, desperate, and his hardness being more evidence, I was now convinced. What did it all mean for us? Instead of waiting to find out, I ran. Not that I wanted to but I had no idea what to do. It was embarrassing!
Hurried footsteps in the hall startled me back to the present. My heart jumped in anticipation. I half expected him to knock on my door but he walked past and seconds later, his bedroom door banged closed. I sighed heavily and closed my eyes not sure if I was relieved or disappointed.
I was about to step towards my bed when a groan stopped me. I froze at the door, my heart picking up pace. Was he...? I got back to the door and opened it slowly. The walls of the house were too thin, especially for someone standing in the hallway. I had never seen any problem with that until that moment because standing at my door, I could hear his raspy grunts in his room. He was jerking off. Perhaps I should have been disgusted by that but I wasn't. I had been the cause of that and the thought of him getting off because of me excited me. Sensations coursed through my stream causing a tingle in my center. I pressed my thighs together unconsciously and took a sharp intake of breath. Suddenly I wanted to get closer and maybe get a glimpse of what he was doing. I took a step towards his door but caught myself midway.
"What the f**k is wrong with me?" I muttered under my breath and turned around quickly.
I locked my door and stood there for a minute gathering myself. It had just been a kiss, right? That didn't have to mean anything. We could still keep living together and forget about it. Perhaps all those feelings would go away with time. Those were the thoughts I was struggling with as I stood there. I didn't want any of it to go away and I knew that nothing would be normal anymore around him. I would still know about the kiss, still look at him and feel all those things. The ones that had conjured up a pool of wetness in my pants.
I froze as my hand stilled on the dampness. How had it even gotten there? I had been too lost in my subconscious to notice what I was doing while biting my bottom lip until that moment. It was then that I knew I was f****d. Well, what was the point of fighting it anyway?
I clicked on a site using my laptop, got inside my bed, and hid underneath the covers. Not that anyone could walk in on me. The door was locked. I drove my fingers into my pants and started rubbing slowly. I closed my eyes as the rhythm took root, the image of Jace embedded in my photographic memory. I took him in, his perfectly carved collarbone that became even more pronounced whenever he ground his teeth, his strong muscular arms and sporty body, his eyes that made me freeze every time he looked at me, and his hard c**k. At least what I imagined it was remembering the bulge in his boxers and when he had pressed it against me. A silent moan escaped into the covers almost cutting short my imagination. I clasped my left hand over my mouth and kept going. I was so far gone that I didn't hear the knock on my door until someone banged on it loudly.
"Tess, are you dead? Open up!" It was Ava's voice. Bollocks!
I shot up quickly and rushed to the bathroom in panic then splashed cold water over my face. I touched my neck with the cold hands cooling down my body then stared at the reflection in the mirror.
"Don't you dare judge me!" I stated rolling my eyes.
"What are you doing in there? Are you with someone?"
"I'm coming, jeez!" I responded in frustration then headed to the door and opened it. Ava looked at me inquisitively. I wanted to avert my eyes suddenly feeling like she could see my actions written all over my face but quickly found a topic. "What are you doing here? I thought you were coming over in a few hours not minutes."
"Well," Ava stated and looked past her into the room as if looking for someone. "I figured I could come earlier and maybe spend some time with you and get to know Jace." I rolled my eyes. "Who were you talking to?"
"No one," I stated almost too harshly. Ava's accusatory gaze hardened on me before she stepped inside quickly and headed to my bed. Before I could realize it, she was holding my laptop and the gasp that came after was enough to make me want to disappear forever. "Give me that!" I demanded and lunged forward for it but she jumped away.
"Oh my God, Tessaiah Prescott! Were you watching porn?" she squealed.
"No, I wasn't!"
"Yes you were!" she spelled out the words as if she was uttering the best words in the world. "This is huge!" she squealed again.
Just then, Jace appeared at the door with a smirk spreading across his face. He had heard everything. I couldn't look at him. My face blossomed into a rash of embarrassment as I hit my bed face-first.
"Ava!" I groaned into the covers.
"Oh, hi Jace!" she greeted excitedly. This was going to be the longest day ever.
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