Her Absolution

Chapter 26

Ashton Pov:

    "Where are you taking me? Not my house, right?" She looks at me again as I ask her this and then back to the road.

  "No, dummy and not my house either. Mom will kill me. I'm taking you to the nearest motel. Now answer my question we have a deal." She is right but how can I tell her the reason that I drank was because I was thinking of her and how she makes me feel. 

    Autumn is driving to where the hotels, motels, and inns are in town. I don't look at her and answer her with complete honesty. Maybe if I tell her what's going on then she can put me in the narrow by saying that I'm crazy.

    "Because I can't stop thinking about you. You invade my mind and my life like a freaking storm." I feel a little relief telling her. "I do? Stop playing games Ashton." I shake my head and look outside the window. Where almost there, please let's go to a hotel and not a motel. 

    " I'm not playing games. Ever since you came into my life all I do is think about you. The way you bite your lip when you're thinking too much, or something turns you on. Of how you smile at your friends. How you get bother when one of your hair strands gets out of the ponytail and is on your face. How you laugh lowly hiding your real one. I can't stop thinking about you or your eyes or how you captivate me with just being you. I mean I wanted to get laid tonight an all I kept thinking is that I want to f**k you, only you. I want to have you under me, moaning my name, screaming with me giving you pleasure. How I want to f*****g kiss those lips right now until I'm out of breath."

    I exhale and inhale trying to calm down. I was talking like a rambling, crazy person. She's still driving but she doesn't turn to me or says anything. Silence, complete silence surrounds us. I f**k it up, but I had to tell her. This is killing me. She is making me crazy not only my mind but my body too. My body is reacting to her and no one else. Like it knows that it only wants her. I can feel my heart beating fast waiting for her answer or a reaction from her. 

"You make me crazy, Autumn." 

    She doesn't say anything or looks at me. Autumn is concentrating on the road. "Can you please say something?" Nothing comes from her, no yelling no screaming or hitting. I prefer if she does one of those things. Her not doing or saying anything is killing me. I sight from the stress I created by telling her what was on my mind. Now she's going to think I'm crazy, but who will blame her. 

    Autumn pulls in a hotel's entrance and get out of the car handing the guy at the valet parking the keys. She goes and takes a duffel bag out of the trunk of her car. We go inside to the counter. There are two persons on the other side of the counter. I look at my watch and see that it's 1 am, damn. "You’re paying for our rooms. It's the least you can do." I don't argue with her, it's best. She seems mad.

    "Hello. Welcome to Luxurious. How may I help you?" One of the men behind the counter ask us. Autumn gives him a small smile. She sees his name tag. "Hi, Corby. We will like two rooms please." The guy named Corby starts typing on the computer looking for rooms vacant. "I'm sorry. Due to several conventions been held at our hotel we only have one room vacant. Will you still like to take it?"

    s**t. No way that I'm spending the night with her in a room. "Yes, well take it. He will pay." But she has other plans, great. Kill me now. Didn't she hear what I said back in the car? This is so frustrating. Autumn gives me a look that says hurry up and I move to pay. "How long will it be the stay?" As I'm taking my wallet out, I told him for one night. I give him one of my cards, paying the stupid room. 

    I massage my forehead feeling a headache coming on. Corby gives her the room card key. "Corby do you by any chance have some aspirin and water? Or is the gift shop open?" I look at her, surprised that she asked him for those things. Corby gives her a smile. "You are in luck young lady. Earlier an accident occurred, and I have some aspirin left. Wait here." He moves to the other end of the counter looking for the aspirin.

    He comes back and stands in front of his work computer giving her two small packages. Autumn takes it and I see is the kind that are for individual sales. Corby gives her two bottles of water. I take the bottles and he give me back my card, saying to have a wonderful night and to enjoy our stay in the hotel. Typical hotel management bull crap speech. I follow her to the elevator and enter. She is still not talking to me.

    "We could have look for another hotel or a motel that has two vacant rooms." I look down at her since I'm taller than her and she is wearing her converse. This doesn't give her a height advantage. "It's one in the morning Ashton. I wasn't up for a hunt for places that have more vacant rooms just so you don't share a room with me because you want to f**k me." She says this while looking up at me. I can feel her anger towards me. 

    The elevator doors open, stopping at our floor. We get out and look for our room, finding it in a minute. She inserts the key card and opens the door. Holding it for her, so that she goes in first. I may act like a d**k, but mom taught me manners. "Take a shower you reek of alcohol." I smell my shirt, ugh, she's right. There's only one problem I don't have other clothes to change to. 

    "Here. I took this from Parker's room." Autumn is holding some folded clothes in her hands. Taking it from her I go to the bathroom. Last thing I see is her getting in the bed. Feeling sleep starting to consume me I shower fast. As I exit the bathroom, I see her laying on the bed. She's on her side, her back turn to me. I don't feel comfortable sleeping next to her but I'm not sleeping on the floor. "Just get in here. I don't bite." I go to where the water bottles and aspirin are and take them.

    I lay next to her on the bed and look at the ceiling with my arms behind my head. I feel her tensing as I got on the bed. "You, okay?" She’s moving and I look at her, seeing that she is looking at the ceiling too. Autumn is playing with her fingers, and she closes her eyes. "Yeah, just tired." Her black hair is all over the place. "You're not going to say anything about what I told you in the car?"

    Autumn opens her eyes, but she doesn't look at me. "I really don't know what to say to that Ashton. Go to sleep is late and we have school tomorrow." After that she turns to her side again, her back on my face and her hair displaced. I turn too. I start closing my eyes, sleep wining over. The last thing I see is her back and then darkness. 

"It's too hot."

"No. Don't let go."

    I wake up because I hear her talking and whimpering. I lift my upper body, sitting on the bed. I put my hand on her shoulder and shake her a little. She doesn't wake up. "No, please don't leave me. Stay." She's having a nightmare; I shake her shoulder again and nothing. "Autumn wake up." She starts moving on the bed, it was like she was fighting. "Autumn wake up!" This time my voice a little louder but she is still not waking up. 

    Autumn's body is shaking and moving excessively, I'm scare she is going to hit me or worse hurt herself. I once again put my hand on her shoulders and shake her trying to wake her up, but nothing works. A few seconds later she calms down, her breathing is normal, and she is not screaming or tossing around. I sight relaxing too. The nightmare most have passed. 

    I look at her, my sleep long gone. She's relaxed now but the way she was tossing and moving, it scared me. Even more that I tried to wake her up and it didn't work. I hear her whimpering again, but this time it almost sounds like muffle cries. Some tears start falling on her cheeks. It most be one hell of a nightmare. "Not her, please." She's talking again. Who is she talking about?

"She's innocent. It's not true. Where is she?" Her body turns to the side, her face in my direction. I'm still siting on the bed; she's facing towards me. "Why me mom? Why did this happened to me?" I think Autumn is having more than one nightmare. I see that she is still crying and tossing but not like before. I lay down my upper body and get close to her. I put my arms around her and pull her close to my chest. She calms down and I don't hear her crying or talking or whimpering. 

    Autumn stays still in my arms. I know it's wrong to do this without her permission but it's the only thing I could think of that will calm her. For her to stop tossing and talking. Autumn in my arms feels normal and good. It feels like we have done this before. I like this, me holding her tight and hugging her. It makes me feel something I haven't felt in a long time, a warmth long forgotten. She presses her body more to me, getting comfortable. Autumn's low and calm breaths lull me to sleep.